March 5 1994
Ahhhh! What is wrong with me!?
Ok, so I know I went into this whole, I don't have time for a boyfriend, bullshit last time but fuck! Every time I see this Jason guy I want to jump his bones! He is so amazing! He is so cute. He has gorgeous blue eyes and looks like a blonde hockey player. He's been hanging around with us the last few times, he's friends with Jolene's new boyfriend. We just started hanging out with these east end guys a couple weeks ago, I think they all go to Riverside. Most of them were at Jolene's party. But now that Jolene's for sure dating one of them, we are going to be seeing them all the time. Mainly we hang out by the arena, or we go to Chad's house. But Jason is so damn cute and I think he likes me, but he seems really shy. Maybe I don't want to go out with him, I don't know but he's just one of those guys who are like, God, kiss me right now!!
I'm going to make out with him, that's it, it's settled. He asked me out jokingly and I go, why? He goes, cause I love you. Haha, ok maybe he's not that shy. But yes, he is I think. I'm like.. Okay... And at one point I was sitting in Jolene's car all alone in the back (kinda hopin he would notice) and he came over and sat in the front seat! Holy hell, I was like what the fuck? Get back here! But then we had to go. Man, Chris still likes me and Derek and maybe Chad. Shit. I don't know what the fuck I'm doing. It's fun though.
Later