Croatia is one of the most famous and known European countries for summer vacation.
Violent in Croatia is very rare, and overall crime levels are quite low.
It is a peaceful place to stay. And when she decided to leave everyone behind, ito agad ang unang pumasok sa isip nya.
"Ammy, ammy" a very cute toddler get his attention.
Gising na pala ito. They are in the carpeted floor. Nakatulog kasi ito at inihiga muna nya ito sa tabi nya para mabantayan.
Ang mga daliri nito ay nakasalpak na sa bibig nito.
"Aw, you're hungry my cute little warrior?" She said. Kiniliti nya ang baba na naging sanhi nang pag ngiti nito.
She smiled when the baby smiled at him.
"Ammy will get your milk little one." She baby talk. Then she carefully guided the bottle of milk to the mouth of the cute little boy.
Tahimik itong nag dede sa tabi nya.
She's looking at her baby with softness and happiness.
She thought no one can make her happy, but then HE came.
Juan Julio is his little warrior. Her baby not only fought for his life but also to her life.
Its her life. He gave her a new life. Life filled with joy and happiness.
Her baby taught her to be contented and move on from her painful past.
But everyday she ask herself, did she really move on from the past?
Napailing sya. No, i haven't. Not that she tried, but she really can't.
Mahal parin nya ito.
Ngayon lang nya nalaman na even if you're hurt, or in pain, or mad, the love will stay.
But its exactly 1 year and 8 months. Still, she's stuck of that past.
The pain is still there.
Through the year had passed, she realized that what happened to her in the past will definitely affect her future.
"Do not leave your past unresolve or hanging, or it will hunt you forever."
- shelfmaker
Napapikit sya. Gusto na nyang umuwi, but she's scared.
She's scared not just only for herself, but for her baby.
She don't want him neglected and feel incomplete.
She don't want his baby experience the hell she's been through.
Mabilis nyang pinahid ang mga luhang kumawala. Its been one year, and the tears, not deminish.
Pwede ka pa lang maging masaya na may pait at sakit ka paring nararamdaman.
Genuine happiness came from his little warrior, but the pain is given by his father.
She smiled bitterly.
Totoo nga ang kasabihan, Can forgive, but never forgets.
She never forgive anyone, and never forgets everything.
From all the rejection, shame, guilt, pain, tears, and many more.
Gusto na nyang patawarin ang mga taong may gawa sa kanya nang sakit.
But how?
When will she start?
Where will she start?
"Oy madam, senti ka na naman dyan" agaw atensyon ng katulong nya sa bahay.
Her name is Chinggay, nakuha nya ito sa isang agency. They click because she's really fun and trusty.
"Tse! What did you buy?" She ask. Standing up, may pag iingat nya dinf binuhat ang bata.
"I buy shrimp, i plan to cook Buzara" Chinggay simply said.
"Wow. You can cook that?" Amaze nyang tanong. "You know how?" She added.
Chinggay look at her flatly.
"Its not the first time i cook these meal madam. Wag kang OA maka react dyan" pagsusungit nito.
She just laugh a little. Nagtataray na naman ito. Sanay na naman sya.
"Hello baby Juan." Chinggay baby talk Julio before going to the kitchen to prepare their food.
Sinundan naman nya ito.
Inilabas nito ang mga ingredients.
Eksperto itong naghiwa nang mga sangkap.
Para itong may sariling mundo sa kusina nya.
Then she wonders, for a maid, masyado itong maganda, she also move gracefully. Matalino din ito. Lalo na pagdating sa kusina. She speaks well in english.
"-Madam, sabi na eh! You're not listening!" Nakita nya ang matatalim na titig nito sa kanya. Natawa naman sya.
"What?" She ask innocently.
"I said, is it okay if Juan can have a taste?" She ask.
Nag alangan ako.
"Uhm, I did not ask his pedia if okay na eh, pass muna si Juan, ako na lang muna" then i smiled at her.
She smiled at me. Kumuha ng kutsarita at inilapit yun sa akin
"Come on, have a taste madam"
Agad ko naman itong tinikman
"Wow chinggay! Its really delicious!" I said. Totoo, masarap talaga.
"What did you do that? Bakit naging ganyan kasarap yan?" I ask teasing her.
Tumalikod sya sa akin at bumalik sa pagluluto, nilaro laro ko naman si Baby.
