I was gasping for my breath as I was walking and running just to be out of that place. Why did I even wear this high heels and an above-knee dress, I prepared for tonight, I picked this dress for him but the big question is why did I believe his words? Even though I know that he will do it again and again, he cheated on me before he will surely betray me again. I was making myself a fool as I keep trusting him again and again, who am I kidding. This is my fault for letting him break me again. Kasalanan ko naman ito lahat kung hindi lang sana ako naging marupok sa kanya, madali lang atang tibagin ang mga ginawa kong harang sa kanya sa puso ko.
"Alana!" he shouted as he was catching his breath running through my direction.
"Go back there, Knight!" I shouted back, I don't want to see his face, he is making me sick. I don't want him to touch me again, even the tip of his fingers, I don't want him to touch me.
"It's not what you think!" he says, and it surprised me that he was already near me, he grips my arm, I pulled my arm from his grip but he was too strong for me. Napakalakas niya at wala ring saysay kahit anong hila ko sa kamay ko.
"It's not what I think?! Please Knight enough with the lies! Please I can't help this anymore, I can't take it any longer, it hurts it really, really hurts here," I said about my feelings and bursted to tears, I cried in front of him, I cried all the pain I have kept for years. Taon narin pala akong naging gaga at tanga.
"I thought we were fine, I thought everything was already fine, akala ko nagsisimula na ulit kami ngunit akala ko lang pala iyong lahat, my fucking damn delusional thoughts you are giving me Knight!" iyak kong sigaw at akma na sana siyang lalapit nang umatras ako. Ayoko ng hawakan niya pa akong muli.
"Huwag na huwag mo na akong yayakapin Knight!" I shouted that shocked him, ito ang kauna-unahang pagkakataon na marinig ang paglaban ko sa kanya.
"Alana please, let's start again," he pleaded and the tone of his voice was in obvious of sadness and hurt but I won't be move again with his emotions, he did it before he can do it again. Huwag ka ng gaga Alana, nasaktan ka na ng ilang beses mas tanga ka pa sa tanga kung tatanggapin mo uli siya.
"I want to file an annulment," I firmly said, and I was so proud of myself because of my braveness and his grip loss. Nabigla siya sa mga salitang binitawan ko kahit ako rin ay nagulat sa mga sinabi ko.
I loved him with all my heart, body and even my soul, I married him but I can't blame him I am the one who wants this, I am the only one who wants this but maybe this is the time and sign to let go.
"No please, no no no please," he kneeled pleading, I can't believe that an Alcantara Knight is begging and kneeling in front of me.
"Goodbye Knight," I said and pulled the ring in my finger and give it back to him.