To better understand where April's and I marriage was standing in the past few weeks, you'd only needed to picture it on a pile of rocks.
Troubled; or difficult; in danger or distress, which is the dictionary definition of Rocky.
April and I weren't really talking that much after that night. And when we were talking, it was mostly small talk about each other's day and all that generic stuff.
Generic at best, a friend would say to me.
Till this day I couldn't figure out what exactly triggered this change of character in April. But my suspicions led me to believe that Kurt was involved in this somehow. Of late April stopped having late nights at work, and I can tell it was a way of her avoiding an further interaction with Kurt.
I honestly felt like putting all the blame on him, but a part of me also knew I shared a part in that blame. I really wanted to try and sort out things between April and I. I even considered signing us up for couple's counselling, but I had my own issue picking at me lately.
And that's issues name was Trevor.
Him and I haven't seen much of each other lately, which has never been that much of a problem before. But things are different right now.
I got a call late afternoon from him and he told me, I need to see you urgently". I knew from the get go what this conversation was going to be about, but I wasn't prepared enough to face Trevor face to face about the matter.
I got to his place around half past six in the evening, and I found sitting on his couch looking anxious as ever.
"T", I said as I walked up to him. "You gave your word J. You promised me that this app was going to work out in the long run. But as you can see, shit ain't been going so well for us", Trevor exclaimed.
"I know Trevor, but I just need you to be a little patient", I tried to tell him. "A little patient", Trevor yelled at me, "I've been a lot patient J. And really that patience has gotten me nowhere".
"I knew we should have taken that cheque when we had the chance", Trevor exclaimed as he got up in a fit. He walked off to the other side of the room, giving me his back.
"I'm at my end J! My parents have completely abandoned me. My rent is due, and I really don't have any backup plan here J", Trevor told me as soon as he faced me. "I know T", I tell him.
Trevor walks up to me stamping his feet and asks me, "really, do you really know what's really going on here".
"If you've only noticed right now that I'm the only one in the crew who doesn't have something to fall back onto just in case this whole app stuff blows over. And unlike you and Davey, I don't have a loving spouse that can help out with funds towards my struggles", Trevor said all of this to me.
I looked at him with sorrow pouring out of my eyes. "I really don't know what I can say to you T to convince you that everything will be okay. I don't even know how to convince myself too, but I'm out here trying to take it one day at a time and maybe you could do that too", I tell Trevor.
But that just seemed to really irk him as he walked off again. Trevor turns around again and says to me, "and after I take it one day at a time and one day I end up evicted and out on the street. Will you be there for, cause I really doubt it".
"I've always been there for you from the very beginning", I respond in a very sharp tone. "Well of late you've been slacking", Trevor says to me. "I've been going through my own struggles T", I tell him.
"Oh sure, everything is all about Jahmal. Oh look at me, the poor bastard child who's stepmom hates his black skin and his stepbrother hates his black ass.
Oh and of course I resent my dearest father, yet he's always been trying his art most best to take care of me. But no wait, I clearly couldn't see the obvious fact because I was to busy asking people to invest into my little pity party.
Hey everyone look me, the poor black kid in a rich white man's world", Trevor said all of this in a sarcastic tone and shaking his hands in front of my face.
I breathed out a hot breath of air out of my nostrils. "I get that you're angry T, but that doesn't excuse you from being a complete asshole", I tell him with a serious look.
Trevor looks me straight in the eye, and says, "I've clearly picked up on your asshole traits from your white ass family".
I pushed Trevor and told him, "get out of my face. I wouldn't want your mommy and daddy wondering why their little baby's face is going through an ugly remodeling", I tell Trevor.
Trevor wipes his chin and chuckles. Suddenly he connects me with a right sucker punch. I stumble back a few steps and lick the blood off my lip.
I returned the favour and went for Trevor's gut. Before you knew it, we had broken up into a full out fight in his apartment.
After a few shuffles and punches, Trevor was on the ground while I was on top of him, ready to finish him off.
"Do it", Trevor exclaimed.
I held back my fist ready to attack. But I soon came to my senses and moved off Trevor and sat by the kitchen counter, resting my heard on it's side.
Trevor got up and looked at me. We both started to stare each other down, and we suddenly started laughing.
After our laughs Trevor opened up by saying, "you never really were the fighting person. So I'm a bit surprised that you managed to get one over me".
"I guess today's my lucky day", I tell him soon after I spit out some blood towards the floor. "Come on man, I just mopped there", Trevor cries out to me.
I look at him and smile.
"I'm sorry T. I've really put you in a tight position with all that has happened", I tell him. Trevor lifts up his hand and responds with, "no J. It's not entirely your fault, it was also my own choice to stick with you from the moment I quit my job".
"But why would you even do that. I never really asked you to", I ask Trevor. "Because as much as I stuck with you, you've stuck with me longer than that", he tells me.
"True", I respond. I start to rub my head and exclaim, "I just guess things have gotten really messy these days for the both of us. This was probably us taking out all of that stress and anger on each other".
Trevor laughs and says, "hey it happens. But like you always say, deal with it". We both start to laugh again. I look at my phone and notice the amount of time that has gone by during our little scuffle.
I get up and tell Trevor, "I need to go now. Uhm sorry about the slight mess I made in your place".
"Don't stress man. It's nothing really considering all we've been through", Trevor tells me.
"And we've been through a lot buddy", I tell Trevor with a smile. "True", he responds.
As I head for the door I tell Trevor, "but hey, nothing can really surprise us anymore in this friendship of ours".
Trevor just awkwardly smiles.
I get to the door and put my hand on the handle. But before I can head out Trevor catches my attention by calling me.
"Yeah", I say while looking at him.
Trevor looks at me with a serious look and says to me, "I'm gay Jahmal".
I look at Trevor and in a soft voice respond with, "I know".
Afterwards I walk out.