We all have some kind of dark desire. People who want to be big and powerful, others want to see people's evil, but there are still those who, even though life has not favored you, is always there. It is like swimming against the current trying to reach the edge, you try until your forces run out and you realize that the current will always be stronger.
Ding dong
House bells shouldn't be that common, they could vary.
She opens the door and damn how that red dress fits her. She smiled as usual at seeing me standing dressed in a simple blazer, a blue shirt and jeans, the shoe is not even spoken, worn and dirty with dirt. Okay maybe I'm not so careful, she didn't notice the shoes but what was in my hands. A bottle of French wine that I had found in the attic of my house, I know it is strange but it seemed like a good idea.
_Josh? I thought you weren't coming.
Okay maybe I was excited about the idea of having dinner with Alice at her house, dinner for two seemed like a great idea for a date.
_Enter please ...
I put my feet inside the living room, once at home while I looked around every corner of her house. She was organized or at least it seemed since all the junk she threw into the broom closet. I smiled at least she had tried hard.
_Wine ? Wow, you really took this dinner issue seriously.
She said as we made our way to the dining room.
_Eu I hope it is not too much. I just wanted to impress.
I kept smiling until we got there and then the truth came.
_Josh wanted to introduce you to an important person for me.
The reality Alice is that you weren't single, you loved someone above most, and he was blond with brown eyes and a white smile. You didn't want to have a date, you wanted to introduce me to the reason for your involuntary sighs and smiles.
_Prazer Alef Garden.
I stopped in front of him and my body involuntarily greeted him. But my mind was asking millions of questions.
_Prazer Joshua reads feu.
You looked at me knowing that I was not happy to see that, now what is the real reason for all that? Did you really want to play with me? Wasn't it enough for everyone to find a space in me to bury their problems?
_Josh please sit down.
I sat on the side chair of the table. It was not time to freak out or yell at her, I needed to maintain the standard of those who didn't care about that but ... the truth is that it hurt, a lot.
_Entao Alef Josh works in that bookshop that I told you he knows everything about books.
He smiled looked impressed, just looked. The truth is that it made no difference to him, I was just a simple book seller.
_Really ? I was after an old book that tells the story of two people who fall in love and end up killing themselves.
Spare me, he was just being polite, in fact, the man doesn't have the slightest taste for books. And you knew that Alice, you knew that he didn't care what connected us.
_Romeu and Julieta .... that's the name.
_Truth. This book is incredible.
At that moment, curiosity had already knocked on the door.
_So ... Alef .... what do you do for a living?
He arranged the napkin on his lap and put his hands together on the table.
_I'm an analyst.
_De sistema?
_Almost that .... I work in a company that influences people to buy.
Before you ask, yes, I was being sarcastic about the question.
_Work interesting. How did you meet?
He smiled and took her hand. She looked at me awkwardly and smiled weakly.
_Well we were at one of jessy's parties, in fact she introduced us.
I looked at her and once again she looked away. You didn't like him, he would be the door to her success, as long as jessy dictated the rules you would follow like a disciple.
_Well who's hungry?
_I am
He said raising his hand and once again the truth appeared, this time in the form of an alliance. He was married, that's when I started to wonder who you really were.
As soon as dinner was over he hurriedly left her house, leaving us alone for the first time. She knew what was coming next.
_Sinto sorry for that josh ...
I smirked disapproving all that with just a look.
_Eu I owe apologies, actually for everything.
I threw the napkin on the table and got up.
_Josh what did you expect?
I sighed slightly, turned my attention to her, pulled a chair close to her and stared into her eyes. Light brown, a little watery, the pupil dilated and that's where I was able to describe you.
_ You are not happy with him, he is the reason for so many marks on you, not physically but emotionally. But it is the door for you to live your dream, and however painful it will be you will continue with it. Now how long are you going to put up with all this?
A tear escaped her face at that moment and you wiped it away quickly.
_For the first time there is truth in your eyes. I didn't really expect anything and you did it ... you managed to surprise me. Well ....
I said that while getting up.
_Good night Alice.
I kissed the left corner of her face and just got out of there, leaving behind maybe her tears and in a way a weight that I felt. I thought I was the worst person in the world but you did it, you managed to be worse than all of them, and you know it did me good. Thank you for tonight Alice.