Dear Diary~
It's currently 1am and my mind is exploding with thoughts. Thoughts that says I was so lonely from the start. Thoughts that says I was fooled by the fake show off kind of love. Thoughts that shouted that I started regretting everything around me, I started regretting my life.
I thought this year's birthday will be similar to any other year when I went to bed last night. But when I woke up everything seemed so similar yet so strange and different. It was as if I could see people for who they really were and now the sugar coated words lost their sweetness and was all a pile of poisonous words hitting me hard on my face.
The world was so different since I woke up. It was like everything around me was in its own dark form and it disgusted me. So just within a night everything and everyone I grew up around came crashing down.
But sure enough I am pretty positive that the dream I had last night is the reason of this mess in my mind. It was so wired. It was weirdly vivid and specific.
In The dream I heard a voice, heavy but still soft calling me,"heyy, Wake up princess, you gonna be late". I opened my eyes slowly to catch a glance of a man looking at me while hovering over me. He was smiling with two dimples on full display. I felt like it was the best view I could ever get when I wake up in the morning. His smile was infectious it made me smile to. But I was confused as hell even in my dreams as to who this random man was. Before I could even think any further, "Heyy, Ahana, come quick breakfast is already done" a boy, short, very cute but also very flirtatious spoke out to me with a soothing voice. "She is turning into a rock day by day" a boy beside him said with a soft voice. He was taller than the other one but had the cutest smile. "She needed to spend less time with him, you know?" another boy said entering the room with the cutest fluffy puppy in the world in his hand. I was in a state of trance due to so many beautiful confusions around me and was sitting on a bed clueless. They all practically carried me to the dining room come kitchen area, where one more men was reading newspaper and greeted me with the brightest smile when I entered the room and across him sat another man almost half asleep and totally unbothered and another man was cooking the break fast and smiled at me handing me a plate of fresh waffles with a bowl of fruit salad. I was more confused then ever. It seemed like they knew me for their whole life but the ridiculous part was that I have never seen any of these men ever in my life. "Where am I? Who are you?" I asked with a shaky voice, my voice echoing moving everyone's attention towards me. They all came near me and all of them hold my hand and the man with the dimples said "You are soon gonna be our's....we will wait till we can meet you make you our's forever and remember the world you live is very fake please stay away from the fake love you are getting until we take you out of it....for now go back..." and that's when I again opened my eyes but just to be disappointed by my parents and the whole house being a mess and people rushing around.
I don't know who they were. I was scared to be with them as they were complete strangers. But oddly enough I was genuinely happy there and I regret being here. But dreams are dreams and they are just silly imagination that can never come to life so it's stupid of me to be sad and regret when I am destined to lead this life.