i fucking hate things right now. nothing make sense. im supposed to like this dude, and i do, i think i do. im not sure. im so confused but so angry all i want is to understand why i feel like i hate him but why i think I'm using him... i think i understand but dont know how to put it in words... i just want to punch a wall or stab holes in everything.... god i have issues... but i dont know how to tell anyone anything... i just shut people out.... i like it that way, alone, to myself, with my thoughts