you know, im not sure if i want to write books. i love writing but it feels so hard to write with nothing to write about. i love poetry but only do that when im upset or depresive. i love singing but never feel good enough to sing in front of any one at all. maybe what i want to be for jobs just wont work out like i thought. maybe a 9 to 5 is what i need. im not sure. maybe ill never be sure. but better to do what i love then do what everyone keeps shoving down my throat.