Zevrus
At my words, Rain blinked and sighed as she ran a hand through her hair, I shifted on my feet and cleared my throat "Rain, can we talk in private, please?" Cyprus stood up and attempted to leave but Cedric quickly put a hand on his shoulder "stay right here Cyprus, Rain still hasn't answered his question" I ignored him and sent a pleading look in Rain's direction, her gaze from me to Cedric and back to me "yeah, I guess it's ok- we have a lot to catch up with", I felt a stupid grin form on my face as she started walking towards me, brushing Cedric and Cyprus with complete nonchalance and ignorance. Cedric sent me a warning look, in return, I sent him a wink.
we started walking around the houses, Rain shivered and winced slightly "are you cold or in pain?" she huffed a laugh "a little bit of both, I guess, but the pain is the stronger factor" I felt sorry for my mate and all the shit that she went through, I reached for her arm and stopped her, she looked up at me with her doe eyes that I missed more than my mother's embrace, I sighed and couldn't stop myself from tucking a strand of her hair behind her ear "Rain, I honestly don't know what to say, you were right, every word you said, you are absolutely right" she studied my face and kept quiet, I shook my head "I shouldn't have left, but when you left me, the last thing that I expected is you returning here- for me, and what really surprised me is that Cedric himself brought you back, though he was the main reason why you left" Rain nodded and looked down, I lifted her chin up with my finger "don't, I'm the one who should be ashamed and looking down. I left my mate vulnerable and completely exposed to my enemies, I wasn't here for you when you needed me most, I wasn't here to protect you from that son of a bitch Jacks- although I had red flags about him since the night I met you" she frowned in confusion "so, that's what he meant when he said… that I would be in his arms… again" I felt my temper flare but contained my anger, I looked up to the sky and took a deep breath "that bastard is going to pay, and I hope that he's already paid with much suffer" I saw her eyes water but she blinked the tears away and sighed "I'm trying so hard to forget about the whole thing, please" I nodded and caressed her cheek "of course" we walked a little more until we reached an area not far from the pack but far enough for our private conversation, Rain looked at me "Zevrus, why did you send that message with Xavier?" I set and unset my jaw as I tried to think of a proper answer "Cedric lost his mate and never looked at another female after her death, he had playful and sexual relationships here and there, but he never kissed any female, human or werewolf, after Tyla" Rain's eyes widened, I could see her mulling things over in her pretty head "but- he didn't kiss me either, not until...we got you message" I nodded "exactly, but I had already noticed the way he looked at you, even when you were passed out- he came to check on you right before I did that day, I took a shower and came out to see him standing at the edge of the bed and observing you" Rain's face was in complete shock, just frozen, I shook my head "I never doubted my brother's loyalty to me, until you came along" she scoffed "but he attacked me, he bit me and drove me through a tree- how?! how did you see attraction" I smiled "Rain, he's my brother, I've known him for a lifetime, I can read right through him" she looked down and processed my words, then she closed her eyes and took a deep breath "okay, since you figured out that your brother is a traitor, what does that make me? a selfish human bitch?" I scowled at her bad choice of words, my mate should not speak in profanities "Rain, don't say that, you should watch your language more-" she cut with a huff and rolled her eyes "oh please Zevrus, wake up, this is 2021, it's not like I'm fucking snow white running around and singing with birds, I am a girl, but I am not THAT delicate" I couldn't help but chuckle "I can see why Cedric likes you" she looked at me sideways and didn't comment, but the redness of her cheeks betrayed her , I squinted my eyes and smirked "you like him too" she cleared her throat and looked away, I grabbed her arm firmly but not too hard, I didn't plan to brake my mate's arm "Rain, answer me" she looked at me with tears in her eyes and sniffed "I do, I'm so sorry Zevrus, I felt awful since this all started, the whole time guilt tugged my heart, I was hesitant about accepting Cedric's offer to be his mate, but he didn't force me into it, he never said anything bad about you, and when Xavier told him that he kissed me-" I stood up, I felt like I got zapped with a fucking stun gun "what?!" Rain froze and looked up at me, I repeated "what did Xavier do Rain? Answer me!" my words came out as a loud shout combined with a growl, she flinched and backed away, I realized that I scared her, taking a deep breath I turned around and ran my hands through my hair then tugged hard to let out some of the rage and tension, when I faced her again, I was relieved that she was still there, I reached my hand out for her to put her's in mine "I'm sorry, don't be scared, I didn't mean to yell at you" she hesitated for a second, but then she put her hand in mine and we sat down again, I took another deep breath and asked her calmly "you were saying that.. Xavier kissed you…I'm confused, even if he isn't or wasn't my friend, he'd still be alpha Dracus' beta, how did he even dare put his hands on you?" she swallowed hard and looked away "he said that he had to do it, he told me that you spoke so much of me that his curiosity made him yearn to kiss me" I covered my face with my palms, even when I was miles and miles away from her, I still put her in danger, all because of the bitching and babbling about her in front of a stranger whom I considered as my friend- as much as I hate to admit, I should've taken Cedric's advise 'never trust strangers, never give them personal information about you' I sighed and looked back at Rain "I can't even begin to describe how sorry I am, not only for you, but also for me, my dignity has been thrown and tossed to the ground so many times that I feel like all the glory that I built since I was a teenager till this day has just vanished" I chuckled dryly "I am an idiot, and I despise the fact that you've been touched and kissed against your will more than once" I ran my hands through my hair and pulled again.
Rain was quiet the whole time, but after what I said she started crying quietly, I gently caressed her hair and gave her the time to release it all, her quiet crying soon turned into sobs, I shushed her and pulled her to my chest, she fisted her hand in my shirt and said that she missed me and how sorry she was for all the problems that I went through while I was in the labs through hard sobs and hot tears, little did she know that I was tortured daily and almost died twice after being an element in major scientific experiments- I decided to keep that to myself, she was talking in all honesty, and I believe her, I relished at the feeling of her between my arms and against my chest, right now- I decided that what's done is done, I'm leaving the past behind me and I'm moving on, starting with taking back my mate.