Dear myself,
One last broken melody might come but one last hope of symphony continues as hours go by. Life is so surprising. It will change the path and go with it but still, we are the driving force. The feeling of being in love is so magical but the pain is indescribable. Some parts of yours need to cease. It was an experience that it's hard to deal with. It will leave permanent scars but the love I received will be deeper than any of the wounds.
How I wish there was a reminder inscribed all over the guy's faces the first time we saw them. Don't you think, we deserve to have a warning? Is it possible? As others say don't be too complacent when someone confesses they love you. The real question is when? Because just like the season, people change. Even friendship might ruin because of mistake. How bitter I was!
I didn't leave right after Renz and I talked. He insisted to drop me off where I want to go but I declined. He can't force that after a while, he just give up and he then leaves me alone though it's obvious that he's hesitating. I stayed at the coffee shop for another hour. The staff here already knew me or I should say I'm a regular customer. I already ordered twice and I don't bother myself because I took so much caffeine to loosen up.
Costumers come and go.
Some Just drop by to get coffee, some were busy doing in the laptop and gadget while sipping their coffee, some high school students meet up for school requirements or stuff, some were just hanging out while me watching them calm me. Call me weird but it's true.
"Cheesecake, serve for you!" and place in front of me a mini cake from a guy I didn't expect to see during the weekend, Vener. I don't know what he's up to but I was taken aback looking for the engraved figure of a cute dog.
"Cheesecake with that kind of figure, I'm amazed. How did they work on it?" I said as I can't hide but smile.
"New menu, I think. You like it?"
"Is it not obvious?" I said sarcastically but I manage to look like a joke by laughing at my sudden statement. "By the way, what brings you here?"
"Am I not allowed to go here?" he asked. I can't figure out if he's serious or not. "Let's say, just to kill time."
"Oh, I hope all!" I laughed shyly.
"Yeah," he agreed. Then an indication popped up in my mind. Is he the one who gave me a mini cheesecake the other day? Is he the one who buy the cake and asked someone to give it to me? Or am I just overthinking? Coincidence, huh?
"You're thinking if I was the one who ordered a cheesecake for you the other day?" Who is he? Mindreader? "It's me. They say that sweet foods can lighten a mood after a toxic day so I decided to share some slice for you."
"So I owed you again. Another cheesecake." He laughed. "You mean, you saw me earlier, my embarrassing moment?" I tried not to sound bitter.
"If that's the case." he shrugged. "It's normal. Don't worry. I experienced horrible, too. You're not alone."
"You're okay now?"
"Perfectly fine. Nathan Knorr said look ahead, for there is where your reward is. Don't live in the past, although your memories will continue. Time will help you heal. Don't become bitter and feel sorry for yourself. Be glad you had these joys and blessings. . . . Memories are God's gift to us."
"What he said was exactly true, "I concluded.
At that moment, I tell him some of the details of a sad story about Renz and me I. Telling him a story, some might think that girls tend to be comfortable when girls comfort or talk to them. They will confide because you're the same. Scratch that, not all the time, though Rona knew all along what was happening. It just that, in my case, a man or a guy may not be the best person to talk with but at least they tend to pay attention and let it pass to the other and yet seems like Vener and I knew each other for too long. Seems like I knew him all along.
"I got to go, I still have some paperwork to finish. I was already engrossed staying here." I said.
"Why not grab some lunch in the next stall here?" He invited.
"No, it's okay. For sure Rona prepared food for us. She informed me," I said as I let him read the message that Rona sent me earlier.
"If you say so, Ms Sandoval, " he smiled.
I smiled back as I bid my goodbye and went out to grab a cab. I didn't wait long since there's a cab after a few minutes to wait. I opened the door of the cab without waiting for the driver to open the door for me. Then suddenly, it rained. It rained without notice. Life is like rain. Love is like rain. In the middle of heavy rain, it's easy to focus on the dark sky and the pouring rain. Eventually, though the rain ends and the sky clears so as the pain washes through time.
Some emotions are left unheard; brings so much pain
There's nothing but pure tears in vain
Leaving an invisible scar that stays forever
Though I don't regret falling for its trap ever.
Giving him a bittersweet smile and goodbye
Feels like watching myself sinking with a gate pass
It sucks but somehow a wonderful lullaby
Cause love endures and never fail, yes it was
Remembering that day gave me a reason to survive,
This will give the strength to move on
The light to go on and step forward
Thank him, thank him for the reward.
Enlightened,
Ms A