Ximena laid on her bed the next day which was Saturday trying hard to get rid of the memories of the previous night.
"I can never be gay, I am not!" she continued saying to herself as she breathed hard trying to convince herself. How would her mum take it when she finds out.
She wondered if she would make confessions in church that she kissed a girl.
No, a girl kissed her to be precise.
How are they going to face each other in school the next day? Should she act normal?.
What if Kaylee snubs her?
Would that be better? Her mind wandered crazy and crazy thinking non stop.
Betty entered the house tired and stressed but still trying her best to tiptoe and not wake her sleeping daughter as she held her red slipper in her right hand and bag in the left. She had a long tiring day, and she needed enough rest to be able to make to church the next day. She would soon be done with the loan payment and probably change jobs. Their was lot of things to do.
Gina dragged her bag out of the airport and then took a cab, she didn't tell her aunt she was coming so it was going to be a surprise. She looked outside the car observing whatever was going on and then her phone rang.
"Dylan, the fact I am moving doesn't mean we have to break up right?" She said slowly on phone but he didn't reply.
"I am sorry gina, we just can't continue this relationship," he said and that shattered her.
He is bastard.
Ximena sat at the side seat and not her usual back seat as her mum drove them back home from church. "Mum do you think it's bad to be gay?" She asked nonchalantly like she wasn't interested in the topic.
"I would not condemn another's sexuality ximena, but in my own opinion it is not Godly and it ruins the person's straight partner," her mum said in anger.
"Why would a fully gay person date someone straight," ximena asked obviously confused.
"Let's skip the topic baby," her mum said as she smiled. "Do you have a boyfriend?"
"Of course no mum?" "I just got to a new school and I am more of an introvert so, nothing is sure for now," she said carefully.
"Okay dear, just make sure to be fine and you should try being true to yourself at all times too," her mum concluded and then drove straight to a restaurant for lunch. More doubts clouded Ximena's mind.
She always imagined herself being over loved by a guy, that is sweet, handsome and cool too and She being happy, partying and hanging out but all with a guy. She sometimes even thought of having three kids and what she would name them. How on earth is she getting all that? when she is probably gay.
"Oh Lord, please help me and let it be the influence of alcohol working in mine and kay's life two days ago and let's be normal and forget everything," she prayed in her mind as she entered the class.