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Chapter 10 - Chapter 05

Haru's POV

I don't know how many times I heard someone shouting and looking to my parents and my Oneechan's face.Then...I found myself shouting at them.

"I TOLD YOU THAT I DON'T NEED THOSE MEDICINES.I DON'T FEEL ANXIETY OR DEPRESSION."I shouted to them letting the angry feeling from inside explode.

"You can shout to me but don't shout Hahaoya and Otousan.Know your limits when you're angry,Haru."Oneechan said to me.

"Do you think I care about what you say?I didn't care anymore...I don't treat you as my Oneechan.And I will never forgive you."I replied in a angry tone.

"Haru...it's been one year since that day happen.Forget it...it's a past.Past is past."she said back to me.

I laughed so sarcastically because she feel so innocent but the truth she will do everything to get what she wants...even she will hurt others.

"Haru..."Hahaoya called me but...I don't feel I can talk to them.

"Get out...I can't talk to you now.I'm not in a good mood."I said to them in a calm tone.

Mom looked concern at me but...I avoid my gaze from her.I don't want to hurt them because of the feeling I can feel now...angry.

I sit on the edge of my bed and clench my fist in my bedsheet.Horrible past of mine keep coming...it's like my past is HUNTING ME.

I do something horrible in the past then...I confessed it to Yuki who hasn't confronted me about it even though it happen two days ago.

I know he curious about me but...I know that he respect my privacy but my past and him...is keeping to touch to each other.I clench my shirt where my heart connected...I need to avoid and controll this feelings before it will be late for us...I'm gonna take all the pain.

I'm walking in the street...a quiet street in 5 of the morning.I decided to walk since I can't sleep anymore.I woke up because of a bad nightmare that every night comes when I was sleeping.

The pain...I'm feeling right now is endless.My past keep hunting me even though I want to forget it but...memories keep coming back making me to destroy myself until I will look and feel devasted.

I can feel the cold air in my face.I can see the sakura is blooming.The pink color remind me something in Spring day in my past...where I only feel happy...no suffering...no despair...no pain.

I bumped into someone and my face hit on his chest.Ouch...his chest is like a rock.I look to the person and when he saw my face...he hug but...I pushed him away.Why would a stranger hug without reason?

"Haruka,can't you remember me?"he ask me while smiling like a idiot.

Wait...the person who only call me Haruka...is only Eijun.I look again in his face.He has white hair,white and smooth skin,a thin pinkish lips,a green eyes,a thin eyebrow and thick eyelashes.He doesn't remembrance to Eijun but...his eyes is same as Eijun's eyes.

"Don't you remember me,Haruka?I know that my appearance changed so much and the only remembrance is my eyes but...it's me Haruka...it's Fujita Eijun."he said and he smiled again like a idiot.

Well...the only person I only know that can smile like a idiot,it's him.His family migrate in U.S and it's been long time since the last time I saw him.

"We back again because Hahaoya wants to live again and we will never back to U.S.Our life is peaceful here...than there."Eijun said while looking to the food he wants.

We're here in convenience store and looking for some foods to eat.I left in house without eating anything...and I can feel that I'm hungry.

I just buy two onigiri and a bottle water.I'm gonna eat breakfast because Hahaoya will force me to eat even though I don't want to eat.

I go outside...waiting for Eijun who is still looking and picking foods that he want to buy.

"Haru-chan!"Yuzuru greet me in a cheerful way.

I swallowed hard and drink water immediately.I didn't expect them to see them here.

"What are you do--."someone cut Yuzuru's words.

"Haru...let's go.Your parents might finding you know."Eijun said to me and I just nodded.

When I saw how many things he buy...I pout because he looks like he bought a grocery items for them.

He pull me buy holding my right wrist.I can feel the stare of my classmates.I know what are their thinking.

"Do you have boyfriend,Haru?"he ask and stop walking and he look at my classmates.

"I don't have either girlfriend."I answer without looking back to my classmates.

"Aww...you waited me,don't you?"he ask before pinching my cheeks.

I look at Yuki who's looking at me right.He seems so confused about me and my past.The way he look at me...I know what he's thinking right now.

"Are you okay,Haru?"Eijun ask me when he notice my reaction on my face.

"Do you know how to delete memories,Eijun?"I ask him while looking at the clear sky.

I smile while looking at the sky...a sad smile that I usually use to smile when I always remember the memories of my past that keeps me hunting.

"Well...I don't know too.I came back here in Japan so that I can take care of you after knowing about what happen to you...a year ago."

Honestly...I missed him because sometimes he's only the person in my side when I was sad.The past that I can't forget will devasted me.