SUZY'S POV
"Anong masasabi mo ngayon sa mga bulaklak mo, Liam? Was it pretty hard enough to get your senses back? O kailangan ko pang lakasan ang paghambalos ko sa'yo nang tigilan mo na'ko??"
The moment I sarcastically asked that, I suddenly felt alarmed when he throw me a dark glare habang hawak-hawak pa rin nito ang mukha nito.
I think bigla nalang nag-iba ang tingin nito ngayon. Gone was the playful look in his eyes and he seems so dangerous now...
I stepped back in alarm when I noticed him rushed towards me.
"Anong gagawin---"
Before I could even complete that question, his hand instantly found my neck now before he pushed me and pinned me against the wall behind me.
The instant my back made contact to the cold wall, I let out a cry while grimacing in pain.
His hold at me wasn't that tight for a strangulation but just enough to pin me still. Binitiwan ko na agad ang sakong bitbit ko before I tried to push him off. But to my utter frustration, he won't even budge. Damn it!
"Liam! Anong ginagawa mo ngayon?? Balak mo na ba'kong sakalin ngayon just because I gladly returned those flowers to you??!"
When I shouted that, his cold glare intensified as he glared down at me. I could even feel his breath fanning against my face right now, much to my discomfort.
"Return? By slapping that fucking sack in my face! That's how you show your gladness by hitting me on my face??!!" asik na nito with sarcasms in his voice and a murderous glare in his eyes.
I tried to appear unaffected by his murderous look kahit na nagsisimula ng manginig ang mga tuhod ko ngayon.
I wasn't just used being shouted by anyone. Especially men...Dahil kahit na nakaligtas pa'ko noon nang muntikan na'kong magahasa, the trauma was still there... Hiding in me. But he doesn't have to know that anyway.
Squaring up my shoulder, sinagot ko na ito as I tried to ignore our close proximity.
"Well, how could you expect me to return those flowers to you nicely kung kahit na ano pang sabihin ko sa'yo na tigilan mo na'ko sa mga kalokohan mo, hindi ka pa rin tumitigil! You keep on messing my life when I was just trying to have a peaceful life!"
"Huh! Messing your life??" he shook his head sabay bitaw nito sa'kin which I was thankful he did dahil makakahinga na rin ako ng maayos.
"And when did I ever mess with your life, woman? Pinadalhan lang kita ng maraming bulaklak kanina at hindi malaking problema so I don't deserve that harsh treatment from you!"
"Well you deserve that!"
He growled when I snapped that. But I won't just back down with this argument right now dahil lang hindi ako makahinga ng mabuti ngayon at dahil nanginginig pa ang mga tuhod ko.
"Hindi mo man lang ba inalam bago mo ko pinadalhan ng sangkatutak na bulaklak that I despised all of it?? Well, hindi 'di ba? Akala mo kasi lahat ng babae kikiligin agad kapag bibigyan mo lang sila ng mga letsing bulaklak!"
That made him frowned at me and faced me with his hands rested on his hips. He seems so frustrated while looking at me now.
"And what's the matter with those flowers then?? Bulaklak lang 'yon and every woman supposed to love flowers so ano ba talagang problema mo? Are you trying to play hard-to-get now para lang makuha mo ang pansin ko and so I'd go chase after you like an idiot??"
Just hearing that insult, hindi ko na napigilan ang kamay ko na masampal agad ito. My blood just instantly boiled up at this jerk!
"I am not playing hard to get bastard! Isaksak mo na sa baga mo yang atensyon because I don't want any of it! I was just trying to say na hindi ko gusto ang mga bulaklak because I am allergic to those darn things at hindi dahil gusto kong habulin mo'ko!" I shouted at him with so much want to just murder him now.
Agad naman itong natigilan saka kunot-noong tumingin sa'kin.
"What do you mean you're allergic?? Anong kalokohan ba---"
"Hindi ako nakikipaglokohan ngayon, Liam! At maniwala ka man sa'kin o hindi, wala na'kong pakialam! Ang gusto ko lang ngayon ay tigilan mo na'ko sa mga kalokohan mo. Just let me live peacefully again! Just leave me alone at kung maaari, 'wag na 'wag ka ng magpapakita sa'kin! Just give me back my old life at yan lang ang gusto ko!"
I know I sounded like I was begging him now but I don't care. Kung kailangan ko pang lumuhod rito ngayon just to leave me alone, gagawin ko. Just to get back the life I had before noong hindi ko pa ito nakilala. That old life where no one ever take an interest to give me such attention he was giving me now. Dahil kapag hindi ko ito ginawa, hindi ko alam kung hanggang saan ko nalang kayang pigilan ang sarili ko na mahulog rito.
I maybe hate him for humiliating me at the club before but I couldn't just deny the fact that he is a natural charmer.
At hangga't maaari, ayokong mahulog sa kanya.
