I lay down on the bed in one of the passenger train's quarters. Last night I couldn't sleep. Even breathing seems to hard to do. The number one rule to mankind. The fact that Dawn and Toki had an intimate relationship and that he'd left her just like that is beyond my understanding. How could he have left without so much as a single word? It had been eating me up like a contagious virus. While we waited for the train to enter the station, I could tell that he knew how much of a hard time I had digesting the truth. I wanted so badly to believe that we could pull through, but that's just wishful thinking. When he kissed me goodbye, it was for good. He whispered in a low breathing tone, how sorry he is for it to have come to this and informed me that he's still in love with Dawn. It's like a dagger through the heart.
Violette have no idea that I'm returning, so I'm planning on surprising her. Night pulled a few strings, allowing me to share a room with Violette, as I did before. I've been so full of joy the last couple of months, dating Toki. I never thought about the remote possiblity that things would ever end this way. We never went to second base. Night always kept an eye on us and I can clearly see why. What am I to do now? He just ended it like I meant nothing to him. I had yet to shed a tear, but I fear it's still to come. Is there something wrong with me? First Lee and now Toki. Am I destined to grow old at my lonesome self?
Rei's out of the picture, his got Sakura. Though I don't have the faintest idea how she keeps up with him. I guess you'd do just about anything for love. Am I really to die alone? Cold, grey and a virgin, for all eternity. Perhaps it's best if I am to become a nun. Imagine me in a nun attire with a water blade in my left hand. How hilarious? That's just my luck- what does it help to have the appearance of a goddess, if I'm most likely growing up alone? All of this thinking is giving me a major headache. Somewhere along the line I drifted off to sleep. I woke up to the conductor's voice, coming over the intercom. Informing the passengers on board that we'll be arriving at Kyoto station within fifteen minutes. I stood up, stretching out my tired limbs before getting my belongings together. I have only two bags of luggage. Easy to carry by myself. After I left the station I paid a cab driver to take me straight to the Tsuki Academy. It will be great seeing my friends again, it's been months since I've left, thinking that I would never see them again.
The first cherry blossoms are parading in the trees. I made my way to the dormitory and came to a stand in front of the room. After a while I opened the door to the room and entered. It's hard not to notice it, the scene playing of before me couldn't be a trick of the light. Violette is laying on her back, making out with- wait? What? No, it can't be! Unfortunately my eyes aren't deceiving me. It's Yuuki. I put my bags down and made a run for it. Quickly I made my way down the corridor. At my pace I dare not to stop and bumped into Sinro. I looked up at him, tears smudging my mascara. Are they all still here? "You're back- and you're crying... Why are you crying?" Damn I thought as I rubbed the tears away with the back of my hand. I never even felt this way about Toki, so why does it feel like someone just ripped my heart out of my chest and stomped upon it? The more I seemed to rub the tears away, the more they came. I just stood there tongue tied as Rei joined his side. His hand locked with that of Sakura's. "Why are you crying?" He too asked me. I need to get out of here. Their slowly suffocating me. Before I could even move, I heard Violette's voice calling my name. I turn my head slightly, looking over my shoulder in her direction. She and her kissing partner were also holding hands. Some new tears blurred my vision. I ripped my eyes away from them, feeling how my heart falls into oblivion. In the meantime Lee too has joined the party. He rushed towards my side and made way for us to pass. He took me outside and sat me down in a wooden bench. The air cool against my face.
He was just about to ask me what's with all the tears when a familiar stranger squat down in front of me. "Hello there, it's been a long time; haven't it?" It's Heike. I still can't believe that Night had worked alongside them. It passes my understanding completely. He rubbed my tears away just as Hachioji sat down beside me. She gave me a little shoulder hug. I guess that lots have happened since I've left. I gave a loud sigh and answered their unspoken questions. "Toki and I... (I swallowed down my tears) We're done! His gone back to Dawn." I'm amazed at how steady my voice is. Toki has some reason behind my tears, but Yuuki gets part of the blame too. "You could stop those tears now; he'll soon be crawling back. Her sister would never allow it," Hachioji said. "I'm afraid that you're wrong! Apparently Renski is married to my brother, but even so he won't let anybody stand in his way." I confessed. They're clearly blown away by my revolution. "Wait- what? You're Midnight Nevada's sister?" Rei asked as he walked closer towards me. "Back in the day he asked me to keep an eye out for you. To keep you out of harm's way, if our paths were ever to cross. I had one task, making sure that you never set eyes on Toki. Unfortunately he never told me your name. I'm so sorry, I had no idea," he kind of apologized. So Night had talked about me after all. What a relief? "So I guess now that the guys are taken, you show up being single. What rotten luck?" Hachioji said. I looked around the crowd of bystanders and asked as I gave Sinro a little smile, "What? Not you too?" He blushed a little, while the others laughed. Except for Hachioji that is. I could tell by the way her mood had fallen that she was ready to pounce. I shouldn't scratch where it doesn't itch. I don't need her to confirm my suspicion by saying what I already know. Sinro is hers and she's not willing to share. That proofs is I am officially the odd one out.
I've lost everything important to me. Both of my parents to a horrible accident, my boyfriend dumped me for his ex and neither of my best friends is mine anymore. "Please kill me now? I've lost everything," I mumbled under my breath. Looking down at my feet. "What? Did you? Say!" Lee questioned annoyed. I looked up at him; didn't think that anybody heard me. Well, apparently Yuuki heard me too. I could see it as clearly as sun on a cloudless day. "Nothing! Just leave it be," I spat like a poisonous snake as I stood up and left. I didn't turn back or say another word. I mean what more is there to say? I just want to put an end to life as I know it....