"Mind sharing your thoughts?" he asked while playing my hands. Nandito kami ngayon sa kwarto ko, nakahiga.
Wag magisip ng kung ano-ano. Lol.
"About?"
"Kung ano 'man ang nasa isip mo."
"Gusto kitang..."
I smirked.
"Ano?" he looked at me like a puppy.
"Patayin," he glared at me and I just burst into laugh.
His expression was lol! HAHAHA!
"Alam mo nakakainis ka talaga!" I made a face.
"Baka nakakalimutan 'mong may atraso ka pa sakin?!" I rolled my eyes.
"Ano 'yun?" tanong niya.
"You judged us. I am just asking what happened but you said those harsh words." saad ko at tumingin sa ceiling.
"I am sorry. I am just...."
"What?"
"Jealous," pinitik ko ang kaniyang noo ng malakas.
"Gago ka? We're fiancee but I know you don't have any feelings for me." biro ko. But, it hurts.
"Maybe," he answered.
"How about Ams? Bakit di mo siya pakasalan? You... You look... good... together." lalong bumilis ang tibok ng puso ko.
"She's just a special someone for me."
Paulit-ulit na tinutusok ang puso ko. And I don't know why. I can see sincerity from his eyes.
"She must be very special to you," saad ko.
"She is," I looked away. We remained silent hanggang sa nakaramdam na ako ng matinding sakit.
I want to be alone. What the heck is wrong with me?
"Sleep. I'll be right here," I just nodded and turned my back on him.
Mahigpit ang yakap ko sa aking unan at hinayaang tumulo ang mga luha ko.
Why am I hurting like this?
****
Nagising ako sa malalakas na sigawan sa labas. Wala naman na akong kasama dito sa kwarto. Nagshower at nagsipilyo muna ako bago lumabas.
"Goodmorning!" nabigla ako sa mga sigawan nila. Inilibot ko ang aking mga mata.
Sefa, Kuya Maui, Tans, Unra, Jerv and El.
"If you're looking for Kyo, he's in the kitchen." Unra winked at me.
"What the hell are you doing here?!" sigaw ko sa kanila.
"Condo Crash, babe!" Tans even hold the beers and the foods.
Nasapo ko ang aking noo at dumiretso sa kusina. Natigilan ako ng makita ko ang isang babaeng nakangiti habang nakasuot ng apron.
"Kyo, it tastes weird! I told you to balance the sugar and the salt!" they both chuckled.
"Sorry na," he made a face.
"Did you ate the cookies I made?" Ams asked.
"Yea, it's delicious."
"So, I heard you are engaged with Aesther?" she asked again. I remained at the back of the wall.
"Yes."
"How is it? Itutuloy niyo ba?"
"I made a promise to you, right?"
And that made me think. Kung nangako ka sa kaniya, bakit di ka tumutol, Kyo?
Hindi na ako nakinig pa at bumalik sa sala. Kumuha ako ng waffles at gatas na nasa lamesa at tumabi kay kuya.
"Bad mood?" he whispered. I remained silent and continued eating.
"I made a chocolate cake! I want you to taste it and give me your feedback." I secretly rolled my eyes on Ams.
Binigyan niya kami ng tig-iisang slice ng cake. Too sweet, tch. Magkaka-diabetes kami neto e.
"So, how's the cake?" she sat infront of me and asked us.
"I am a fan of chocolates so, I'd say I love it." Sefa said.
"Masarap," I smirked when I heard Tans comment.
Plastic mo, girl! Kapag sinabi n'yan na masarap, mahaba-habang eksplanasyon ang sinasabi. At di matigil ang bunganga n'yan.
"Well, masyadong matamis. Paki-bawas bawasan. Anyway, masarap naman kaso nakakaumay." I hide my tongue inside my cheeks to prevent myself from laughing. Kahit kelan talaga napaka-prangka ng babe 'kong si El.
Na-bars ka dun, girl!
"Masarap, maganda---- kaso nakakaumay!" binatukan ni El si Jerv dahil sa kamanyakan.
That's probably Ams. 'Lol.
"Improve the taste and also, the design to look it more attractive. Well, uh, this cake is kinda--- well,--- Sort of--- Plain and boring," kuya commented.
Plain and boring, huh? Hakdog ka Ams! That's so you.
"Same with kuya Maws" kumunot ang noo ko sa sinabi ni Unra.
"Who the hell is Kuya Maws?" Sefa asked and crossed her arms and legs.
"Maui! Bawal?"
"Sounds weird," I said.
"Kuya Maw Maw na lang!" Unra shouted. Binato naman siya ni kuya ng pillow.
"Ulul," he cursed. We laughed.