He didn't answered right away at nanatili lang itong nakatingin sa'kin. As if he was trying to read my thoughts under his scrutinizing stare. Gone was his deadly glare now.
When I felt my eyes began to heat up with tears now, I quickly blinked those tears away before I tried to convince him again.
"Just please go back to being a stranger to me, Liam. Kalimutan mo na kung ano mang binabalak mong gawin sa'kin maawa ka. Wala ka namang mapapala sa mga ginagawa mong 'to. I would never fall for you anyway dahil----"
"No. I don't think so."
When he suddenly cut that off, now with a determined look in his eyes while shaking his head at me in refusals, I couldn't help but squeezed my eyes out and raked my hair to the back out of frustrations.
Oh no. He couldn't be serious by now!
"Pwede ba, Liam.. " Timping saad ko na rito, trying to make my voice calm when I was closed to strangle him now.
"Nagmamakaawa na'ko sa'yo ngayon pero ayaw mo pa rin. Ano pa bang gusto mong gawin ko? Gusto mo bang lumuhod pa'ko sa harapan mo ngayon para lang mapapayag kita?"
I gritted my teeth in annoyance when he just sent me a knowing smirk.
"No, Suzy. Hindi 'yan ang gusto kong gawin mo ngayon.." He answered habang nagsisimula na naman itong lumapit sa'kin ngayon.
Dahilan para mataranta na naman ako. I quickly took an alarming step to my right in a hope to maintain a good distance from him kahit isang metro man lang ang layo.
I just want to atleast breath normally right now at magagawa ko lang 'yon kapag malayo ito sa'kin.
"I have better idea for you to do for me.."
"A-And what could that be? Just tell me at gagawin ko agad 'yon. Just so you will leave me alone after that. Tell me." Desperadong tugon ko rito though my voice stuttered in nervous right now dahil sa panay na lapit nito sa'kin ngayon.
He just smirked at me, he was obviously enjoying my reaction right now.
Goodness with this man!
"Ang gusto kong gawin mo ngayon...you're going to accept my offer to be my woman and after that, lulubayan na kita. Just that."
Just hearing that stupid idea, I felt like ready to burst in tears now in utter annoyance.
"YOU ARE MAD!" I exclaimed while shaking my head in disbelief at him.
"Akala mo ba talaga gagawin ko 'yon? To be your woman??? Nahihibang kana! At bakit ko naman 'yon gagawin? Para pagtawanan mo lang ako dahil nagawa mo'kong utuin?"
"I am not just fooling around now.."
I let out a disbelief scoff when he growled that in disapproval, dahilan para tumalim uli ang tingin nito sa'kin.
"At tingin mo maniniwala ako sa'yo? You have tons of women out there, waiting for you to call them and they were way more better than me. I am just nothing compared to those women so do you think I'd believe that?? That what? You're not just fooling around me now?" I bitterly answered while shaking my head at him, ignoring his glare as I kept taking a slow steps to my right to escape from him na sunod ng sunod pa rin sa'kin.
"Just go back to the life you used to have, Liam. Just mess any women out there at hayaan mo na'ko!"
"No."
The clenching of my teeth tightened when he firmly refused that with a shook of his head and with adamant look in his eyes.
"It's you what I want right now and I won't stop pestering you around kapag hindi ka papayag sa gusto ko."
"Nahihibang ka na. At wala akong panahon sa kalokohang ito kaya tama na!" I shouted at him before I ran towards the door behind him. To where there was no jerk like him.
But before I could even get passed on him, I felt a firm arm snaked around my waist before he pulled me towards him and pushed me again to the wall near him.
"Ano ba!!!!" Inis ko ng sigaw rito habang nagpupumiglas na makaalis mula sa pagkakayapos nito sa'kin.
"You're not supposed to leave this place without your answer, woman."
"Sabi ng ayoko and that's my answer!!" I answered with bared teeth while I keep punching him on his chest in protests. Kahit na imposible namang makawala ako rito with him pinning me against the wall with his large built.
With my 5'2" height, I felt so small right now with his 6 foot or so height towering over me. Staring down at me with a playful smirk in his darn mouth.
"I don't take a no as an answer right now. Just give me the right answer at pakakawalan kita agad rito."
I gritted my teeth when I felt his hot breath fanning to my face again as his face was just a mere inches from my own. I couldn't breathe again and the trembling of my knees came back.
And if I want to get out from here now without embarrassing myself, kailangan kong tatagan ang sarili ko.
Determined to do that, itinulak ko na agad ito but again, it just came out a futile dahil hindi man lang ito natinag sa kinatatayuan nito na siyang ikinainis ko pa lalo. Gustong-gusto ko na talagang maiyak ngayon dahil sa sitwasyon kong 'to.
"Oh no. That won't work on me, sweetie. You can only leave this place if you'll give me the right answer. Just say yes and be my woman at makakaalis ka na agad rito."
