"Love"…
What is it actually?
You fight, yet you still hold on tight.
Either in your hand or in your heart.
"Love"…
What is it actually?
Is it something delightful?
Or something sorrowful?
"Love"…
What is it actually?
…
You might think, you understand "Love". But actually, you know nothing. You might think you get it. But actually, you missed it. You might think, you hold it. But actually, you drop it. That is "Love". An affection between you and other people. It might be your family, friends, or even your partner. In other words, it is someone you "Love". Up until now, I keep wondering, why is it so hard for me? I think I felt it. But why is it hard for me to show it? I keep going forward and backwards. Twisting my tongue and bite it with my wrong words. It just won't come out exactly like what I wanted to and it makes me regret it later. I keep wondering and wondering. About all those "whys". Yet, I'm the only one that is trap in my own world, that full of twists and turns. A world where only I can enter and express myself. A world where I can explore and understand more about myself.
In this so-called "world", everything is dreamingly beautiful. The sound of nature can be heard clearly. The birds lovely chirping, the breeze gently blowing, the greenery happily waving and the river slowly marching. It has such a relaxing and serene environment. The people there have "human" characteristics. But prettier, prettier than the fairies. Their eyes are shining like jewels, their sharp-edged ears fit with the long, silky hair. They are better known as the Elven, the most attractive magical creatures among all. Yet, deep down in the corner, somewhere in this world. There is where the darkness hiding and isolated themselves in their own cave. Lying down there, spreading countless evil spells, and haunt the others wellbeing. They are known as Violet Sapphire – the Kingdom of Shadow.
While others live in peace, they always there. Ready to destroy everything. Then, after a series of disturbing the peace, a war finally erupted between the mainland and the isolated ones. The mainland is represented by the Kingdom of Flame – Rubellite Tourmaline, a kingdom with the greatest power in the magical realm. With it, four other kingdoms are working together to ensure the security of their realm. These four kingdoms are The Kingdom of Ocean – Blue Zircon, The Kingdom of Breeze – Silver Pearl, The Kingdom of Land – Demantoid Garnet, and The Kingdom of Light – Imperial Topaz. Because of the war, everything had changed. The mainland loses and so the glorious and enchanted realm plunged into the valley of gloomy and despair.
As time passes by, I get to choose between these two tasks that I have to fulfil. Either working or learning in the human world. As I am in my early twentieth, I thought of it as my escape route. I couldn't bear the burden of living here anymore. It is nothing like before. Everything is a mess, physically and mentally. My mother is seriously ill as she is bedridden. My father seems as he doesn't care about a thing. But he still manages to carry out his responsibilities as a king of this Kingdom. My brothers kept blaming me, saying that I'm an ungrateful daughter. There's a time where I still managed to smile and laugh, but it lasted just for a while. Then, everything shattered into pieces. It just getting harder and harder day by day. I just couldn't take it anymore. Our relationship became more awkward since then. I was given a few days before setting on my journey and I chose to further my study in the human world. I guess, that the best decision that I have made. Although the price will get later. Rather than working, I got my price every month.
As I start my journey, it wasn't as smooth as I imagined would be. There are still more challenges ahead. It's not the first time for me to get a task far away from my family. Far from home, but it was different this time around. Even though I'm used to being away from home. I wanted to cry, but the tears won't fall. I wanted to scream, but my voice won't come out. I wanted to hug them, but my body paused. Frozen, like a puppet. I just waved my hand, smiling as if nothing is in my mind. But my heart felt like there is some burden that is so heavy and I need to carry it along with me.
The task that I got this time was nothing like before. I'm not going to the other Kingdoms for a few days or a few weeks, but I have to go to the human world. Learn more about them, getting some information with them in their realm. To be precise, it just like an apprentice. As I arrived in front of the gate, I got a full ears briefing of what I should and shouldn't do in the other realm. But all of it is not specifically stated the rules. It just a major thing that I should take into consideration. "a false step would endanger yourself and the people around you". That was the last thing they said. The human world is different, nothing like us. Tall buildings everywhere, there are many vehicles, whether public or private, and a noisy city environment. But, this place I'm in is not that bad. Although it is relatively secluded and full of strict controls, it still has basic facilities that are easy to access.
I might seem different from the others there as my deception skill was not strong enough. With this beige skin, deep red hair that is long enough to reach my waist, and a pair of grey eyes, it sure makes them see me with strange eyes that make me uncomfortable sometimes. As if they know something about me, although I'm not saying a word. But, rather than setting my hair loose, I prefer to make a ponytail or fish braid. Perhaps, I even go with just a bun sometimes. As I began to fit myself with the human world and observe their behaviour, the more I realised that the unfortunate things as previously advised may come whenever, wherever in whatever form to draw a sword towards me.
I am Aurelia Rhosyn, the only Princess of King Alastair Priamos and Queen Avyanna Mirela from the Kingdom of Rubellite Tourmaline. I have three brothers along with me. The eldest is Aldrich Sieghild, he is the one who is assigned to guard the soldiers as a Warlord. His right-hand man who sets all the strategies is my youngest brother, the third prince, Aillard Khrysaor. While the second prince, Arwel Dragomir is more on negotiation and diplomatic affairs between the states and the kingdoms. Enough with the family introduction for now. Because this story is about me, learning a new way of life in a new place. With the name of Aurelia Redmond, I lived in this world as a normal girl to ensure my safety.
My task went fine so far. I met and made new friends. Either the one who passed by or the one who gets closer by time. Until one day, my eyes encounter with a guy. He has a tan skin, with dark ash brown hair and a pair of blue eyes. He changed my life like a new light that sparks out of nowhere. He made me fluttered by his words. He is not a protector but he made me want to be protected and rely on him. He gave me butterflies every time we're in the same space. It has been several years since I felt this way. The last time I remember was when I'm with Jaromir, my first love. But my story with him was painful through the end. However, this guy I'm talking about, give me the same feeling as Jaromir did. Maybe a slight difference, but it is almost the same. Not only his sweet scent but also the bitterness. Somehow, this feeling I had towards him made me afraid that it might be painful just as before or even greater. This guy I'm talking about is Harald McKay. A human being that caught my eyes and my heart.