Selena's POV
" Y-you know w-what, y-you don't wuv anyone, j-just go away, g-go fwom m-my life, go a-away and DIE" He screamed at me.
I looked at him and my heart dropped.
Like I really think I felt my heart drop to my feet.
Did he really mean it?
Did he really want me to go away from his life and die?
I was just messing with him. I wanted to go back to when I was annoying him when we first met but I guess it didn't work.
His mind didn't process which I should've realised.
But to wish I would die.
I know that sometimes autism can make you become extreme but it didn't make it hurt any less.
"I-I" I tried to speak but I couldn't.
His eyes were red and puffy. His cheek was pale as he hasn't eaten in a while.
Like where the bloody hell is the chicken soup?
I felt like someone ripped my heart from my chest.
I looked at Jace and saw his eyes were closed. "My head is hurting" I heard him whispered and I blinked snapping out of my selfishness realising that he had passed out not even a full day ago.
My heart is hurting.
"Jace, Selena come downstairs for food" I heard Pattie shout from downstairs. I looked at Jace who looked back at me with an unknown expression.
I gulped down the lump in my throat. "W-we should go," I said to him.
He didn't answer but walked downstairs.
I wanted him to turn around to hug me.
To touch me
To feel me
But I knew he wouldn't
I let out a sigh and followed behind. We went to the kitchen and I saw mom and BRIAN.
Why was he here?
"Hey, selly you ok?" He asked and I slightly nodded at him.
Brain was my stepdad.
That's it. No story,
He was just my stepdad.
He and my mum met 2 years ago in one of my mum's work trip.
Love at first sight kind of things.
But they were always off and on. Like some type of celebrity couple, everybody believes are in love but are so complicated for the world.
"Selena, sit down" Pattie smiled at me and I couldn't get my eyes off of him.
"What's he doing here?" I asked ignoring her and looked at mom.
She sighed. "Selena, I wanted him to be here that's why," Mom said but I ignored her and got a bar of chocolate and sat next to Pattie.
"What's going o-on?" I heard Jace whispered to Pattie.
I had my hands in fists.
Firs all this shit with Jace and now him.
"What's going on is that's Brian is trying to replace my dad," I said angrily and crossed my arms.
"Selena that not true" Brian whispered in pain and I scoffed at him and looked down.
I know it wasn't true but I could help what was going on in me.
I had to let it out cause I felt like knives were stabbing my heart right now.
"Selena, you need to understand that we love each other and Its doesn't really matter if you support it or not" my mum snapped at me.
"Exactly" I whispered looking down.
I looked at mom and she looked at Brian smiling.
Why did some people get there happy ever after with their significant others and not for others?
I looked at Jace as he looked back at me. "I-If you love each other, go ahead with your life then," I said looking at mom with no expression.
"Really?" my mum and Brian both asked shocked and I nodded.
"Yes," I said even though I wanted to say no.
I didn't want to become my mum with me and Justin.
Life's too short to think about stupid shit like their relationship.
They can do whatever they want as long as I'm not involved in any part of it.
I'm just too tired to be.
"Thank you Selena and I'm not trying to replace your dad, I love your mom and I'll be there for you as a father like a friend," Brian said and I nodded feeling nothing.
All this reminded me was of dad
Every time I looked at Brian. I saw my dad.
Fuck why did he die, why couldn't he stay with me?
He was always there for me when I was sad.
And now I have no one.
"Selena, you ok?" Pattie asked and I nodded without looking at her.
Too much had happened recently.
My actions and thoughts aren't okay right now.
"I'm not really hungry," I said and walk upstairs without hearing their consent.
I went to my bed and laid in it.
I think I had run out of tears today.
Or my heart decided to take a break.
I don't know if that was a good thing but I really needed it to stop for the moment.
Dad was only the person to know how to solve every situation but he's not here, so how do I solve my situations?
How?
I heard the door open but I didn't bother looking to see who it was.
"S-selly" I heard Jace asked as I heard his footsteps become closer towards.
I couldn't say anything.
Or feel anything.
"You ok?" He asked as he kneeled in front of me with a frown.
Did it look like it?
His frown made me feel worse I guess.
Why am I sad when he's sad?
Why do I feel my heartbreak when I see him cry?
Why am I happy when he's happy?
Why?
I heard him sigh and he turned around and I looked at him. "I-I wanna go to sleep," He said and took his t-shirt off.
He lied on the bed away from me.
I didn't know how I felt about Justin but I knew I needed him.
Why didn't he know I was hurting when he slept?
Why didn't he know I was breaking inside?
But why didn't I know he was as well?
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