"And then what??? Anong mangyayari kapag pumayag ako??"
When I snapped that in between with gritted teeth, his smirk widened saka mas lalo pa nitong inilapit ang mukha nito sa'kin, to the point that his mouth was almost touching my own now.
"Simple lang naman ang mangyayari.. We can just enjoy ourselves habang magkasama tayo without any string attachments."
I bit the inside of cheeks hard when I felt his hand began to wander around my waist. He was obviously teasing me right now!
"Sa madaling salita, we're free to have a relationship with anyone. I can date any woman I want and you can date that pretty boy in your school. But if I need you with me, gusto kong puntahan mo'ko. At kung gusto mo naman akong makasama, you can just call me to come and if I'm free that time, I'd go run to you."
"At hanggang saan naman matatapos ang kahibangan na'to? Hanggang sa magsawa ka na sa'kin? Hanggang sa kailan mo ko gustong itapon na parang basura, 'di ba???" I asked while trying so hard to ignore his touch kahit na tingin ko mga ilang sandali lang, mawawalan na ng tuluyan ng lakas ang mga tuhod kong tumayo ngayon.
"No. I can assure you that it won't even last a month. I never intend to stay that long with my any woman so yes. Mahaba na ang isang buwan sa kasunduang ito."
Hearing all those ridiculous conditions from him, 'di ko na mapigilang ngumiti na lamang rito ng mapakla as I stopped his hand to tease me.
Of course. A playboy like him would never commit to any woman. And I would be a complete idiot kung isusugal ko rito ang puso ko when it would be highly possible na baka mahulog ako ng tuluyan rito before even a month would be over. Mas lalo lang gugulo ang buhay ko pagkatapos ng lahat.
"And when I agreed to all those conditions, magmumukha akong isang bayarang babae na isang tawag mo lang, I would come running to you to offer you myself ganun ba??"
"No. Hindi ka magmumukhang bayarang babae because this is a mutual agreement between us. At ang kapalit nito ay kalayaan at katahimikan ulit ng buhay mo. And I know you're struggling in financial aspects right now because you're a graduating student and I can help you with that. With any financial matters para hindi mo na kailangan pang magtrabaho ng kahit ano."
With that financial matters being brought up, parang bigla nalang bumalik lahat ng galit ko rito. Na para bang ang liit-liit lang ng tingin nito sa'kin at kailangan ko na lamang tanggapin ang gusto nitong mangyari just because I was in need of money right now.
"No."
That made him frowned at me in confusion when I firmly refused that without any hesitations.
"I would never accept that ridiculous offer kaya tigilan mo na'ko sa lahat ng kalokohan mo!" Matigas ko ng saad rito before I shoved him off me and stepped to the side para umalis na sa lugar na'yon.
But to my utter annoyance, his arm was quick enough to grab my waist and pushed me back again to the cold wall.
Pinilit kong magpumiglas rito para makatakas sa mahigpit na pagkakahawak nito sa'kin but my little form could do nothing against his large built. I felt my eyes began to tear up now in aggravation. For being so helpless and he was just too blinded with his lusts right now to even notice that.
I should've just stayed in my apartment at hindi nalang sana ako pumunta pa rito.
"Ano pa bang pwede kong idagdag sa mga kondisyon na'yon just to make you accept it, woman? Kulang pa ba ang lahat ng 'yon?"
When he asked that, inis ko nalang na pinagsusuntok ito. And seeing him not even affected with it, hindi ko na napigilan ang sarili ko. Tuluyan na'kong naiyak dahil sa nararamdaman kong inis rito while I keep hitting him on his chest.
"Wala kang dapat na idagdag gago! Ayokong maging babae mo kaya tigilan mo na'ko! Hindi ako interesado sa'yo kaya lubayan mo na'ko!!" I shouted with my tears kept falling on my cheeks. Now having no shame to wail out a cry in front of him.
He just grunted in disapproval and when he tried to stop me from hitting him again, agad ko ng tinampal ang kamay nito.
"Suzy---"
"No! Wala kang awa! Halos nagmamakaawa na'ko sa'yo ngayon na lubayan mo na'ko pero ano? You still keep forcing me to be your woman when I don't want that! I just want my old life back but you won't even give me that!! Napakamakasarili mong tao!!"
Seeing me wailing out in now, guilt flickered in his eyes. And then after a few seconds of staring down at my face now marred with tears, his look slowly turned gentle and apologetic as his hold at me loosened out. And I took that opportunity to escaped from him now.
"I'm.. I'm sorry----"
Hindi ko na hinintay na matapos niyang sabihin 'yon. Lumayo na'ko agad rito saka nagmamadali ng lumabas sa silid na'yon, wiping the tears that kept falling on my cheeks as I vacated that damn place.
If he won't leave me alone, then maybe I should just be the one to do that for him. I should just avoid meeting him at all possible cost. That way, I could have the old life that I want.