Ah beautiful and intense New York, the city that even under the snow maintains its beauty, the city where dreams come true. However that Monday morning was different, you Alice entered the library in search of your book that was already ready but for some reason it was not delivered on time. You entered the bookstore and with the same smile came to me.
_Bom morning josh.
At the sound of Frank Sinatra I didn't even notice that you were Ali watching me hum "Thats life" one of Frank's very rare songs. Until I realized it and then I was static looking at you while the music ended in the background behind me. You applaud and laugh at the same time, that was the first time Alice you really liked something about me.
_ah excuse is frank he always inspires me and shows a side that i don't know very well. But what brings you here? New book ?
You straighten your hair and recover from your laughter.
_ You were incredible, you incorporated the character well, but that's not why I came here. My book is a little late and I need it for college.
I make a face like someone who had forgotten, what really happened, in the week of deliveries I had an unforeseen event and I couldn't deliver the renovated books.
_ I'm sorry I forgot, it is that lately there is a lot of work to be done here.
_No problems.
_Here he is..
I placed her book on the counter wrapped in old paper.
_Thank you, Mr. Frank.
You play again with the fact of my momentary voice acting.
_Maybe I write in a contest and maybe win something.
You smile again.
_Ah, by the way, tonight I'm going to meet some friends at a Literary party that the campus of. Why don't you come with me?
At that time Alice I really thought if it was worth going out with you for the first time after a while but I ended up accepting her invitation and maybe it was at that moment that things started to go wrong.
The night came and there we were, you wanted to look smart so you didn't wear anything ordinary just your typical writer's outfit and a little bun, every time you involved me in matters that seemed irrelevant to you or you didn't really understand those people, maybe not it was his "Vibe" to say how authoritarian and fascist the government was.
_ People wanted to introduce a friend this is Josh from reads feu.
So you introduced me to your friends, I mean what your friends looked like. Jessy a dull redhead who owns a health food store, Erick masseuse and writer and Natasha influencer. They all had something in common, money.
_ So Josh what do you work on
?
At that moment, I realized that what mattered there was how much you were recognized in society. More money, more friends.
_ I have a degree in computer science, but my field is books.
Jessy found it curious that I was so smart and didn't focus on what I know.
_ Why did you follow the books and not the technology?
The fact was, they were trying to include me in that vicious cycle of biased people and you wanted me to be accepted, to have someone who understood you. _The world today is being a real waste of time. You know, I value small things, especially things that human beings despise.
Erick
_For example?
_The fact that this is a Literary party and everyone is connected and talking about their personal life and not about writers or books.
You smiled but did everything for them not to notice, leaving them embarrassed maybe it gave you the taste of what to say but this whole time you didn't have the courage. But why ? You don't owe them anything, that's when I realized you just wanted to be recognized, and they are the only way until you finish your book.
_gom was a pleasure to meet you
....
Jessy pretended to forget my name just to avoid having to mention it again. She was angry just for telling the truth.
_ Josh
_That ... I need to go, after all not everyone here has time to live a hobby, right?
I smirked and saw you leaving while holding your clear glass of whiskey.
_ Don't care about her, she just wants attention.
Those words came out of the mouth of Erick the masseuse. That will be your name from now on.
_I think she did not understand my point of view.
He smiled, he seemed to like what I said. That's when I found out he was gay and was enjoying everything I said, which was weird, his friends are weird and you don't know that, well at least I'll be here to get rid of them.
_good my time has come, thank you very much for the invitation but Josh and I have to go.
I sighed in relief, you understood that this was not my place.
_ It is a pity but who knows next time we will not talk about your favorite writers?
I understood the sarcasm.
_Ah unfortunately you do not know so I think it would be a waste of time to talk about them.
You smiled again, kissed the cloe's face and pulled me out.
_Aquilo was incredible.
You said that as you spun with open arms across the snow-and-sand-strewn sidewalk.
_They deserved to hear that they are what I hate the most on the planet, toxic people.
_Next time we will have a Literary party where we really talk about books.
I smiled
_May I ask you a question?
We stopped in front of your door a simple but tidy house.
_Clear.
_Because they ?
You paused, looked down and then at me smiling awkwardly.
_I think ... for some reason I wanted to be one of them. Just for a few days and as I can't do it I try to be close to them.
At that moment I discovered your sensitive side, you were just a New York girl wanting to follow a dream despised by everyone.
_ You can be much more than
this, more than them, you are intense and at the same time maintain a perfect balance. Just be yourself and the right people will seek out your friendship.
You hugged me and that was the first sign of affection you had shown.
_Good night Josh
You went up the 5 steps until the door opened and entered without looking back, the truth was that I was not so different from them, I was someone important and at the same time someone that everyone wanted to discover.
That same day I was supposed to tell about my book, about who I am, and about his platonic passion for a writer that nobody knew who he was, only me because he was part of my day to day.
Verses of an astronaut
For those who love a good night, today the universe showed me the beauty of a human being, the intensity and the defect too, you are the only ones in my universe who will understand this, continue your passion and do not forget that the universe tends to be disappointing at times, be yourself, smile, love, cry and never forget who you want to be. A good night from your favorite astronaut.
Ps: I'm beyond the stars writing to you.