I heard the blow dryer click off upstairs but Lee didn't come down right away. Perhaps she was having second thoughts about sleeping in my bed? Maybe I'm pushing too hard?
I meant what I said though, I just want to hold her. I need to feel her close to me. There is just something about holding her that makes me feel complete and not so lonely. It's ironic because all the women I've had sex with over the years, and I never wanted to hold them. Lee I want to hold but not rush into sex with. I want to prove to her and to myself that this is more than physical.
Finally, several minutes later, she stepped into my bedroom doorway. I couldn't take my eyes off her. She looked so gorgeous with her hair windblown, no bra underneath her tee shirt, baggy fleece pajama pants, and bare feet. I could see pink toenail polish peeking out from under her wide pajama pant legs. This surprised me since I've never seen nail polish on her fingernails. "Door open or closed," she asked.
"Ummm what?" I wasn't paying much attention to what she was saying, but her hand on the door clued me in. "I...ah...locked up the house and shut off the lights, so shut it if you will please."
Lee quietly pulled the door closed and climbed in the opposite side of my king sized bed. I watched her as she moved and then laid on her back under the covers. She didn't say anything and appeared stiff as she lay there.
I reached over and threaded my fingers through hers, "are you having second thoughts Lee? There is a guest room upstairs."
"No Wam. I'm okay. I'm just nervous. I've never slept in the same bed as a man before," she admitted quietly.
"Hey, this is a new experience for me too. I've never invited a woman to spend the night cuddling with me in my bed." Lee's eyes snapped over to meet mine and she looked shocked. "Remember Lee, I didn't do relationships. You really are special to me. Would you like to come closer so I can hold you?" She nodded and as I held the sheet and comforter up, she scooted closer and rested on her side next to me. I was on my side facing her, but rolled to my back and scooted closer, pressing our bodies closer together. Once settled, Lee's head rested on my chest, only separated by my thin tee shirt, and my arm was wrapped around her and rested on her hip to hold her against me. After a couple minutes she began to relax and placed her palm on my chest over my heart.
It felt so good just to hold her, breath in her scent, and feel her soft curves against my harder body. I could get used to this.
"Is it okay if I shut the lamp off," I requested.
"Ummm hmm," she replied.
I switched off the lamp on the bedside table, wrapped both arms around her to hold her tight, and kissed the top of Lee's head. I felt like I needed to say something before we both drifted off, "thank you Lee for coming tonight. Holding you always makes me feel better, calmer. I'm glad you agreed to sleep in my bed tonight." I stroked her hair as I talked.
She moved her hand up to my cheek and rubbed my stubble as she said, "me too Wam. Goodnight." She kissed my lips in a chaste manner and laid her head back down on my chest.
I swear she fit perfectly against my body. "Goodnight Lee." I closed my eyes and focused on slowing my breathing and heart rate to help me find sleep. Within minutes I heard Lee's breathing slow and her body became limp. I feel blessed that she trusts me enough to sleep in my bed with me. If I was a criminal, an opportunist, this would have been the perfect time to take advantage of her innocence, but I wasn't that guy. I want nothing but the best for Lee, and plan to do whatever it takes to help her reach her dreams. No doubt my family would accept her without question. I took a deep breath, closed my eyes, and tried hard to clear my mind. My racing mind had kept me awake many nights when I needed sleep, but with Lee in my arms and my heart feeling full, tonight would not be one of them.
I woke up minutes before my alarm was set to go off. I hurried and shut it off before it startled us both. During the night we had shifted and we were now both laying on our sides with my front pressed right up against Lee's back and holding her close. The problem with spooning is that if I don't move before she wakes, she will be greeted by my morning wood. Not what I want when I'm trying to prevent our physical relationship from escalating. I carefully extricate myself from Lee and the covers and slip quietly into the bathroom. It's still dark outside, but the street lights give just enough light that I can see to go to the bathroom and see Lee has not moved in bed.
