My nanny was helping me do my makeup,for my date with Faby.So many emotions were bottling up inside me and I wanted to talk to someone about them.
"Carlos and I kissed,today,"I snapped out of the blues and I liked the relief that came with that. "Ooh!Okay.Why?"She asked but she didn't sound surprised.I shrugged."He kissed me first and I kissed him back.But now I feel like I did something wrong.I'm on my way to another date with another guy after kissing another,"I said. "I liked it,the kiss,"I added. "What about the kisser?Do you like him?"She asked. "I don't know.I don't want to like him,"I said. "Get on that date and sort out your feelings,"she added.
"Well,help me pick out a dress for my date,"I said and she walked over to my closet."Green?"She asked."Wouldn't that look like I'm overdressing?"I asked."You tell me.You're the fashionista here."She said."I'm scared.I feel like something will go wrong.Maybe Faby doesn't even like me,"I said. "Trust me he does,"she said. "It's been three years.Maybe he has changed,"I argued.
"Get on that date and find out.Stop over thinking it for heavens sake!I don't know why you never believe that you deserve to be happy,"she said and I took that green dress from her hand.It was covered in crystals."You know you could really use your own advice.You deserve to be happy too.And you need a life outside taking care of me,"I said.Words I never knew I could say.Finding happiness would mean abandoning me,or so I thought.
"Hey,your date just got here,"she changed the topic as she glanced outside through the window.I slipped my body into the dress and she helped me zip it up.
"Have fun,"she said to me as I grabbed my bag and headed downstairs.I met dad downstairs.
"Going on a date?"He asked.I nodded. "Who's the lucky guy?"He asked. "Fabian,"I responded and shut my mouth bef leaking that I was the one who asked him out. "The Fabian?"He asked,surprised that Faby was back. "Yeah,the Fabian,"I said with a smile. "Come on dad,don't give me that look.I'm not going to have sex with him,"I whispered and laughed afterwards."That's not what I was thinking,"he replied defensively."We both know you were,"I said and he kissed me on my cheek."Have fun,"he said and for the first time in a long time I felt like we had had a real father-daughter interaction.I really needed that.
"I will,"I promised him as I headed outside.Whoa!Carlos and Fabian were talking.That really made me nervous."Hey,"I said to Fabian before I noticed he was dressed in jeans.Who wears jeans to a date?I panicked for a second but decided not to overthink it."I see you've met Carl,"I said to him.He nodded.
"Hey,I'll go back inside.You guys have fun,"Carlos said to me as we hugged for a while."I don't think it's a date.He's wearing a pair of jeans,"I used the opportunity to whisper my insecurities to Carl's ear."You'll be fine.If it goes wrong,call me,"he whispered back.