We spent the whole day watching movies, food trips and syempre hindi mawawala ang inuman. Pero beer lang. No hard drinks.
"Let's play!" sigaw ni Sefa. Sumang-ayon naman kaming lahat. Mula kanina ay si Jerv lamang ang katabi ko.
Ayoko kay Kyo. Besides, he's with his special fucking someone.
"Truth or Dare," she smirked.
Ipinaikot niya ito at agad namang tumapat kay kuya.
"Truth," sagot ni kuya.
"Does anyone here in my condo, the girl you like?" I asked him.
"Ayii!" sigaw niya at masama akong tinignan. We burst into laugh.
"M-Maybe?" ako naman ang sinamaan siya ng tingin.
"Yes or No, kuya!" pagmamaktol ko.
"Yes," he answered. Agad naman namin siyang sinabunan ng tanong. Namumula at tahimik lamang si Sefa sa tabi ni kuya.
"Argh! One question at a time, dumbass!" inis na sigaw ni kuya.
Kahit kelan, ma-attitude talaga!
Ipinaikot ito ni kuya at saktong kay Jerv tumama.
Whooo! Muntik na ko dun. Thank you sa mahiwagang bote, lol.
"Naka-move on ka na ba kay Ayii?" Tans asked.
"Gago, wala pa akong sinasabi kung truth o dare e," Jerv glared at Tans. Pero ngumisi lamang ito. Inakbayan naman ako ni Jerv at bahagyang ginulo ang buhok ko.
"Malapit na. May bago na akong crush e," he laughed.
"Patay na patay ka talaga saken 'no?" I asked sarcastically. Nagtawanan naman sila except for Kyo. He just remained silent while looking at my ceiling.
Mukhang tanga.
"Oo, bait kase ng bestfriend ko."
"Ulul. Ang sabihin mo, maganda ako." I flipped my hair. Pumalakpak naman si Tans.
"Game na! Humangin na e," I glared at her and throw a pillow. They just laughed at me so I playfully rolled my eyes. Pinaikot ni Jerv ang bote at tumama ito kay El.
"Why are you with your ex that day?" nakaramdam kami ng tensyon kila Unra at El. May diin pa sa tanong ni Unra ngunit ni-isa sa amin ay walang nakaintindi sa kung anong nangyayari.
"Nagkamustahan lang then he asked me if I also want to have closure." El asked. They stared at each other's eyes.
"Closure, my ass. Tch!" he whispered pero dahil sa katahimikan ay narinig din lang namin. Pinaikot ito ni El at sumakto kay Unra.
Uh-oh. I smell something fishy.
"Why are you with that two-faced-bitch child fucking hood of yours?" Napaangat ng tingin si Ams at kunot-noong tinignan si Unra.
"Pearrah?" she asked.
"I'm sorry but I don't like---" El cut Ams off.
"I'm not talking to you so shut the fuck up, Ams!" napalapit tuloy ako kay Jerv dahil sa sigaw ni El.
"She's just my friend, El! Damn it!" napasabunot sa inis si Unra.
"Friend, my ass! Bitch." El said. She didn't bothered to whisper. Sunod naman ay huminto kay Tans.
"Kelan titigil 'yang pechay mo?" I asked her sarcastically.
"Babe, non-stop 'to. Unless, may lalaking magbibigay ng pagmamahal na kailangan and deserve ko." Tans answered.
"E, si Jaque?" Sefa asked.
"He's boring. I don't want that." Tans rolled her eyes.
She meant, boring in bed. Tch! Kadiri talaga 'to.
Sumunod naman ako na tinapatan ng bote.
"Truth," I answered kahit na puro truth na ang nangyari mula kanina.
"Sino sa amin ang gusto 'mong magkatuluyan?" El asked. I sighed and looked at Kyo.
"Kyo and Ams," I answered honestly. Nagkatitigan silang lahat at napatingin sa dalawa. Nanatiling nasa akin ang paningin ni Kyo at nakakunot pa ang noo.
"What the hell?" Ams whispered. Umiwas na ako ng tingin kay Kyo at pinaikot ang bote. Tumapat ito kay Kyo.
"Do you still love Ams?" Sefa asked and looked at me. I just gave her a sweet smile.
"Of course, she's my---" I cut him off.
"Then bakit hindi ka tumutol? You guys must be together fucking forever if you refused on that deal!" I can't help myself but to shout at him.
"I have no choice!" sigaw niya pabalik.
"You have, you didn't just tried." I left them and went to the kitchen. Gumawa na lamang ako ng popcorn at naglabas ng mga beer. Naging masaya ulit kami at pinatulog ko na lamang sila sa unit ko.
****
After 2 weeks, bukas na ang first day of school. I spent the rest of my summer vacation at the gym and studio. Even though I have sched, I went there everyday.
