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Chapter 5 - The new beginning

The day of new student registration was opened, at that time, there were promotions from various high school and vocational schools, the school brochures that I collected and then I gave to my parents and my parents decided to send me to one of the shipping vocational schools, they said the education was good, semi-military style, so that's it. I just obeyed while Sekar was going to a high school that was quite popular. Even though we were in different schools, but we were able to establish a good relationship, technology began to develop rapidly, many new social media were created such as WhatsApp, Instagram and other social media. Now it's easier to report, even though we rarely see each other, we can video call if we miss, sometimes we meet occasionally to break up the longing piggy bank that can no longer be accommodated like the song Fiersa Besari. One month I saved longing and one day I broke the longing piggy bank, it is understood that I, who is a shipping cadet, can't be free to go anywhere, because my school requires all students to go to dormitories and only when we cruise can we go home to meet family, friends during small and met sekar my boyfriend of course.

Year after year, Sekar and I, every time the cellphone notification rings, there must always be a memorable moment that Facebook always says that on a certain day I have memories with Sekar. It's really embarrassing to see the old me, to see my conversation when I was first close to Sekar, to see the times of the past Middle school and the way I shoot sekar with a graduation letter. We always discuss and remember old memories when we met it was really a very beautiful moment for us of course.

Until the nightmare arrived, a dream I never imagined would come true, I don't know what my fault was, suddenly your attitude changed and you wanted to end this relationship. Are you not happy with me now? what am I lacking now? I know we rarely see each other and I can't be like other people who are always there for you all the time? I admit we often fight over small things but every fight we can get through it all then why now do you decide to leave?

Until a gust of wind conveyed its message to me, you reasoned because your parents did not agree if you later married a sailor because of a background that was considered not good, that only a sailor likes cheating, often changes women, eyes of the basket, and what do you marry for with a sailor who is not clear on his return and easily leaves.

Do you believe in words like that and choose to leave me? since when did i have an affair or a lot of girls around me of course not, and you know that? Or maybe you're just making excuses because actually as long as we don't meet you go out with someone you feel comfortable with and choose him? Then if the reason is because your parents don't agree, then why do you want to date me, which is clearly a shipping school and why have you rejected me from the start and didn't continue this relationship.

I thought you were good but you rotten woman you really have no heart. Immediately I haven't decided whether you immediately block all my social media and cellphone numbers, what's my fault?