NAPATINGIN ako sa naging bisita ko. Its sunday. Walang pasok sa opisina.
"O cody napadalaw ka?" I ask. Hindi naman kagulat gulat na dumalaw sya but usually kasi kasama nya si John at Nico. Pero ngayon iba, he's alone.
"Oh sorry, my bad. Can i offer you anything? Water, Juice or Coffee?" Alok ko.
There's something wrong with him these past days. I can tell. He looked bothered.
Ilang minuto pa syang tumitig sa akin bago ngumiti. Nakahinga naman ako ng maluwag.
"Water will do" sagot nya
"Okay. Upo ka muna."
Naghanda ako ng tubig at cookies.
"So what brought you here?" Straightforward kong tanong.
Since i decided to move on from the pain that I've been through, I am limiting being near to those person na malapit kay John.
"Ouch Cece ah, di ka naman ganyan dati" he act like he's in pain. Nakahawak pa sa dibdib.
I smiled to him.
"So anong maipaglilingkod ko sa'yo?"
Naging seryoso ang mukha nito at tumitig sa akin.
May iba sa titig nya ngayon. I don't know but i can tell.
"Cody .. is there something wrong?" I ask again.
Huminga sya ng malalim.
"I want to tell you something." He said, seriously.
Napakunot ang noo ko.
"If its something to do with John, I'll pass Cody." Sabi ko na agad.
Umiling sya.
"No, it has nothing to do with him. Its me."
I look at him, Puzzle.
"What do you mean?"
"I like you." Mabilis nyan saad.
Napatingin ako sa kanya. Walang bakas ng pagbibiro.
I don't know what to say.
"C-cody .."
"No, mali pala. I love you. Matagal na."
"Cody. I- I'm sorry." Nasabi ko na lang. I feel like I'm crying. Nasasaktan ako para sa kanya. Because i can't give back the feelings he has with me. Napayuko ako.
"Sinasabi ko lang. Kaso hirap na hirap akong itago. I've been loving you since i can't remember." He continue.
"I like you too. I really do. But as a friend. A brother. I'm so sorry cody" at last, nasabi ko ang nasa loob ko.
Ayaw ko syang paasahin. Ayaw kong magsalita ng mga bagay na aasa sya pero hindi ko naman masusuklian.
"You deserve better. Better than me Cody."
"But there's no better than you." He said, painfully. His eyes is full of sadness and rejection. Fuck! I know that feeling! I've been there! Alam ko kung gaano ka miserable ang pakiramdam na iyon.
Lumuhod ako sa harap nya. I touch his face. We're both crying.
"Cody, meron. You need to look around you." I wipe his tears. Nakatingin lang kami sa isa't isa. "Don't feel that i rejected you because honestly I'm not. I am explaining to you that you've been a very good friend to me." I continue.
He touch my face. I can't feel anything. Just a normal touch from a friend.
He wipes my tears.
"Don't cry." He said. "I don't want to see you crying because of me" he look away.
"I am crying because i can't give you back the feelings you have with me." I know i am crying hard infront of him. I am being vulnurable. But i don't care.
"Iniisip ko, sana ikaw na lang." I whisper. "But i know i can't fool my feelings. Its only beat with him" napayuko ako. Hanggang ngayon, sya padin. Kahit sinaktan nya ako, my heart only sees him.
"I know. I know. And its okay" He said.
Pinatingin nya ako sa kanya. And then again, he wipes my tears.
"Hanggang ngayon, kahit ako ang kaharap mo .. sya pa din ang iniiyakan mo"
Napayakap ako sa kanya. Nang mahigpit. Like my life depend on it. Humagulhol ako sa balikat nya.
"Ang sakit. Sobrang sakit cody." Alam ko para akong bata kung umiyak ngayon.
He didn't say anything. He let me cry to his shoulder.
"Hush, everything will be okay" Alo nya.
But i know, its not that easy.
"I .. i- " hindi ko matuloy tuloy ang sasabihin ko.
Tatayo na sana ako when everything turns black.
"ANONG nangyari! Anong ginawa mo sa kanya!?" Galit na sigaw ko kay cody. "I want to punch you." Dugtong nya. Nanginginig ang mga kamaong nakatingin sa kaibigan.
Cody called him. Cecelia is in the hospital. She passed out after talking to cody.
"Walang akong ginawa pre. We just talk. She's crying hard then after that, she passed out. Kinabahan ako kaya dinala ko kaagad sya dito sa hospital" He explained. Nakayuko ito. He looks so nervous.
"She cried?" He ask.
"Yes. Hard." Then cody looked at him.
At alam nya. Sya na naman ang dahilan.
"Did you already told her?" Kinakabahan nyang tanong.
Napatitig ito sa kanya. Then cody smirk at him.
