In the night I try to sleep but I couldn't sleep, I know Adam understanding my feeling and he know that I am lonely. I don't know what to say about it. Ohh.... I don't want broken hearth again its killing me.
I remember what kind of hurt. I already broken with this feeling. And I think Adam is right I need someone to cure my hurt. I just won't to be quick to love someone, even i am I guy I really know broken hearth is.
I am really hate of this feeling I don't know why that someone that a close to me always killing my hearth. I don't know what to say, oh god if it wrong to be a guy. I am just feeling to my hearth. My mind blow and I can't think it.
I just want to be happy lord, I know that you can healing a broken hearth. So I get up in the night and pray to god. God if am wrong please remind me and if my feeling truth please guide me and help me lord.
Jeeeh..... What time now oh is almost 2am. I can't sleep damn what that I thinking it just like am suitable with Adam word. Ohh am so lonely and desperate I don't want hurt again lord.
I just killing the time until 6am and I am not sleeping. my insomnia is come back, the first I feel like that when Toni broken my hearth. I cry about 3 day and I can't sleep. I go to a doctor to get recipe sleeping pill.
I better go to a doctor today and tell all that my feeling. Yeah I think that a good idea. 8am I'll go to a doctor and tell all about my feeling. I don't know what should I do. Doctor I feeling this again that I used to say to you doc.
Ohh... Its that so Alex you know you have to two personal attitude, first you like being a women and the second your acting like two personal attitude. What is the suit table for you is that being a women and the attitude or your just a man who has different case of mental.
I don't know what to say doc, I think am I guy, but I prefer being a women. I want to change my body to a women. I become a transgender you know doc.
Yeah its up to you Alex but you still a man. If your feminism is a difrrent case but you like a guy. You know its one of mental illness. Yeah I know doc but I can denied it. Am still like being a women. And I will do to being a transgender.
Ohh.. Alex its up to you I just tell the truth of it. You know many people like you and they don't know about their illness . they doing and follow they feeling and they become a transgender like you said. I just say the truth of it. You are man in women dressing Alex.