I shut the bathroom door, use the toilet, and then step into my shower for a quick wash. I hoped I wouldn't wake Kynlee so I could climb back into bed and hold her for a few minutes before I left. Unfortunately that idea was shattered when I heard her alarm ring from the bedroom. Lee must have set her alarm a few minutes after mine. I attempted to hurry my shower to get back to the bedroom, but by the time I returned with only a towel around my waist, Lee is out of bed and no longer in the room. I stepped into my walk-in closet and donned my work clothes before going in search of my missing bed mate.
Opening my bedroom door, the smell of fresh coffee deliciously assaulted my nose. I couldn't help but follow the smell into the kitchen where I found Lee with one travel cup filled and the other filling as I watched.
I walked up behind her quietly, placed my hands on her hips from behind and kissed her on the cheek. I saw Lee's lips lift into a smile as she greeted me, "good morning Wam."
I've never seen a sexier woman in pajamas with hair tousled from sleep. It didn't matter what this woman wore, I couldn't stay away. "Good morning beautiful. How did you sleep?"
Lee turned around and handed me a mug of coffee and I had to smile. Our love, our need for coffee in the morning was something we shared. The blacker and stronger the better. "Thank you for the coffee."
"Wam, you know I have to have my coffee. I must really like you to make you some too," she teases. "I slept well. You were like my own personal heater. My only regret is that you were gone when I woke up."
"I'm sorry baby. I was trying to let you sleep. I'd much rather have stayed in bed with you," I say as I nuzzled her neck with my lips and stubble and she squirms away from me.
"Wam, you're stubble is pokey..." now breathing hard she stands several feet away from me.
"Well I was pokey this morning before I got out of bed too, if you catch my drift." I move slowly toward her again and she backs away toward the doorway to the dining room with a devilish smirk on her face. "Do you think you can get away from me in my house," I laugh.
Kynlee turns and runs into the dining room on the other side of the table. As I inch one way, she moves the other until I try to hurry around the corner and chase her into the living room. She is in front of the couch and I'm behind it, doing the same dance. I pretend to come around the corner and she makes a break for it, but instead I jump over the back of the couch and grab her around the waist. Lee squeals as I sit down and pull her in my lap. We both laugh as I tickle her until she grabs my hands and says, "stop...Wam, please...stop."
I let her hold onto my hands and look at her face as she looks up into mine. Both our smiles falter as the tension between us escalates. I lean in and cover her lips with mine. The kiss starts out sweet and innocent but quickly morphs into something much more passionate. As she releases my hands, I pull her body flush against mine with one hand behind her upper back and one on her hip. I cannot hold back the moan that escapes me as our tongues dance together. As Lee wiggles to get closer, I feel myself hardening again. She continues to move until I pull back and meet her eyes, "baby, you keep wiggling like that, and I'm gonna embarrass myself. Damn girl."
She stopped moving and her mouth opened in the shape of an "O" like she just felt what I was talking about. Lee looks down at the couch cushion and whispers, "sorry Wam."
"Oh baby, please don't apologize. I love the way you feel against me. Unfortunately I have to go to work, and don't have time to take this further." I felt deep regret at having to leave Lee and go to work. What a change for me. My life since finishing medical school has been all about work. Not wanting to leave home was an odd feeling.
"So you'll be at the cabin Friday night right," she asks.
I nod, "barring any major emergencies here, I should be there early afternoon. Two and a half days seems like a long time doesn't it?"
Lee slides her hands around my shoulders and hugs me tightly. I can't help but hug her back. "I'll miss you Wam," she says next to my ear.
Hearing her sound emotional about us being apart causes my chest to feel tight. Oh my gosh, what is this woman doing to me? "I'm sorry baby, but I need to go to work. Friday will be here before we know it. But Lee..." I wait until she meets my eyes, "I'll miss you too." She smiles and gives me a quick peck on the lips before standing up and giving me a hand up. Again I stroke her shiny, long, brown hair. I love when she leaves it down. I ask to ensure, "can you see yourself out babe?" Lee nods. "Okay, just lock the doorknob and it'll be okay until I get home. Goodbye Lee." I pecked her one last time on the lips, grabbed my stuff, and walked out the door.
I never envisioned it being this hard to leave my home to go to work. I took a deep breath once I was inside my SUV. I started the engine and drove out of the driveway hurriedly, before I could change my mind and run back in the house to Lee.