Dream...
Is it guidance?
Or is it a nightmare?
Dream...
If it is a guidance,
Please, show me the way.
Dream...
If it is a nightmare,
Please, make it go away.
...
Dream, what I meant by it is not something that you wanted to be someday. But, it is something that you visualise in your sleep. Either day or night. Dream, they always come. Perhaps, not every time. But, surely it comes by. It is a lie if you never dream in your lifetime. Either you remember it or not. It is still a dream. They said dream is just one of the evil doings. But, some said that it is guidance. I'm not sure. The only thing I'm sure of is this dream I kept having. The dream that I remember today. The dream that I'm afraid of it might become true. Yes, this dream that had been haunting me for several months now and it's regarding Harald. But, rather than calling it a dream. I would call it a nightmare to be precise. Because it has nothing beautiful in it.
The first dream I had was in the pitch black. I heard a voice. A voice of mine, calling out Harald's name frequently. Searching for him in fright. My heartbeat was fast, as I'm going to lose him any seconds. Then I opened my eyes and kept on calling his name. But I only saw the red sunset sky. But it was dark, dark as blood flowing everywhere. I ran through the stairs in front of me. Going down, reaching for Harald as I saw him with the other two girls. Again, I called for his name for the last time, shout as loud as I can until he finally looks at me. But, he got shot out of nowhere in front of my eyes before we can lock our gaze. The bullet came from the opposite side, it is in front of him to be sure. But far enough that I couldn't see anyone. I forced myself to run and get him, letting his head on my lap as I sat beside him. Only to hear he said a word. "please, take care of my fiancee". I chuckle a bit, my tears fell but I am smiling and looking at him in the eyes. searching for uncertainty. While his hand almost reached my face, it drooped and he froze there like a corpse. I'm not sure of this feeling. My heart broke as I woke up. But it somehow made me happy at the moment. I am happy that I could be with him until the end. But it hurts knowing that I'm late and couldn't save him.
After a few months, this nightmare comes again. Haunting my beauty sleep. Harald, he is actually one of the soldiers' trainee, and the date for him to go to the Annual Training Camp is getting closer. This nightmare made me worried for nothing. He can't actually die in training, right? I persuade myself that it will not happen. As I sat on my bed, Muriel soft voice come approaching me. Making sure that I am fine as she saw my pale face.
Muriel: Reya, are you okay?
Me: yes, I am fine.
Muriel: do you still got those nightmares again?
I kept my mouth shut for a second. Looking at her worrying face, seeking for an answer that may help in anyways. To alleviate her anxiety, I explained everything about my dream this time. Although I'm stuttering in composing my sentences, because of this sadness and frightening feeling.
Me: yes, but this time...it's kind of worse.
Muriel: why? Tell me.
Me: I dreamt of Harald...die! Again...I dreamt of him...die! But...it neither gets shot nor anything. It just...his corpse...lying down...coming through my side. On a board that seemed...to have wheels as its legs. But then...it stopped right in front of me. Burnt...he burnt into ashes! The fire comes out of nowhere! How come he could die in a training? It just training, right? I'm not wrong, am I? He couldn't possibly die in a training, right?
Muriel: calm down, Reya. And tell me, what happened next?
Me: then, suddenly...come these three kids. Collecting his ashes...and swept it on their head...and then...they disappeared. As I froze there, seeing all the things that happened. I saw...a bracelet. I try to pick it up. I thought that was Harald's. But then...without realizing. There is a girl beside his ashes. Crying...and then go away with that bracelet. The thing is...that bracelet. It had been tied...with her bag. The only thing that comes out of my mouth is..."oh, that is her's". Maybe, this is it. Harald...will never be mine. Right?
Muriel: calm down. Don't think too much, okay? Just hope for all the bad things are avoided. Okay? Now, take a deep breath, and go take your bath. We have to get ready for our class.
Me: Okay, thanks, Muriel. I hope everything will be just fine. I hope nothing bad would happen.
Zeph: Hey, what are both of you doing there? We're out of time now! Reya, hurry and take your shower! What with that look Muriel? Do you want to kill me? Heh!
Me: yeah, Zeph. I know. I'm about to get my shower right after you after all. Muriel, cut it with that look! You're scaring me!
Muriel: Oh, sorry Reya. Just keep in mind that you shouldn't get near her.
Zeph: why, you!!!
Me: cut it off you too! It's not a sin to be friends, right? Don't spoil my mood even more early in the morning, will you?
Muriel: fine. As you say Reya.
Zeph: heh, such an angel!
With that sarcasm answer from Zeph, I couldn't object anymore. That's just who they are. I just grabbed my towel and getting ready for today's class. I told you before, that I came here with Audric and two more apprentices with me, and there they are. Orlaith Muriel and Viorica Zephirine. Here, they were known as Muriel Allen and Zephirine Smith. Both of them are completely different from me. They are what they call "true beauty". It's just the characteristics that differentiate them from each other and they never on the same page nor the same table. Audric? Rather than taking into consideration regarding Zeph, he only cares about himself! As long as she doesn't start a fight with him, he is fine. But this narcissistic girl over here always gets the nerve to do so.
Zeph is the princess of Violet Sapphire – the Kingdom of Shadow. She has fair, cloudy skin. With a pair of amethyst eyes and a midnight blue hair, she was known as a Stardust Princess back in the magical realm. However, this self-centred girl always wants to look the best in front of the others. Never admit her imperfections. She's always the one who will win in every fight. But, even though she's like that, she's always the one who got left behind. She couldn't catch up with us or even anyone. She's always alone by herself since childhood. It's not that we don't want to befriend with her. But every time we come near, she always pushes us away. She would sit alone at the corner, playing and watching we play with the other elven kids.
On the other hand, Muriel is totally opposite, just like her name. She is an angel that shine at the golden sea. She is the princess of Blue Zircon – the Kingdom of Ocean. With porcelain skin, rosegold hair and aquamarine eyes, sure complete her look. That is the reason she has a ton of fans. But, this easy-going girl is actually a little timid. She could easily make friends but always hid behind a wall with that soft voice before moving an inch. Because of that, Harald loves to make fun of her, and I'm the one who has to stop him before this crybaby flooded the whole university.
However, in this room, I'm not only sharing it only with these two. There also other three people here and they are just normal human girls. Firstly, there is Yulie Nocella, the cheeky one with almond skin, chestnut brown hair and a pair of bronze eyes.Next, Sapphire Anderson, a little sister with medium skin, charcoal tone hair and a pair of hazel eyes.The last one is Lanna Florence. She is the chill and relaxes type among all. She has a neutral skin with chocolate brown hair and a pair of olive eyes. However, two of them actually join as the soldiers' trainee and Harald is their senior. Not only in a study, but also in supremacy ranking. These two is Sapphire and Lanna. Unfortunately, Lanna can't make it through the end due to the medical issue. She left the group in the second year. So, here we are. Start to know each other and become friends. But this friendship, could it last until the end? Even after they know who I really am? I do hope for the best. This is a learning process for me as well.