"Why scared?" Nang uuyam ang boses nito.
"Just answer me dickhead!" Naiinis na ako.
"Yeah. I told her. But she said she like me as a friend, a brother. Na ikaw ang mahal nya. You lucky motherfucker!"
Hindi nya alam pero napangiti sya.
"Stop smiling." But he can't stop smiling. Parang nawala ang kaba nya dahil sa sinabi ng kaibigan nya.
Sasagot na sana sya,
"Who's the guardian of the patient?" Tanong ng doktor na lumabas sa kwarto kung saan pinasok si Cecelia.
"I'm John Jacod Schmidt. I'm with her" yun na lang ang nasabi nya. Alangan naman sabihin nyang Ex sya diba?
"Okay. So are you the father?" She ask. Nakatalikod na ito. "Follow me, Mr. Schmidt. I want to talk to you alone with my office." Sabi nito.
Nagkatinginan sila ni Cody. He's also confused as fuck!
Him .. father .. fuck!
Wala sa sariling sinundan nya ang doktor.
"Sit down, Mr. Schmidt." Umupo naman agad sya.
"Doc, is .. she ... Oh my god" hindi nya matuloy ang sasabihin.
Naging seryoso ang Doktor.
"I want to be honest with you as her doctor." Then the doctor look at him seriously. He's confused. Nervous. Ang lakas ng kabog ng dibdib nya.
"As far as i can see, she did not tell you"
Sabi nito.
Napakunot ang noo nya.
"Tell me what Doc?" He ask.
Parang nag aalangan pa ito. The Doctor sigh.
"Its not my story to tell. But as her doctor, i need to tell you that her life will be in danger if she can't take the operation"
"O-operation? Bakit doc, may sakit ba sya?" Fucking fuck! Mas lalo syang kinabahan.
"No. She had a miscarriage a month ago. I was about to remove the excess blood that cast off, but sadly, she refuse. Ngayon delikado na. Baka ma infection sya" Paliwanag nito.
Para naman syang pinagbagsakan ng langit at lupa.
"S-he had a m-miscarriage?" Di nya makapaniwalang tanong.
"Yes. I can't forget her because its raining that time. She's crying hard." Kwento nito.
Napapikit sya. Gusto nyang umiyak.
"What is the cause of her miscarriage doc?" He ask. Para isang bagsakan na lang. Gusto na nyang malaman. Because he knew for sure, Cecelia won't tell a word.
"I don't know. I tried to ask her. But she did not speak a word. Pero sa mga ganito kasing cases, posibling may nangyari sa kanya na nakapag pababa ng cervix nya na nag cause ng pag ka laglag ng bata." Paliwanag nito.
Hindi sya makapag salita. He can't process everything. May anak sila ni Cecelia! Nalaglag ang bata!
"Kumusta sya these past few days Mr. Schmidt? Any sign of fever?"
Umiling sya. Unsure to what to answer.
"She needs someone with her. Lalo na ngayon. I think, she's facing depression right now because of what happened. Please, convince her to take the operation as soon as possible"
Lumabas sya na wala sa sarili. So that's the reason of her pain. Sobrang bigat pala talaga ng pinagdadaanan ng dating kasintahan.
Galit sya. Galit na galit sya sarili nya. He wants to punch himself for being a jerk, bastard and worthless.
Tears are falling to his eyes.
Bumalik lahat.
The rainy night,
The proposal,
Then he rejected her.
He needs to talk to Cecelia. Gusto nyang malinawan.
Nagmamadali syang bumalik sa kwarto kung nasaan ito.
But to his surprise, malinis ang kama at nakatupi na ang hospital gown na ginamit ng babae sa ibabaw.
Nagmamadali syang nagpunta sa front desk
"Miss, nasan na yung pansyente sa Room 21?" He ask, panicking.
"Sir, nag check out na po. About 20 mins ago."
"Fuck!"
Nagmamadali syang pumunta sa exit. 20 mins ago? Malamang nandito pa sya.
Hinanap nya ito sa ospital pero di nya nakita. He also go to the cafeteria, but she's nowhere to be found.
"Pre, what happened?" Tanong ni Cody, he's holding a cup of coffee.
"Cecelia is missing. Fuck!" Frustrations is visible to him.
"What?" Gulat na tanong nito.
"I need to talk to her pare. I need to see her. Help me" he beg.
Hindi na nya alam ang mararamdaman. He's mad.
Actually he's livid.
He's in pain.
Nawalan sya ng anak.
Pati ata ang babaeng mahal, mawawala din.
And he won't let that happen.
Not a chance.
A/N: Nais kong magpasalamat sa inyo, mga mambabasa ko sa patuloy na paghihintay at suporta. I've been very busy these past few days. So sana patuloy kayong maghintay.
Hope you enjoy 🖤