When I rest on my bed, I couldn't put myself into sleep and or even feel any tiredness. Cause my body urged me to do is to roam around the seaside but I'm too lazy to get up.
I sighed.
I don't know what to do with myself.
I sounded crazy...I can't rest and wanted to go out but I'm too lazy to get up. What a shame.
I sighed again.
For how many longer I keep blinking out of boredom so I closed my eyes and forced myself to sleep...but hours had passed but I'm wide awake ans staring blankly on the ceiling of our cabin.
The ceiling is beautiful with the cravings. It look likes one of the roof from 80's and 90's and but they leveled it up to a modern one by putting chandeliers that can really caught your attention.
I look around, old lamps are closed but it's beauty can still see on the dark...my eyes caught Dad and Rain sleeping peacefully I didn't stared at them for too long because it might wake them up and it may look like I was a thief eyeing for the owners.
I moved the curtain on my side and saw the stars shining above.
I didn't hesitated to stand up--stars can really take my laziness away. I wear my slippers and move in silence is all I can do not to wake them up. I grab the jacket that I saw and went to the door.
Looking like a thief I took a deep breath and hold the knob, I almost lose a breath from holding it for too long without a notice... and with a slow movement, I successfully opened the door without even bothering them... but who would have thought that stepping outside is a wrong idea because Mom is standing while holding her phone.
"Can't sleep?" she asked me but it was too calm as if scolding me at the moment is not on her mind as of today.
I gasp in relief hearing Mom's calm voice. I shut the door and faced my mom totally... by looking at her, madness couldn't even peek on her face.
I nodded. "Yeah, do you mind if I'll have walk?"
"Yeah, go on." She agreed. My eyes even drop low out of shock, this is the first time that she didn't prohibit me. "If you're feeling sleepy, just go back. I'll call Noah to look for you from far away."
"Thank you, Mommy." I smiled.
She gave me a nod and ruffled my hair.
I walked with excitement lingers through my heart.
I went out from the village where our cabin is placed... Little rocks gathered in squares became my path for me to find a way to the restaurant. It's closed but I saw Noah inside.
I went to the glass window and even placed my face on it...maybe I look so funny that made Noah choke on his drink.
"What are you doing inside?" I asked with my face sticking on the glass window.
Noah stood up from his seat and headed towards where I am standing. He opened the glass window beside where I'm sticking my face.
He placed both of his elbow and looked at me. "What's up, little brat?"
"What are you doing inside? The restaurant is closed." I said and peeked inside... there's someone in there, they're three, maybe they're the owners.
"Well, they're my friends from high school and they let me in since I'm going to watch you from afar."
I frown.
"What eyes do you have?" He raised a brow with my question. "An eyes that can roam around to find me even though it's 90 kilometers far away from you?"
He chuckled and ruffled my hair. "Brat, it's 2021, everything has to do with technology. I have a drone with me. So I don't even worry that much if you're going to loose yourself."
I replied a sulk on him.
He chuckled again. "Do you want some milk ice cream?"
I nodded. "Yeah, can I have?"
"Wait for me."
Noah leave me...so I stayed where am I and peeking continuously inside because ice cream will make me drool if it wasn't serve that fast.
A minute later, Noah popped out somewhere holding a 12oz cup full of ice cream with sprinkles and chocolates.
My eyes almost pop out from my eye because of the ice cream Noah's holding. By looking at it, I feel like I'm in cloud nine and sure if I have to taste it, I'll feel heaven.
"Go and have some fun. We're going back to the hospital tomorrow." He said and hand me the ice cream and a spoon.
"Okay! Thank you!"
I ran away holding my ice cream.
I stopped from walking just to take my slippers off my feet. With enthusiasm, I hop on the sand and I feel like I'm a bird who escaped on its cage.
I scoop a spoonful of ice cream and shove it on my mouth while walking beside the shore with water touching my barefoot.
Torches lighted to the pathway I'm walking, my eyes widened seeing a fire on it. It was a sweet flames for me... torches and peaceful night is indeed a sweet thing for a people like me who's curious about anything and gets more exited in every things I've never seen before.
I stopped and faced the ocean after I felt my knees begging me to stop walking.
Taking a comfortable seat on the sand is my way to stare deeply at the ocean. The pale full moon shone like a silvery pearl in the night sky reflecting it beauty in the ocean where it was humming the wave-song that beguiled me as if the sea has its own symphony.
The wind caressed me softly in my arms. I had goosebumps but it doesn't matter if you're eating ice cream. It doesn't connect with anything but that's all in my mind.
I'm silent.
The sound of the waves and the dogs howl is all I can hear in this peaceful night...but then, the phone on my pocket suddenly beeped.
I placed the cup of ice cream between my thighs and get my phone to read who texted me.
My eyebrows furrowed seeing a notification from Instagram that someone followed me. Our of curiosity, I pressed the profile and to my shock...it was Kaios.
But how come he can follow me if he can't see anything?
Or maybe someone do it for him...but what's his reason? how come he found my account even though it was made earlier?
I shrugged and scooped my ice cream...shoving it on my mouth as if there's no tomorrow and stalked his account.
There's 55 photos posted and he have twelve thousand followers. The hell? Is he famous?
I'm getting curious as I stared on his photo. I want to shut my phone but I just found myself looking so stupid browsing all over his account and pressing something to look in every single of picture he own.
I almost choke on my ice cream after seeing one of his photo, he's topless and wearing only a black slacks while carrying a briefcase.
My cheeks heated and immideatly scrolled down. I keep gulping and that picture of him can't be removed on my head. To shut my nasty brain, I scrolled up again.
My eyes became a scanner, to his face down to his...uhm...down to his body?...I guess.
While staring on the photo, I observed his visual. He looks good.
On the photo, his eyes are honey brown colored... his face on the hospital and on the photo is still the same...but the eyes is not.
I heard something above me. When I look up my eyes widened and panicky shut my phone down. It's the drone that Noah's flying!
I cleared my throat and bring my phone back on my pocket as if nothing happened.
I finished my ice cream and I hugged my legs.
My heart surrounds with sweet flames. I've never look at someone like this. Looking at a guy for too long isn't in my vocabulary before but after I saw Kaios face...I admit that I can stare at it for too long.
I don't even find any reasons why I'm being like this... I found it unreasonable looking at him or on his photo for too long because in the first place, I don't like him in a romantic way.
Well, on the novels that I've read before... Author's wrote that, their characters are staring on the main character for too long with a meaning--that he or she is falling in love.
But me?! I will never fall in love!
Falling in love is too impossible for me. I don't want to be involve in something especially when it comes to love.
I don't have any assurance in anything!
I couldn't stay any longer and I know that.
But honestly, I want to feel that one too. I wonder how it feels to love and to be love.
I wonder how emotions will rotate while falling in love. I wonder what things involves with love. Do love include purity? Innocence? or even lust?
I sighed.
I shouldn't think of love starting for now. It's too impossible for me.