They consoled me and give me things that would shut me up from crying but I just can't stop from crying and I don't why...maybe, I'm still scared and frightened.
There's a lot of things that lizard can land on but he chose to land on me who feared them.
I'm leaning on the headboard of my bed. My brother carried me up here and even seated beside me while rubbing my shoulder gently to console me.
I tried to stifle the noise of my cries but it's hard. Noah is on my other side standing and keeps showing me foods that I keep rejecting cuz I don't feel hungry after what happened. I'm supposed to be hungry but that lizard ruined my tummy. I feel like once I tried to eat--a lizard will jump on my mouth.
"What do you want?" Rain asked me. He's too worried about me. He keeps rejecting it everytime Noah's teasing him but we can sense it at all, he's just too undenial.
"Oww, someone's worried." Noah gossiped again trying to annoy my brother.
"I'm not!" Rain hissed at him. I took a glimpse on Noah, he pursed his lips and make that teasing look that made Rain throw a pillow on him.
"Then what's that, Mister Lova lova." Noah moved his hips--copying the dance step of a popular song and dance here-- 'spaghetting pababa at pataas' my father called it that one.
Rain irritably rolled his eyes. "If the doctors find out. They're all going to call Mom. The two might ruin the talking about--"
Rain suddenly paused as if the next words he's going to say are curses.
I stared at him with the most suspicious eyes.
I wonder what comes next to that word. And by staring at him. He looks so hesitant and contemplating. Something's off.
"Talking about what...?" I spoke.
Rain fixed his eyes on me. I never speak after that lizard thing. He sighed and shook his head. Why don't he tell me? They're my parents too!
I hit his arm. "Talking about what?" I sobbed between my words.
Rain have that stoic face but hesitant eyes. I can clearly clarify that since we both have the same color on our eyes, besides, eyes can speak if your mouth can't.
"Talking about what place should they bring you." He responded naturally. My eyes become chinky as I suspicion his words.
He raised a brow on me. He's back on being sarcastic again.
"They sympathy you. You're going to debut so they're finding a place to celebrate that one." He rolled his eyes again. "You just can't celebrate your debut on this freaking hospital."
"Oh..." He got me on that one. I appreciate it but I still feel something's wrong but whatever. "So when they are back?"
"I don't know, don't ask me as if I'm one of them." he replied.
I frowned.
I think he's a bipolar, he's too kind a minute ago but now, he's back to being a sarcastic shitty ass.
"Do you want something, brat?" I heard Noah again.
I turn around to face him. "I don't want chips."
"What do you want then?" He asked nicely not like my brother who's getting on my nerves as always.
I look around trying to find a lizard. Not to pet them but to get rid of them before I eat.
"There's no lizard anymore." Rain informed.
"Burger." I looked at Noah.
"Salmon steak, Noah. Add some ice cream." He requested.
Noah snapped his fingers. "Alright. Just wait and I'll grab you those."
"I want you to cook it." Both of us demanded. I almost rolled my eyes on Rain, Noah is not his butler for pete's sake! He should call Kamden!
Noah's lips formed an 'O' and then he smiled. "Alright, just wait for me. Anything you want, brat?"
"Claw machine...?" I replied questioning.
Noah winked and ruffled my hair. "I got it for you."
"Won't you ask me Noah?"
Noah shook his head after hearing my brother. "Call Kamden, Rain. Sure that bitch missed you a lot."
Rain scoffed sarcastically. "Miss my ass. He didn't even picked me on the airport."
"Because, you give him a wrong schedule. He waited for hours there." Noah smiled before going out.
I faced Rain again. He's staring on his phone and totally ignoring me but when I poke his arm, he immideatly looked at me.
"You are really stupid." I said to him.
"At least, I'm not a crying baby." He rolled his eyes. I wanna poke his eye balls and make it a ball to throw if you're bored.
"I just cried because I'm scared unlike you who's stupid for giving a wrong schedule to his butler and get annoyed if he doesn't sees you." I teased.
"Do you want to start this stupid quarrelling again, huh?"
I stick my tongue out. "Just saying some facts."
He sneered and went back to his phone.
I took a place close to him just to peek on what he's doing. He took a glimpse on me and covered his phone so I hit his hand.
"Where's your phone?"
"I don't know!" I hissed. "Probably, mom has it so let me see."
"Tsk." He hissed and showed me what he's watching.