"Kanina ko pa ini explain sayo madam! Kaya lang mukhang nasa planetang pluto ka na naman!" Mataray na pagkakasabi nito.
They having conversation, when the doorbell rang.
Nagkatinginan sila ni Chinggay.
"Are you expecting a visitor?" She ask.
"Did you invite someone?" Chinggay ask.
Halos sabay kami sa pagtatanong.
Parehas din kaming umiling.
"Wait, I'll open the door." Nilagay nya si baby Juan sa high chair na nakahanda na sa lamesa.
"Wait a minute!" Sigaw nya.
She fix Juan to the high chair, and when she look satisfied tsaka lang sya nagpunta para buksan ang pinto
Hindi parin tumitigil sa pag iingay ang doorbell. Looks like hindi makapag hintay at makaintindi ang nasa likod ng pinto.
And she's pissed. Baka maingayan si Juan at umiyak.
"Who are you .." she ask while opening the door.
Nanlaki ang mata nya sa nakita.
Hindi sya makagalaw. Natulos sya sa kanyang pag kakatayo.
At the same time nakunot ang noo nya.
Then her eyes settled to one person.
Nakatingin din ito sa kanya. With the same intensity and fire.
She can see the madness of his eyes
At sya pa ang may ganang magalit ngayon.
Magsasalita na sana sya when she thinks about Juan!
Shit! My baby!
Agad nyang naisara ang pinto at mabilis na nailock ito.
Para syang hinahabol sa lakas ng kabog ng dibdib nya. Hinihingal din syang napasandal sa likod ng pinto.
Napapikit sya. She's thinking of what gonna do next.
Taranta syang pumunta nang kusina at binuhat ang bata.
"Madam, anong nangyari? Sino yun? Bakit parang takot na takot ka?" Tanong ni Chinggay.
"We need to leave." Mahinang sabi ko.
Kita nya ang kaguluhan sa mukha nito. Even Juan is looking to her.
"Wait, aayusin ko lang mga gamit ni baby Juan, we can't leave without his things" pabulong ding sagot ni Chinggay.
And when she look at her, ngumiti ito na parang nakakaintindi.
Naging mabilis ang kilos nito. Samantalang sya ay nagmamadaling kinuha ang mga importanteng gamit at papeles nilang mag ina.
Pinagpasalamat nya ang hindi pag iyak ng anak.
The door is quiet. But deep in her heart she's waiting to what his gonna do next.
Then she remember his eyes. Its pure of madness, sandess, guilt and pain
Was that true or namalikmata lang sya.
She's confused to what's happening.
"Okay na. Let's go to the backdoor." Chinggay said.
Kinakabahan syang tumango.
Nauna na sya. Thankfully she have baby carrier so naging magaan ang pagkarga nya kay baby Juan.
She was about to open the door,
"Where the fuck do you think you're going Cecelia?" He ask, dangerously.
He's looking at her intently.
Then lumipat ang tingin nito sa bata na ngayon ay hawak nya ang tainga.
Tinablahan nya ang masamang titig nito sa kanya.
"I forbid cussing in my house." Matigas nyang sabi.
Then she saw how his eyes soften while looking at Juan. He was about to touch him, pero umatras sya.
Tumigas ang anyo nito.
Humigpit ang hawak nya sa carrier nang anak nya.
Silence.
Then when she was about to say something when someone of his back spoke
"Ah-mm sorry to interrupt you guys, but i really need to pee." Lumas ito mula sa likod ng lalaki.
Nanlaki lalo ang mata nya.
"W-what a-are y-you d-doing h-here?" She ask, stummering.
"Hi Cecelia." Bati nito.
What the fudge! He knows her!
She saw that Fredie wink at her. She blush.
Gosh, Fredie Ocampo is her idol in car racing!
"Wink at her again, and I'll tell you Ocampo, i willl punch the hell out of you" napatingin sya dito.
Napayuko sya. Hindi nya kayang sabayan ang klase nang titig nito.
"Uhaaaaaaa" Her baby cries.
Parang iyon ang naging mitsa dahil isa isang nag labasan ang mga matipuno at nag ga gwapuhang lalaki.
No one can shock her by now, ngayon lang.
Kilala nya ang mga ito!
"What the!" Yun na lang ang nasabi nya.
"Hi, Cecelia" they said in unison.
She thinks she's gonna faint. Buti na lang ay hawak nya ang baby nya.