Kathryn
I thought I wanted to be done with him. Until he showed up at my door ready to stand toe to toe with my two best friends. That alone made me want to at least hear what he had to say. Turns out I didn't want him to leave after all. I know completely I don't want him just for sex but because his presence calms my aching heart. His arms wrapped around me, surrounding me with his body, with his warmth. It is a need I can't explain but deep down I didn't want to end tonight without him. He stirs a little beside me and says "I am glad you decided to hear me out tonight. I thought I had lost you for good. I don't know why I can't just get myself together. If it's that I'm too proud or the fact that you intimidate the hell out of me. I have found that your demons dance well with my own." My heart is so full knowing he feels the same that I do. I have a rough past and all the drama after Alex and I ended he couldn't understand me the way Nathan does. I've found it hard to have anything in common with most men except him. He understands the words I don't know how to say. He interrupts my deep thought by snuggling me closer as he inhales his woodsy smell mixed with my honey shampoo always lingering in my room. I can still smell him when he is gone. He says "Okay Kat spill it! You are too quiet what is going on in that beautiful mind." I lean away to look at him and say "You know me so well. I was just thinking about how things have happened and what could be. We aren't like normal people. Everything outside of us is so complicated. Risking hurting our best friends. I just don't want this to end." He leans his face up to mine brushing his nose against mine like we always do. " Let's worry about that when we need to. Our happiness matters too. I want to know everything I can about you. Like what your favorite season is and why? Why you are so in love with music? The things that make you, you." his hand on my face. Pulling his a face closer his lips now at my ear. He continues "I know there is more to you than you want people to know. There's a fire inside of you that blazes brighter when you let your guard down." his nose brushing my ear. I stop him putting back to see his face. "Nathan I really am not a puzzle to put together. I love music because it makes me feel alive and closer to myself. It helps me express things that I can't find the words to say. When you played that song tonight it hit home. I honestly don't remember telling you. I don't like being vulnerable or exposed. I feel that way with you all the time. At first, it was just about sex. I didn't have another reason for it until you touched me it changed everything. I crave you every little single thing about you. I've never been completely satisfied with someone... Not until you." he gently kisses me and says against my lips " I know baby! I feel the same way." How can he say these things and still want to keep this secret? I don't ask I don't know that could take the truth.
The next morning my alarm goes off its 10 am Sunday. He's still here when I open my eyes he is looking at me. "I was waiting for you to wake up before I left. I have lunch with my dad today and the mom has called three times." I smile sheepishly "Okay you better get going. I'll call her back." he gives me a long kiss before he gets up to put on his clothes. Leans down and with one more kiss, he says "I'll call you later and maybe I'll see you tonight if I can get out of poker night at the Mill house." I just nod as he releases me and walks out of the bedroom I hear the back door shut as I close my eyes to go back to sleep.
My phone starts ringing INCOMING CALL: SARAH I slide the answer button "hello?" she chimes back immediately "Well hello sleepy head unlock the door I'll be there in five." with that she hangs up I get up and unlock the front door and back to bed I go. A few minutes later she's walking into the bedroom with coffee and breakfast. Today she is a saint. After she hands me mine and climbs into my bed she says "Okay so I have to tell you something and you can not tell Tallon." I smile back and say I have something to tell you too. But of course, I won't tell him... You first." she smiles wider "Okay so I've been seeing someone and I really can not keep it to myself anymore it's not like it serious or anything like that but I've been sleeping with Jax." I almost spit out my coffee. "Oh, my goodness girl you are kidding? Have you tamed the man whore?" I say laughing with her. "I don't know that I would call it that but it's amazing and spontaneous also my brother would flip if he knew. He's not an ass when it's just us though he is different." I smile knowing exactly what she means. "Now Miss Priss spill yours I'm dying to know as long as it's not my brother..." I roll my eyes and respond "No it's not Tallon it's Nathan." her mouth drops open "Hold on!! You and Hail?? Seriously who else knows." Her smile growing wider... " I don't know I think Tallon and Jax but that's it beside well Chris and Brandon. But yeah its been going on for a while now almost a year." she pulls me in hugging me "That's amazing Kat! Are you gonna tell Alex?" "Nathan wants to tell him it will be better coming from him." she smiles and nods "Yeah I think so too. He a gonna be mad as hell regardless. So how is everything with Nathan?" I look down sort of shocked at how well she is taking this. "It really is amazing honestly I think I'm in love with him. He's so much more than I ever thought." she stops me "I think that y'all are a good fit. I noticed at the last party y'all always are within a few feet from each other and he was fun and not a know it all. You have brought out a new side of Hail that everyone has noticed but they don't know why. But this explains it." there is a reason she is my best friend she always knows what to say. "Sarah he told me about y'all! I didn't know!" she waves me off "Um no it was moments of weakness nothing like that. But really y'all need to tell Alex cause I think he still has hope you two might work it out." I look her at her dead in her face " No Sarah! No there is not one chance we will work it out. I don't see the same future with him that he sees." the look on her face tells me that she already knew that. "Listen, Kathryn, I love you and all I care about is your happiness. And I remember quite well why y'all broke up girl I was with you. We discussed it for hours and you tried to see every angle so you knew that you were making the right decision. And you did even if he can't see it..." I realize I was chewing on my lip talking about this always makes me anxious. I say "I hate that I hurt Alex and that I will end up hurting him again. But Sarah I am telling you that I am in love with Nathan Hail. I have been since day one. I never saw it coming. You know me and the fact that I don't fall for just anyone. They say you get one great love.... he is mine."
Little did I know that Nathan was facing another problem.