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Chapter 7 - your happy with my wound

You will want to return to your warmest embrace, the hug that invites you to daydream every night on the phone, the hug that writes a letter for every longing and the hug that creates a sheet of poetry for you to feel.

For now, enjoy your happiness, may it be your last port, I am sincere if it is the best for you. But if not, I'm sorry I can't accept you back. This wound is so deep, it might take me years to heal, because after you left, I'm no longer your home now, Saraswati.

The days have passed and I am now living without you, my heart is empty it's hard for me to open my heart to others because for me the wound medicine is not looking for a replacement as soon as possible it's not easy, I need to restore my figure as before when before knowing you it was very hard when I thought I should really think you never existed in my life but life goes on and I can't keep imagining you the most unlikely person I have until finally I start to find a way to sincerely let you go. I made the mountain as my outlet because when I graduated from school I had 3 months of free time before I became a full-fledged sailor, namely sailing.

The first mountain that I climbed was a mountain that wasn't too high, the name is Mount Ox, the location is in Purwakarta and its height is about 700 meters above sea level. Step by step I started to climb accompanied by the sound of birds whispering melodiously and beautiful panoramic views on each side of my journey up and I started to think it turned out this mountain soothes me more than your fake sweet voice and it is more beautiful and mesmerizing than your figure. It turned out that the mountain taught me many things to struggle, my feet were getting tired, the sun was getting hotter, and the burden of the carrier felt heavy, that was a struggle like my struggle to forget you, I didn't feel a few more steps the peak was in sight I didn't think that on my first climb I could reach the top and do you know? The scenery is so beautiful I can't say any more words, at 5 pm I arrived at the top and there nature gave an appreciation for my struggle.

If you hadn't betrayed me now, maybe we would have been on this peak together and enjoyed the twilight together, the golden light that refracts the sadness and the blue clouds that are starting to turn yellow, a sign that night will come, my heart feels calm and peaceful, as if the hatred and hatred in me just melted away.