March 3/94
Well, another month went by and my life is still a mess.
Last weekend Jolene had a party - and even five guys slept over afterward! Her parents even knew about it! Cool eh? I'm super surprised they let us have a party, but the way Jolene sees it as they (her parents) would rather have us party at their house where they will know where we are, then at some strange place. Plus, I think he trusts us not to let things get too out of control. And Jolene's house is fun to have a party in because her house is five floors. So every floor you go to there is different people to talk to and hang out with. I did drink a bit, yes, otherwise I'd be so nervous. But being at Jolene's helped to keep me chill. Plus, it was all people we knew, so it's not like random strangers came.
Now Chris, Derek and this James guy want me. Great! I don't even want a boyfriend, GEEZ! I just feel like fooling around with someone, I don't have the time or the nerves for a relationship. Does that make me a total slut? But no, I didn't fool around with anyone. I just talked with them, yes maybe I flirted a little bit but geez. I can't help it if that makes guys want me.
I don't care. I have to concentrate on school right now. If I don't get over a 75 average I won't be able to take the OAC's I want to take next year.
Oh and Ray, we're still friends but I think that's all we are and all we ever will be. But.... I'd make out with him if I got the chance. Fuck, I think I'm just too horny.
Gotta go.