"Really? Tom and Jerry?" I'm not a hater of that, it's just. It's not on his look to watch this kind of show. It's kinda funny to me knowing a strict and sarcastic ass doctor is a fanatic of cartoons.
"Why? What's the matter with this?" He asked me. "I grew up from this, I live for this and probably I would die watching this, so don't talk about it."
"You grew up, living and dying watching those yet you still don't have humors. So, what did Tom and Jerry thought you?"
He looked at me and glared.
I smiled teasingly. "Do I hit the buzz correctly?"
He's still glaring at me.
"Just shut up and watch. I don't need you to talk."
"Okay! Whatever you say sarcastic ass doctor."
"Tss."
For an hour we became silent. No fights, no quarrells, no glaring and no hitting. Just the both of us watching Tom and Jerry as if those two are the answers to shut the both of us and stick to each noses. It was peaceful and I hope I'll have that the soonest, cause honestly, bickering with him with the same words, same phrases and same whatever's is making me bored.
"My battery is drained." Rain showed me his phone.
I frowned. "Don't you have any charger? power bank? or some source of whatever? I like that episode!"
He frowned too. "My office is on the upper floor. I'm lazy to get that."
"Why do you have to be lazy if you can't be lazy?" I asked him.
He throw his phone on the sofa and lay on my bed, literally getting the spot just for me. But whatever, at least we're not fighting. We should have a world peace between us.
"I'm lazy to be lazy." He responded. "Just lay on the bed and count some sheep while waiting for the food."
I did what he told me. I lie beside him and stared at the ceiling. I crossed my legs and crunched my nose.
"There's no sheep to count."
"It's not my problem." He sneered. "Count those dust if you have sense."
I scoffed and shut my mouth off. I'm getting hungry. My tummy us growling, my monsters are begging for food.
Rain and I automatically seated on the bed when the door opened.
Both of us took a suspicious gaze on each other after seeing a man on hood pushing a cart with a claw machine. My eyes almost shine.
Rain stood up from the bed and went in front. I crawled on my knees and hold onto his shoulder. I'm kneeling on the bed on his back.
Noah then entered while pushing a cart wearing an apron and chef's hat. He closed the door. Rain and I couldn't even take off our eyes on the guy on his hood. He looks so stupid for covering his face with the mask of shrek.
He carry the claw machine and placed it on the side. Honestly, he's so cool from moving that claw machine into a place but it's kinda disappointing because he tripped.
"This idiot." Rain whispered and shook his head.
The guy took off his mask and unhooded his hoodie. He smiled at us.
"Hi baby boy!" He greeted. He's looking at Rain so probably it's not my business anymore.
I went down from the bed and walked straight to Noah who's preparing the table.
"Shut up, Kamden."
My brother called him Kamden, prolly that was his butler.
I took a seat and take a good observe on the guy. Unlike Noah, this Kamden guy looks so joyful and have a lots of fun. Noah is gentle and kinda serious that's why. The guy is wearing an all black. A black shirt under a leather jacket and a black jeans with a black boots. The hood he's wearing a second ago is hanging on the high chair.
The guy have a long hair...I can tell that since he's on his man bun, he looks like Thor. On his neck, there's even a tattoo, he have piercings but the way I look at him...he seems nice, too far away from those bad boys I imagined.
"Oof! How's my baby boy?"
"I'm not a baby anymore!" My brother hissed and immideatly walked away from Kamden who laughed at him.
Rain went to the table where I was seated. Kamden then tailed and seated beside him. Noah took a sit too and even served me dishes I didn't asked but I would like to it since it looks so pleasing.
"Hi, Noah's brat." Kamden smiled at me.
"Hi, Kuya's butler." I greeted back.
Kamden sure talked about a lot. He told me things that my brother always do and I couldn't stop from laughing. Both of us get along so well. Noah just joined the conversation when he was asked, he just shut up and served me foods. Rain keeps hitting Kamden if he talks some funny things about him and always complain about Kamden who's loud.
"I'll be back tomorrow afternoon." Rain informed me.
I nodded. "Yeah, you can even come back three years from the afternoon."
He glared at me but I just smile.
"Noah and Kamden is on standby far away to look for you."
"Why do they need to look for me? I'm safe in here. I'm really safe."
"You're not safe, Reina. You never know what's happening on the outside." He yawned and wear his bag. "If you're back on our home, you probably know what's happening."
"So what's happening? You know...you can tell me."
