Yuki's P.O.V
I don't know how many times I repeat to play the song he sang before he leaves to their band.I heard a rumors that he really leaves their band because of some reason about his health.But I bet...that they lying.
He will never leave their band because since he was kind playing guitar and singing is his talent and favorite hobby.I love his voice because it was soft and his voice can reached a person's heart.
I wanted to talk to Haru in personal but he seems distancing himself from me.It's like that he afraid from something.He afraid from something he don't want to commit again.
Commiting same mistake make your self to scare to commit again.Because commiting means giving all you can do to that person who make you to commit even though it can hurt you.
I remove my headphone and open the sliding door of the balcony of my room.I can feel the cold air...it's like I can feel Haru even though it was an air.
Haru's blue eyes make myself feel like I'm safe when I always see it.I don't why but I want to hold Haru...I don't know the specific reason but...I guess I just want to hold him.
"Yuki...solve this."Oneechan command me and hit my face using the paper that she was holding.
I look at her but she's giving me a death stare making me sigh heavily.I get my pen and start to solve the math.I don't know why she's making me solve this math problem.
"Did you study again,Oneechan?"I ask her.
"No..."she simply answe while eating chips and watching Television.
"Then...what is this?"I ask while raising the paper she gave to me.
"It's for Yuma...I don't know how to solve it..."she answer without giving me a look.
I just clicked my tounge before answering it.Oneechan knows how to annoy me.Oneechan may know how to annoy me but I know that she having a problem right now.
"Are you okay,Oneechan?"I ask while answering.
"I'm fine..."she simply answer.
"You may look fine but...not for me."I said make her to raise her one eyebrow.
"Yuki...you should know how to deal about Haru."
I immediately hit her face with the paper.I already finish answering it.Oneechan can mockery me but she can't hide the truth to me.
"Thank you,Yuki..."she thank me before leaving my room.
I sighed before grinning.She looks so painful and I know why.The choice she made make her to feel disappoint and she let someone slip in her hands.
I woke up because of the dream...I saw.I saw Haru walking in the light and he smile at me before going to the white light.I'm trying to chase him but he completely disappeared before I can touch him.
I decided to dial Yuzuru's number because I don't have number of Haru.I just want to forget what I dream.
["Hello..."]she greet in a sleepy tone.
"Good morning,Yuzuru.Can I get Haru's number?"I ask.
["Yuki....just ask talk to Haru-chan then ask his number.It's easy as you think.Bye...see you at school."]
Before I can say anything she immediately hang up the call me make me grin because of the frustation.I need to talk to Haru right now...
I cannot decide if I will talk to him or not...He looks so afraid when he always saw me or even approaching to him.
"Haru..."I called him and he immediately look at me.
He look so suprise and he clear his throat.He looks so scared at me.
"Can we talk?"I ask him.
"Y-yeah."he answer while having nervous in his tone.
"Why do you look so scared when I approaching you?"I ask him making him so shock when I slightly touch his shoulder.
"Uhmmm....uhmmm..."he can't find words while keeping his gaze away from me.
"It's okay...I know that you're not comfortable when I'm around."I said while shrugging the back of my neck.
I sit beside of him.He look so nervous...I want to ask but I might to offend him.
"Why are you so shy or let's say that you're so nervous when I'm around?"I ask.
"I'm not shy or nervous...I'm just scared for something."he answer while looking at the blue sky.
"Scared for something...?"I askso confuse.
He look so innocent but...I don't if his looks deceiveng us or only me.He smile...it's a bitter smile while putting his hand in front of him like he's trying to reach the blue sky.
"I'm scared that I will fall in love without noticing.I'm scared that someone can hurt me again...the way...I'm scared that I will never rise and escape to the pit who is full of darkness and sadness."he answer like his voice is going to crack.
"My innocent look and face can deceive every people who always see me.I may look innocent but...I'm not.I'm not a ignorant Haru who don't know anything.Ignorant Haru who always smiling even though I don't understand what is happening."he said while softly looking to a blue sky.
"All I wanted is to be happy.If you don't mind...please stay away from me while it's early for us,Kamado-kun."
I don't know how many times I spacing out while looking at the blue sky.He seems that something can happen on us so...does I need to stay away from Haru even though I don't know what are his reasons.
I stop walking when I heard Haru's voice.It's look like he's talking to someone on his phone.
"No matter what you would say...I will never comeback,Agatsuma-kun."
Agatsuma-kun?Seems like that name is familiar to me.