HINDI maproseso ng utak nya ang mga nalaman. Parang gusto nyang puntahan ulit ang doktor na sinuntok nya at humingi ng tawad sa ginawa nyang pananakit at pananakot dito.
"How did you found about this?" He ask to Vergara who's still sitting infront of him with his laptop.
"I'd check International data base. That's why" sagot nito na hindi tumitingin sa kanya.
"Boo yeah! Gotcha!" Sigaw nito na parang tuwag tuwa sa nakita.
Bahagya syang nagulat sa nalaman.
"International Data Base? Ganon kalawak ang hawak mo?" He ask, curious.
He smiled, still looking at his laptop.
"Yes. Amazing isn't it Schmidt?" Kita nyang siyang siya ito.
Hindi sya umimik kaya't tumingin ito sa kanya.
"Pero mas malawak ang connections mo. Kaya nga kita kinaibigan dati e, alam kong pakikinabangan kita" sabi nito na nakangiti na waring inaasar sya.
"Gago!" Alam nyang nagbibiro lang ito.
"Bakit? Totoo naman ah? You know, the news spread too fast. Pinag aagawan ka ng mga leaders nang iba't ibang bansa. That's more than amazing, Schmidt." Tatawa tawang sabi nito.
Its time for him to smile.
"Yeah." Sagot na lang nya.
He's a Civil Engineer, that's everyone knows. But aside from that, he's also a Electrical Engineer and an Architech.
His company produces not just buildings and resort but also Yatches, Cars and Robots.
But he has a very secret lab that creates Bombs and weapons that he only sells to government.
"You're such a genius." He heard Vergara whispered.
Hindi na lang sya nagsalita at tumingin na lang sa kawalan.
He don't want to talk about his life and what he does. Si Cecelia nga, na kakilala nya simula bata sya ay hindi iyon alam.
Isa iyong sagradong lihim nang kanyang pagkato.
Ito rin ang dahilan kaya gustong gusto ng Lolo nya na kontrolin sya. His Lolo wants connection overseas. And his name can give it to his Lolo.
"I suggest, be ready. You might don't want to hear what i'm going to say next." Seryoso nitong sabi na nagpatigil sa kanyang malalim na pag iisip.
"What is it?" He's nervous. Its Cecelia's what thier talking about.
Napabuntong hininga ito ng ilang beses.
Titingin sa kanya, tapos sa screen nang laptop nito.
Sya naman ang napakunot ang noo.
"Fuck you Vergara! You are making me uncomfortable." Inis sa sabi nya dito.
"Okay, see for yourself." Pinaikot nito ang laptop paharap sa kanya.
And then see her picture.
She's breathtaking beautiful.
And she's happy ..
"Who the fuck is that ..?" Galit na tanong nya sa kaharap.
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"Help me, daddy" napabalikwas sya ng bangon.
Another nightmare, again.
Its been one year he's suffering from those nightmares and inflict of sleeping.
In his dream, someone is calling him daddy, asking for help. And he knows, its his and cecelia's baby.
He get up from bed. Hindi naman na sya makakatulog. Naglakad sya papunta sa study table nya at binuksan ang laptop. He's wearing nothing but a piece of cloth that can cover his friend down there.
While waiting for his laptop to open. He open some wine, at tinungga iyon.
He's been a drunkard bastard. Yeah, he's really a bastard. Napapikit sya ng mariin. The pain is still there. The guilt. The blame. All of it is in his heart and soul.
Umupo sya sa tapat ng laptop nya, inilapag ang wine na hawak.
"Who the fuck is this kid Cecelia?" He ask to himself, whispering.
Shock in an understatement to what he feels when he saw the picture of the woman she miss, looking so happy with a kid.
Andaming tanong ang naglalaro sa isip nya. Pero malinaw pa sa isip nya ang sinabi ng doktor na nakausap nya year ago. Nakunan si Cecelia. He heard it. Loud and clear.
But who the fuck is this kid?
He's mad, no, he's livid.
Nag asawa ba ito? Nagkaanak?
Fuck! Damn! Shit!
Hindi sya mapalagay. He badly wants to talk to her!
Sinabunutan nya ang sarili. For some people its gonna be painful pero bakit di nya maramdaman ang sakit? Dahil ba sa mas masakit ang ibinigay ni Cecelia sa kanya? How can she be happy ,unknowingly I'm here, hurting.
Napakuyom ang kamao nya. He is selfish. Sa kanya lang si Cecelia. He can move mountains just to have her.
Inilabas nya ang cellphone. Nakailang ring pa iyon bago sinagot ng taong makakatulong sa kanya.
"Fuck you Schmidt! Its fucking dawn you motherfucker! You shit of piece of asshole!" Walang tigil ito sa pagmumura. Just like before. Wala pa din itong pinagbago. He smiled with his thought. Bahagya pa nyang inilayo ang cellphone sa tainga dahil hindi parin ito tumitigil.
"Chill, Mañego. I need your help" he said.
Narinig nyang parang may tunog nang nabasag sa kabilang linya.
"Oh holy mother fucker of god! The great John Jacob Schmidt needs me!" Hindi makapaniwala ang boses nito
Natatawa sya sa nagiging reaksyon nito.
"Just this once Mañego." He said.
"Okay. Okay. What is it?"
"I need a plane. And i can't use mine."
"Why? What happened to your plane?" Tanong nito. Halatang curious.
"None of your business. Ano are you in or out. Think of a good answer." He said.
Ayaw nyang gamitin ang private plane nya dahil malalaman nang lolo nya. His lolo has been eyeing him. Alam nya, may masama itong binabalak kaya hinahanap nito si Cecelia. Of course, his lolo wants to use Cecelia to control him. And he won't let that happen. Ayaw nyang madamay si Cecelia sa gulo ng buhay na mayroon sya, but also he can't just let go of her.
"- Just fucking ping me when and where" sabi ng kausap nya.
"Pardon?" He ask, hindi kasi nya naintindihan ang sinabi nito.
"Fuck you! Sabi na eh, di ka nakikinig." Alam nyang galit na ang nasa kabilang linya.
Hindi talaga mahahaba ang pasensya ng mga kaibigan nya. Mana sa kanya.
"Later, 10 am. Croatia." Maikli nyang sagot.
Ilang minuto itong natahimik.
"Shit! Europe? Anong gagawin natin don?" Tanong nito.
"Cecelia is there."
"Oh. Buti nahanap mo na. Cody and Nico report to us."
"Of fuck you all!" Inis na sabi nya.
"I will call the Humpy-Dumpies. Bye."
Humpy-Dumpies is the name of thier group. They are 15 in the group including Cody, Nico and Vergara.
Napabuntong hininga na lang sya.
Knowing that he will be with those weirdos, in one plane, parang ayaw na lang nyang tumuloy.
But when she thinks of Cecelia, Fuck! I really need to see her.
I miss you like crazy. Literally crazy. He whisper.