I wake up
I feeling this warmth on my chest
She is laying there so peaceful
And I can't help but hold her closer
Maybe this is what actual love is
Or I'm going to fade finding what it is
My phone buzzes
I answer and it's my mum letting me know that our food is ready
I look at the time and see it's only 9 am
I kiss her forehead and she flutters her eyes
I wonder were she has gone off too
And if her dream land is as beautiful as she looks right now
I tell her it's time to eat
"Mmmm food" slips from her mouth
I give her
sweat that are still on the floor where I took them down
It's like I was dreaming
Her wetness her warmth
Her whole body against mine
I can't help but feel tingly
She walks down stairs as fine as can be
And I'm star struck by her movement
The rest of the day is pretty chill
We drive to her house to pick up her car
Come back to my house
We go to school she keeps leaning into me
She is super cute in her cheerleader outfit
And I'm staring at this angel of mine
With her brown eyes and her brown hair
Falling so gracefully in her face when she laughs
Her breath smells like mint
And her lips taste like cherries
I think I'm falling by the time her birthday comes
As planed the cake is ready
And me and my mum even buy her present
This week was like walking on clouds
And although we didn't sleep with each other again
I was glad to feel her next to me
To feel her comforting breathing
Her sweet kisses in the morning
I'm going to miss this when she has to go
I'm gonna miss her smell
That has now left an impact on my bedroom
How did I ever go so long with out living
With someone as sweet as honey
And so unbelievably gorgeous
I couldn't help but hold her closer when she had her bags in her car
Her mum has called her 5 times
And finally she lets me go
"I'll see you tomorrow,
MOVIES!" She shouts as she is answering her phone
And just like that she is in her car going back home
I walk inside
My mother is staring at me
"Still just friends or has a girl finally cracked the code to your heart"
She smiles big and goofy
I'm feeling to much right now that I was afraid of feeling
My phone buzzes
And part of me is hoping
It's her texts
But it's not
It's Cheryl
A girl from home
And Dav
There coming to visit
I have decided not to tell my mother
Because these two shits maybe my friends
But we have done a lot of fucked up shit together
And the love I use to write about was used to get
A girl to fall in love with me
And yeah I feel for her
But I was a complete sick to her around my friends
I made her feel worthless
I did all this
Just to find her lying on her floor
She took her life that night
And didn't even say nothing but
She wasn't good enough for this world
And just like that
I can't let this happen to my
Star. I could never damage her like this.
So I don't tell her either.