he: WHAT RELATION WE ARE PERFORMING! WHO ARE YOU TO ME? WHO AM I TO YOU! I WANT TO KNOW TODAY!
me: you could have lie like before...
he: YOU WANT I LIE? WOW HOW GREAT YOU ARE HUH.
YOU HATE LIARS AND WANT I LIE!
WHY! ITS HURTING KNOWING TRUTH. YOU KNOW WHAT ITS HURTING ME TOO. KNOWING THIS IS TRUTH. tell me ANSWER TODAY.
here...
Mira: what was that. how can he take your girl like that.
Kai: miss you are mistaken. she's not my girl still. we are friends. when i read address i realise why call me. ahhh don't get on him. you better stay away from him. anyways today night will be fun in college.
Mira: you got hit by him still smiling.
Kai: tomorrow night will be fun at college. ah this one punch is important for me.
Mira: let me bandage it.
Kai:(stop her hand) don't cover this i want it hurt like this.
here....
he:(i wakeup when i Heard door unlocking sound. i look up just to witness a shout of girl..
we both open eyes complete still in hug of each other. i feel her fists loosing the grips on shirt behind my back ...as I was shirtless from front because of open buttons...and my hand on her tummy inside top. ...as she was moving away losing holds on me and ahhh i was angry on Mira. look at this she seems embarassed cause of scene happening.
we both were shoked and Mira too. i know Mira have crush on me.but i see her as only employee nothing more.
me: Mira? you are here...i turn to my angel saw her more away ..i thought something happen in meeting. i getup.l walk towards Mira.
Mira: yah i heared you are sick so i came.
me: ( (ah damn Mira want my girl kill me or what. how can she even answer when she saw me in hug of girl. she is making my girl embarrassed that's what I know.
i turn to glance at my girl. again turn to face Mira ) i decided to take Mira down to talk.
me: let's go down.
i make Mira sit on sofa she put papers on table. we start talk about office stuff i left in sickness. i was busy in explaining and understanding task. after couple of minutes i feel presence around us and a smile appeared on face. i saw her coming with Trey she put trey on table sat on sofa. surve drink. and start playing on phone. for to truth her presence make me feel protected a secure feeling am living in poolish material. but my real home is she. i was more comfty then before.
suddenly Mira ask her to bring cookies..i feel little awkward she's not maid or something to order her. but idecide to ignore focus on paper. as my girl ask maids to bring.
i look up when Mira stated why don't you bring i turn up my face to Mira. she was shoked a little i smiled. enjoying. i was about to speak for my angel but she shut Mira
she: why would I? ah am little busy.
i was expecting scilence after this. but Mira ask something. when our eyes met.
Mira: who is she?
i stop work i was doing glance down to up my angel. i also don't know who is she to me? she never let me be her one then let's give reason to make her realise her mistake. i thought it as golden chance for me. )
i answered we are JUST FRIENDS. i saw my angel so angry. obviously she deserves to be hurt and angery. she never let me her one she need to realise what wrong she's doing.
i saw mira's bloomed face i face palmed.
Mira was smiling like she got victory. at i create trouble though.
i saw her sad face staring down. and between glance at Mira. suddenly she rise her eyes staring into mine. and i was shoked when she said
she: ahhh. i should leave now....thanks to let me stay inside your house for yesterday.
( i was shoked she really gonna leave me..i know she do this when we argued so when i make her sign papers i write this rule. i know am smart!)
but i was really panicked when she get up walking towards door.
me: wait! umm maids give her that paper she sign yesterday and forget.
M1 handed her...
i saw her eyes fell on paper, she's reading paper as her eyes turning into fire. so scary.
as she turn to she shot me glares. as our eyes met. ii look side...she crumble paper and throw in dustbin and walk aggressively in kitchen..
i hear shouts from kitchen.. i laugh underneath. suddenly she step out if kitchen.
and i frozed when she call Kai
nah not jealous. but why him....i start shooting her glares as she spell hello Kai;. i did hear right she spell Kai. why she call him without reason..
my eyes wided when she said next.
me: baby come fast!
i wisper in shoke not able to believe on her words and my ears.
me:baby?