He smirked and shook his head. "Nope. Not gonna happen. Stay here and behave. I have an eyes on you."
I twitched my lips. "Alright. Whatever, be safe."
I'm sincere when I said 'be safe' but this stupid brother of mine throw a pillow my face before going out.
I'm all alone again. I put on a music since Rain give me back my phone, I thought it was with Mom but it was with him all the time.
I hop down from the bed and went to the claw machine. I don't mind if Noah and Kamden sees me dancing, I'm used to it...Noah always saw it everytime he's keeping an eye on me.
I stopped the music and called Noah. Without three rings, he pick it up.
"[Yes, brat?]"
"Where are you?"
"[On my place with Kamden and some other pips. Do whatever you wanna do brat, I'll know if you're in danger so don't worry.]"
"How do I play this claw machine?"
"[Oh... There's a bowl full of coins. Grab a coin then insert it and then you can play.]"
"Okay! Thanks."
"[No worries, brat.]"
I bring back the music and played. That's the thing happened to me until dinner. I just stopped playing when the food arrive
After eating I rest for a little bit, and I took a shower and rest on the moon chair in front of the open glass window.
The moon is full glowing gold in the night sky with the stars blinking with different sizes and places.
I was mesmerized and couldn't avoid my eyes outside when I heard a beep from my clock.
It's already twelve midnight and I'm finally 18. I'm not a kid anymore!
"Happy Birthday to m--"
I paused and immideatly turned my chair to face the door. I was stunt and couldn't move after the door opened...Kaios entered while pulling his dextrose with him.
"Reina...?"
I cleared my throat and stood up from my seat. I hurriedly went to him. "Oh my God, what are you doing here?"
I closed the door and stared on him. He's standing and I look like a tiny potato beside him.
"To greet you a happy birthday." He smiled.
My heart pound very fast...
"W-what?"
That I couldn't help but to stutter my word.
Kaios faced me correctly. His hands went to my head. He ruffled my hair that gives me a strange feeling inside, what the hell?
"Happy Birthday, Reina." Kaios greeted.
"Thank you..." I said and held my chest for the feeling that my heart will escape my body. "But, did you really come here to greet me? I can go to your room! You're going to injured yourself, oldie."
He chuckled. "Nurse Mia helped me to get on the door so no worries."
Nana Mia suddenly peeked on the door with a teasing smile. I pouted. She waved her hand and closed the door silently.
"So, what do you want to do in here?" I asked him. My heart still pounding and it worry me since it doesn't feel right.
"Dance with you..."
"Eh? Dance with me? Why?"
"Cause it's your eighteenth birthday. You should have your 18 roses."
"Oh, that's how the debuts work?" I asked. I never heard a thing like that, it's new to me but that sounds fun.
"Yeah." He smiled. "It's okay if you will not dance with me."
"No!" I affirmed. His face surrounds with smiles that I couldn't avoid my eyes. He looks so damn fine! "Let's dance...I never had my first dance."
"Yeah, play your favorite music, Reina."
I don't get it what's wrong with me. My heart couldn't help it and even skipped a beat when he called my name gently.
I played my favorite song which is 'I Won't Last a Day Without You.' I bet that's his favorite too.
He took a step close to me. Kaios held my hand and placed it on his shoulder. I become shy when he put his hand on my waist.
"Tell me if you're uncomfortable." he said.
"No... I'm fine with this." A smile put on my lips. A never ending happiness is all I can feel this time.
"Honestly, I can't wait to see you." Kaios said. I bite my lips trying to stop myself from smiling.
For the past days, I already have a lot of what if's on my head. Seconds that I spend with him literally blown me to a lot of thoughts especially on what happened on my birthday.
I stared on the ceiling and ignore every noises that Kamden, Noah and Rain had while playing Tekken on the new machine that they bought inside my room.
So, what if...
What If, there's a strange feelings that's blowing widely on my chest?
I already have that one! But what is it?!
What if, it is the thing I felt towards him?
What if, it's not all the same as before?
What if, this strange feelings will completely destroy the closeness that we have?
What if this strange feelings is the reason why I always think about him?
And what if, this strange feelings is the reason why everytime I saw his smiles, my whole world collapse with me falling on a deep stare on him?
I groaned.
Whatever what if's I have in me, I'll reject everything and deny as far as I can hold. I can't even tell if it was the thing on my mind! It's too hard!
It's too hard to think and even swallow that this 'strange feelings' might be 'like' or worst... 'love'.