Nagbalik naman na si El mula sa Cebu at andami-dami niyang pasalubong sa amin. I heard Unra went Cebu to talk to El. Hmm. Someone's clingy.
Kinabukasan, maaga akong gumising at nagluto ng breakfast ko. I'm wearing my Archi uniform at pumasok na ng school.
Unang araw ng pasukan, nawala agad ako. Ang lawak ng school at kinailangan ko 'pang mag GPS. Maganda pa rin naman dahil bukod sa madami akong vacant ay maraming gwapo.
HAHA! Ang landi. Nasa 15 na ata ang crush ko! Lols.
"Jerv?!" tanong ko ng makasalubong ko siya sa cafeteria. I'm about to eat lunch now. He's with a girl. She's wearing the uniform of cheerdance.
"Aesther!" Tinignan ako ng kasama niyang babae. She stared at me blankly. I can't read her emotions.
"Andre, she's my bestfriend. Aesther Rosetta Grospe. Ayii, meet Mackiezy Jonel. Andre--- Ayii." pagpapakilala niya. I gave her my sweetest smile but she only gave me a small smile.
"Kumain ka na?" Jerv asked me. Agad akong umiling.
"I was supposed to eat," I answered.
"Uh, so, I'll go ahead." pamamaalam ni Andre at dali-daling umalis.
"Wait, sundan ko lang 'yung crush ko" Jerv said and winked at me. Nakita ko naman sa labas si Andre na nakatingin sa amin. Nang magtama ang paningin namin ay tumakbo ito palayo.
Okay. What was that?
Binigyan kami ng oras para matapos ang plates hanggang next week, monday. I met a girl at the cafeteria. She's also an Archi student. Since wala naman akong kasama and vice versa, we became friends.
Channiel Foy
We have the same vibes. Half serious, pure malandi! Charot. Kaninang vacant kase namin around 3pm to 5pm, we tour the entire campus. Since may class pa naman kami ng 6pm so we decided to tour para naman maging kabisado ang UP.
So ayun 'nga, habang nagiikot kami, parami ng parami ang listahan ng crushes namin. Parehas din kaming matakaw sa pagkain, lol.
Around 8 na ng makarating ako sa unit since matinding traffic na naman ang nangyari. I decided to order some foods na lang kase anong oras na din naman and I need to start doing my plates. Pero since wala akong maisip na idea sa plates ko ay nagopen muna ako sa IG.
kyophilaerius: Nakauwi ka na?
aesthersett: Yea.
kyophilaerius: Did you ate already?
aesthersett: Yea.
kyophilaerius: Ano oras ang klase mo bukas?
aesthersett: From 1 pm to 7 pm.
kyophilaerius: Okay. I'll bring you at our training room tomorrow.
aesthersett: Why won't you bring Ams instead of me?
kyophilaerius: Open your door.
I rolled my eyes kahit na alam 'kong hindi niya naman ito makikita. Inayos ko ang aking buhok at muling naghilamos bago binuksan ang pintuan.
"Hi," he greeted me and handed me a white rose. He's still wearing his outfit in Archery. At the back of him was the bow and the arrow.
"Uso magpalit," biro ko at pinapasok siya sa condo.
"Mamaya na, akala ko kasi tulog ka na so I rushed here." inirapan ko naman siya.
"Kumain ka na?" tanong ko. Umiling naman siya at sumandal sa sofa. Tinignan niya ang mga papel na nagkalat sa sala.
Shit! Di ko pa nalinisan. Huhu.
"Oh, I am sorry! I am doing my plates kasi and I didn't cleaned up yet." I apologized.
"It's okay. Your designs are the best!" papuri niya. I just thanked him and went to the kitchen. Nagluto na lamang ako ng bologna at nagsaing na. Kumuha rin ako ng mga cookies na ginawa ko at kumuha ng gatas.
"Kyo, kain na!" tawag ko. Ibinaba niya naman ang bow at ang arrow sa table at umupo na. He's wearing a black jogger pants and round neck plain white tshirt. Also, a black boots.
"Di ka pumasok?" tanong ko. Iisa lang ang school namin pero di kami nagkita. Di bale, malawak ang UP e.
"I did. 7pm was my last class so I went at the training center. 3 hours ang training ko." paliwanag niya while eating. Umiinom na lamang ako ng gatas tutal kumain na rin naman ako kanina.
"E, bakit di ka pa kumain? Maraming fastfood chains ang nakabukas pa," I want to take back what I said. It's almost midnight! 11:57 pm.
Traffic, I guess. Kaya ngayon lang nakarating.
"I want my wife to cook for me," he gave me a sweet smile.