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'You should try this! It's really good!'
'What happened to you?! Are you alright?'
'Look at this! Isn't great?!'
'I love you, my dear Empress.'
'Until the end of our time, you're my one and only.'
'If there is a next life, I swore to my life that I'll find you and bring you back with me. You're the only woman that I ever loved and will always be.'
'Please wait for me, my dearest…'
Scarlette shook off her head to ignore those petty feelings that she had and sighed.
'No matter what you wish for, it would be all for naught. The past is already in the past and you can't change anything. You will be left alone for the rest of your life until the end.'
Those were the thoughts that the crimson-haired woman keeps on reminding herself about it.
She knew from the beginning that no matter what she had done, those memories that she had with [that person] would only be in her memories alone and nothing else.
However, even though those memories are from a distant past, she couldn't help but still reminisce about the past with [that person].
Scarlette tried her best not to tear up as she reminisced those memories of hers and she took a deep breath as she kept looking at the stars that surround the night sky.
'Stop it now, Scarlette! This is your life now and it would be for the rest of your life! Don't waste your time thinking about those memories that would never come true! Even if you wished for it.'
Not long enough, tears were falling from her eyes as she looked up into the night sky where the stars are shining throughout the radiance of the night sky.
Scarlette couldn't help but sob in tears as she couldn't forget the person that saved her from the darkest days of her life.
After she cried all her feelings inside, she composed herself and wiped off the tears from her eyes as she didn't want Ryan to know that she cried all by herself.
Ryan, who just returned after taking some woods from the forest, noticed the gloomy atmosphere that surrounds the crimson-haired woman.
Not only that, although she tried to hide it from him, Ryan noticed Scarlette's redden eyes as if she cried recently, and that made Ryan felt worried for her.
"Scarlette, are you alright? You seem… upset. Is there something wrong?"
Ryan asked her, and Scarlette knew that Ryan was already back as she didn't flinch upon hearing the man's worried tone.
She just took it as a casual greeting, and she looked back at him and said; "Nothing. I'm fine. Just thinking about something."
The crimson-haired woman nonchalantly said, and Ryan seemed to catch up with her phrase as he understands what she had said this time.
'Although she said those words in a more casual way, but her rasped tone of voice said otherwise.'
Ryan didn't believe what Scarlette said because he noticed the crimson-haired woman's puffed eyes as if she just cried recently.
There was a hint of pain and sadness that her eyes held, even though she tried to hide it, but Ryan could see through with it.
There is a saying; "You can hide your emotions for all you want but not your eyes. The eyes speaks everything no matter what you do."
Scarlette, on the other hand, knew that Ryan saw her puffed eyes as she looked away from the man's gaze and she sighed.
"Do you believe that everything that happens, there are reasons behind it?"
The crimson-haired woman asked out of the blue and that makes Ryan startled all of the sudden because right now, it feels like the crimson-haired woman is talking to him normally, unlike what she normally does.
'Her eyes are still cold as ever whenever I look into it, but there is a hint of sadness all over it. What could be the reason for this woman, who is known for her coldness, to cry up for?'
Ryan thought as he asked himself, but he knew that no one could answer the questions that swirled inside his mind as he shook off his head and snapped himself back.
He looked over at Scarlette and he felt that there is an underlying meaning in what the crimson-haired woman was saying but Ryan couldn't understand what she meant by those words but still answered her question.
"I think there is. There are some unspeakable truths and lies in this world that we don't know but even if that was the case then, there are reasons behind it. Right or wrong, good or evil…. We can't judge them in the first place and if you could see it, that's what you called the balance of natural order."
Ryan explained his own opinion on Scarlette's question from earlier.
Even though he didn't understand what the crimson-haired woman meant by her words earlier, but he still gave an answer based on his own understanding.
Scarlette, on the other hand, when she heard those answers, she sighed once again and frowned.
"Then… how about if the natural order shakes that balance, you're talking about, what would happen?"
Honestly, Ryan couldn't understand more about what the crimson-haired woman was trying to imply by those questions she's asking for.
This might be the first time that Scarlette talks longer than usual but right now, Ryan felt an incoming headache, but he still gave an answer or rather, his own opinion in this topic.
"Logically speaking? If the natural order became unstable then, chaos will descend?"
He said in an unsure manner because he didn't know what to say anymore at the crimson-haired woman's out of the blue questioning and he doesn't understand what sort of thinking the woman had.
'This is what those people would describe her. An enigma. And from earlier, I know she cried as her eyes puffed red but what could be the reason? I want to know, and I don't understand myself why it bothers me.'
Ryan thought as he looked at the crimson-haired woman who was still looking up at the night sky.
Even though the crimson-haired woman asked some questions to him, she never looked at his direction as if she is trying to hide her puffed eyes from him.
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