The realization was very stupid but extremely weird as well. Although it was really idiotic of myself for connecting Haneul to the weird phenomenon. But my stupid brain could not help but twist all the simplest of simple thoughts in something thats conspired.
When I snapped to look at him, I noticed him smiling the brightest and most genuine smile I witnessed ever. But the realization was much more crazy than an eye catching smile. The sun went up. It sounded crazy as hell in my mind but that was the truth at this moment and my eyes was witnessing this crazy truth. The sun that was setting so fast almost making it pitch dark around suddenly was so bright that one might as well mistake it for afternoon if they were not aware of the time.
The confusion was so freaking visible on my face that I might almost be as pale as a ghost. The sun casted a bright golden ray of safety and warmth our way. It was very odd to feel that the warmth and vibe of the sun and the vibe I was reciving was incredibly similar almost like it was all from the same source. I know I was reaching the peak of my stupidity with these thoughts but honestly that is how my heart felt, that is how my brain was working and I was helpless to control them.
"The weather is really refreshing today, right?" I asked Haneul out of the blue, just to maybe see his reaction to this sudden change of the environment.
"Yes, its almost like a soothing spring afternoon" Haneul answered with the same bright smile that never left his face even for a second along with a whole bunch of confidence to almost kill my curiosity and to make me think that this was very natural.
"Yeah, but isn't it very....ummm...odd?" I confronted even after being a little suspicious of my own curiosity.
"What?....absolutely no...and wasn't this what you exactly wanted? Didn't you wanted this same warmth of safety and light of assurance around you before you reached home just a few minutes ago?" Haneul completed his questions with a very calm, soothing but firm voice on which I would dare not deny or argue against him. I will not deny it anyway because he was right. He was so right that it almost scared me.
"How....How do you know?" I asked him, my voice almost being lost in my throat that was dry as desert from the extream amount of fear and confusion piling on my heart.
"BABIA!!!!" a loud call made me jump a little in fear and look towards the other side than Haneul, just to come across my mom standing on the front porch with a lot of anger mixed with a little bit of concerned look.
" What took you so long at the library, that you are returning home after it's already dark? Do you not know that you are strictly not allowed to be alone outside in the winters after the sunsets?-" She kept shouting and scolding me while I kept looking at her but mind just went blank because my mom was right.
Yes in just a blink of an eye it was pitch dark outside like it's almost night or evening maybe from a spring afternoon and the cold breeze made my spine freeze.
" I was not alone, I just met Haneul-" and I was cut short with eyes as wide open as if I saw a ghost, the difference was just that there was no one. When I turned around to introduce Haneul to my mom, it seemed like there was never anyone there in the first place.
"There is no one. Are you imagining people again? I am warning you not to do that. Do you not understand that it's not healthy for your mental health. People will say that you are mentally retarded or something. Now just get in the house " saying so my mom went inside the house still rambling.
I kept my bicycle in the garage in the back of the house while my mind still can not wrap itself around Haneul and the incidents going on around me.
I was about to enter the house when suddenly a kine ray of very faded sunlight shine itself in my eyes, making me squinting my eyes towards the source of the light and it just made me feel safe and warm that I was suddenly missing after hearing from my mom. Yes I don't feel safe with mom even.