Feb. 5/94
Well holy shit, my dad gave me the car tonight! That is a first, ladies and gentlemen.
Tammy and I went to Chet's house again last night, Ray was there too. Ugh. Well, it's been okay, we've been getting along good together but he's so hot and cold. Maybe he's just like me and doesn't know what the fuck he wants! God, I'm so confused.
Okay first of all, during school it seems like he kinda likes me, then on Friday night, it looked like he liked Tammy again and then after awhile at Chet's house it seemed he was into me again. So he must be as confused as me. I think Tammy is confused also, it's a miracle we have remained friends through all this bullshit. But hey, I don't hold grudges. But if she stabs me in the back again, we are done. But she wants this other guy Dave anyway. He's really good looking.
But tonight was my first night with the car and being the designated driver. We went to the Eclectic Cafe. I was fucking freaking out driving downtown but I played it totally cool. We survived. The Eclectic is this little bar/cafe type place where they hang weird art on the walls and weird people go in to sit alone in corners and play chess by themselves. Haha, well I guess we are weird cause we love it there. They also play really cool music, have some cool board games and a nice big window so you can watch all the fucking drunks wander around downtown.
After we stayed there for a bit we went to this hotel party. There were so many people stuffed inside this little tiny room. Many hot guys, but you know, not really any fun unless you are solely there to get blitzed, which wasn't what we were looking to do. So then we went back to the Cafe with Dave, Tammy's dude, and this guy Mike. Mike was so cute! We played checkers and chess and I realized I suck at chess. But he sat next to me instead of across from me, which was pretty cool. But I never got his number and he didn't ask me for mine either. Oh well. Gotta go,
Later love Kate
P.s yes I do love Ray! I want to let him hold me and kiss me and feel me and fuck me. He is so adorable and sweet, I could just eat him up right on the spot. He will be mine, oh yes, he will be mine.