Then...
"You want to get a quick bite", Karen asks me as we walk back to our place. "I don't even think I can eat anything after that filling lecture", I tell her.
"I know right. That was a really good one I'd have to admit. But still, a girls gotta eat", she responds.
As we're walking by, a guy passes us and winks at me. "Damn! Now that's a snack I don't mind getting a bite of", Karen exclaims. I laugh and tell her, you could take a bite out of every guy on campus, and still won't get full".
"Maybe. But I'd definitely get full on that guy. Anyways, when are you and Kurt going to stop checking each other out, and start digging out each other", Karen says.
"Never! I have my J waiting for me", I tell her. You seriously can't be considering that two years junk. How do you even know if J isn't deep inside some girl you've never even met. Plus how's that first year even going for you mmmh", Karen asks me.
"I trust J okay. So I'm not about to spoil his trust by not keeping to this two years. And it's not all that bad", I tell Karen. "Sure, but you do know there's something called being thirsty. And you've really been thirsty lately", Karen tells me. "Psh no", I respond back. "I've seen you act different every time Kurt is in the same room as you.
Sweating, knees knocking and biting your lip are just the few side effects of your obvious Kurt love sickness", Karen points out.
"You don't even have to date. Just let him hit it a couple of times and you're good to go", Karen encourages me.
"No! I can't do that. I won't", I tell her. "Well when hormones kick in, they boot you into something you thought wouldn't happen. Plus that kick might get worse when you and Kurt are having your little tutoring session tonight", Karen tells me.
"I'm capable of controlling myself okay. And it's just one tutoring session, so I should be fine", I tell her.
"You mean dick appointment", Karen exclaims. I push her to the side and exclaim, "No it's not. So get out of here".
Later...
So I lied about it not being a dick appointment.
Kurt and I were at his place making out on his sofa. By every second, things were escalating to immeasurable heights. My mind kept telling me no, but the flesh was crying out for more.
It only got worse once Kurt started kissing me down my stomach.
"What J didn't know wouldn't hurt him right", I thought to myself. "I mean his probably doing the same thing with some other girl. I have needs too", I kept convincing myself.
Kurt moved up and started kissing behind my ear. He started to nibble the ear lobe, which drove me crazy. I could feel his hand slowly slip down my pants, sending chills downstairs.
But in that moment of bliss, in those few minutes of pleasure running around my entire body, something happened. Reality hit me. And when reality hits you, it hits you with all it's got.
"No this is wrong", I exclaimed while pushing Kurt off me. Kurt with passion still in his eyes asked me, "what's wrong A, am I moving too fast".
He started to kiss me and say, "I can slow it down".
I pushed Kurt again and told him, "no it's not that. It's just. There's someone else in the picture. Matter of fact, I've forgotten about that picture lately. I just don't want to do something I'll soon regret".
By the look on Kurt's face I could tell he was irritated as he moved back away from me.
"Oh so it's like that. I think you should go now", Kurt tells me in a strong voice.
After that whole experience, Kurt and I's relationship afterwards got real rocky. So for the rest of the time I opted to ghost him till the end of university.
Now...
J walked into the apartment and by his facial expression I could tell something heavy had happened during his visit.
"You okay J", I asked him. J sat down and exhaled heavily. "Life gave me a serious reality smack", he replies. I walk up to J and start rubbing his head. "My poor baby. Are you okay", I ask him.
"Probably. But I'm not looking forward at what I have to do next", he exclaims. "And what's that", I ask him.
Suddenly my phone starts ringing.
I answer it and it's my boss on the phone. "I need you to come into the office, I've got some good news", he says.
"Okay I'll be there", I tell him. I cut the call and grab my bag hanging off the chair.
"Work tings", J exclaims. "Unfortunately. But it's thankfully good news this time", I tell him. "This new promotion comes with a lot of calls into the office lately", J says to me.
"Perks of the job baby", I reply. I kiss J on the forehead and tell him, "we'll continue this conversation when I get back okay. I love you".
"Looking forward to it", J exclaims.
I head out after that.
When I finally get to the work place, I hear my boss laughing it up with someone in his office. I knocked on his door, and my boss tells me, "come in".
As I walked into the office my heart was completely astonished at who was in the room with my boss.
"April, I'd like you to meet Kurt", my boss exclaimed. "We've met before. We went to the same law school together", Kurt said with a smile.
I'd actually forgotten how good looking Kurt was. I'd ghosted him so well that he became the ghost of my past.
Kurt stood a tall proud black man. He was muscular in almost every place. His eyes were as black as two nights living in them. He had a smile that could steal your heart with just a smirk, and his voice was strong and bold. You could literally feel the pure man in every word that he spoke with such depth and power.
His jawline was something you'd honestly kill for, and how Kurt presented himself was in a calm but demanding form. I remembered him being fine, but not this fine.
"Well this just makes everything a whole lot easier for us", my boss exclaimed. "Makes what easier", I asked him.
"Well with you taking up Ashleigh's position, we needed someone to fill your old one. So you and Kurt are going to be working together from now on", my boss told me.
Kurt walked up to me and shook my hand. "I guess we're going to have a fun time working together like we did back then in law school A", he said to me.
Afterwards he gave me a cute familiar wink.
In that moment I asked myself, "is it wrong that my ovaries are jumping like crazy right now".