Haru's POV
I'm still crying while watching and letting Yuki to do the things he want to do with me.My body was trembling when he's jerking my thing using his mouth and tounge.
I put the back of my hand on my mouth to cover my moans and my sobs.I'm crying limitless while letting a person who really doesn't know anything to me.
I arched my back when I felt that he put inside of my hole is slender middle finger.It's hurt...it's really hurt since it's been a year when someone put something in my hole.
"Umhhmm...Yuki.."I moaned when he found my spot.
I clench my fist while holding the bedsheet and trying to stop myself to moan.We don't know what will happen when someone caught us.
"S-stop it...Yuki...please,I'm begging to you."I said while trying to not break my voice.
But...he just smile before he kiss my forehead.I'm crying not because of the fear I'm feeling right now.It is because the feeling that begin to form.
"Don't cry...don't be scared if someone caught us...I will take it as responsibility."he said and cry harder when I heard it from his mouth.
I slap him making his eyes wider.I really don't want to do it but I have no choice because he's talking to nonsense.Take a responsibility,huh?I push him so hard as I can.He's really a idiot and he thinks that he can fool me using his words.
"You cannot fool me...you just like the other people,you're just gonna use me."
"Haru..."he softly called me and trying to approach me but I stop him.
"Don't come any closer,Yuki.You cannot fool me.I know that you cannot take a responsibility,you will choose your girlfriend.You will never choose me...no one will choose me,Yuki."
I stood up and I was about to run towards the door but Yuki held my wrist forceful making me to wince in pain.I was shocked when he push me to the bed and he's on top of me already.
I push him when I feel his thing poke to my hole.But...before I can shout,he kiss me then he put his thing on my hole.My nails dig to his back because of the pain that I'm feeling when he put his things to my hole.
After a few seconds,he try to move inside of me.He pulled out of the kiss and I'm catching my breath.My tears were on the side of my eyes and I digger deeper my nails to his back while biting my lower lip to stop myself to moan louder.
"So tight..."he said while moving in and out in my hole.
He's finding my spot and I clench my teeth not because of the angry and guilt that I'm feeling...it's because it's really hurts.
"It's hurts,Yuki..."I complain while moaning.
He's moving fast and hard making me moan a bit louder.I bite my lower lip,so that I cannot moan louder again.He's kissing my temple while still moving on my top.I moaned softly when he find my spot.
I grip the bedsheet while trying not to moan so that we cannot caught with someone.After this,I will leave and never think that this will happen to us.It will never happen to us again because I will never let him to do this.I will never...
I'm on balcony while the futon was wrapped in my whole body.I'm watching the stars and moon.I need to relax myself even a little bit because of what happen to me and Yuki.This thing is not really right...and really wrong in any eyes and ears of people.
I'm letting myself feel the cold wind...the cold wind that make me relax everytime that problem coming to me.
"Haru..."Yuki called me and I look at him.
I removed my gaze to him and I look back at the sky that full of stars and moon in this night.It's makes me relax myself.
"I'm really sorry,Haru.I cannot stop myself that's why I did a horrible thing to you.I'm really sorry."he said and I can say that he's sincere.
"It's okay...I guess we should distance ourselves to each other to prevent this to happen again."I replied while sipping the tea that he made.
"Haru...I mean,I can take responsibility what happen to us."he disagree to what I said.
"I will never get pregnant,Yuki.I'm not a girl,I'm a boy,Yuki."I coldly said while putting the cup to the table.
"I know...Haru.I know that you will never get pregnant but...it's a horrible thing to do to you."he disagree to what I said to him.
I stand up and leave him behind.I lock the door of the bathroom and I quickly change.I need to go home already because I think Hahaoya and Otousan were worried to me.
"You're going home already?"he ask when he saw what I'm wearing right now.
I just nod and give him the pair of his pajama that I borrowed to him.I just want to get rest right now.I'm tired both physically and mentally.
"Haru...I'm not lying.I really want to take the responsibility because Oneechan already caught us even she only heard you moan."he said and I feel the sadness and guiltness on his voice.
"I'm fine..."I said while smiling to him.
I was shocked when he hug me in my back.His arms is snaking to my waist.And I can feel his breath in my neck.I can feel the heat on my cheeks and I can hear my loud heartbeat.
"I can be your baby,Haru..."he huskily said while kissing my neck...