(WAIT! she just dare to call him baby? is she gonna play like this. )
i was so angry. here am dreaming about staying forever. planing how to make you mine and you are not care to glance at me and call him baby. my jerk mode want to grab you! drag you! and make you realise whom you belong. ahhh i just can't. i sigh maids to show her paper copy again.
as maid again handed her. but she just throw after crumbling. i was so angry. ulyes angry on moves she's making in response. i mean why only Kai on earth! it's another topic anyways any who come to take her out i still got problem but with Kai have more problem
i decide to make her stop and busy so i said.
me: you know my friend cook so yummy food.
Mira: i want to test then
she: ah am sorry i cant-
me :oh come on. don't offended us.
she:( fake smile) sure. i have enough time. wait a little.
i smrinked. now she will be busy Kai come i open door and stop this. yes it's rigid plan.
i get busy in work front of me .
until i hear her foot steps..i turn look up and saw her walking towards us with Trey in hand. i can smell her handmade food. smells good.
but my eyes stucked on her. she look so beautiful! i can't describe her beauty. all i can say is angel/goddess or art of God
standing front of me. i just can't take my eyes off from her. i forget about everything. my mind went on strike. what magic she's doing? damn everything is blur against her.
suddenly bell ring. snapping back me in reality. i realise who is he.
me: ah let me ope-
( i was happy want to make Kai go back and lock doors send Mira as quick as i can and admire my girl like this. i don't want her away for moment also from my eyes. not my this beauty admired by any other man
but her next words steb my heart.
she: you do work. my baby is here.
(again calling that bastard BABY! doll your baby is here and it's me! i shot her deadly glare but she ignore. and open door.
and scream loud in happiness able to hear till hear. ohk you want to mess with me angel. ah what if i loose her? i gulped looking up at her. in fear. what if Kai got her away i believe she will not but i can't garanty kai!
she: i made your favourite food want to eat
Kai: sure.
(wow HIS fevoraite food! i don't even want to touch food! i- i just hate! OKEY!)
she surve him too .
hope he get sick after eating this
she sit front of me BUT but next to KAI!
all start eating food. Mira smile at me eating i laugh back. i saw him taking bite.
hope Kai choke it.
i take bite of food! my mind went blanck. i shot her glare but saw her turning face side and trying to act like admiring!
i can't bare her this act more. i just want her to understand this. but seems she misunderstood more..AHH ITS SPICY
suddenly Kai add oil in fire
Kai: am that handsome so can't take eyes off
(wow what a joke. am handsome here!) but i feel broken and insecure when she....
she: you are. (wisper next) baby. i listen and nah am not on sense now. just a moments and i will teach her lesson.
i fake caugh. to garb her attention
Mira handed me water before her. which somehow hurt me.
she smrinked as our eyes met.
so she done this on purpose...
i start eating scilently baring pain.
and reading her mind!...which literally make me pissed ...
she:(i thought i made his dish so spicy why not seems it spicy? do i switch dishes mistakenly )
i was eating head down. want to end this quickly.
but this ketchup should drop anywhere huh..yah yah am talking about Kai.
Kai:like always so yummy. i love it.
and then baring her act...i turn to her.
she: my pleasure know you love it.
all i can do is glare at her. once everyone get away i swear i will be bad.
our eyes met again she screech nose cutely. smiling. (even though it melt my heart but i can't forgive her...nah my mouth burning my brain get on strike just a moment with her and i will make her regret doing this.
suddenly that bastard caugh again grabbing her attention.
Kai: (caugh)
she: let me bring the water.
she get inside kitchen.
i finished plate quickly. and get inside kitchen in reason of put plate in besin
i saw her front of freezer picking bottle for him. Mira give me water but she dont take afford and now for him this afford get inside kitchen then picking bottle and get back to hand him...WOW!
i get behind her and turn her pinning to freezer...want to scold her..but our eyes met even though she's glaring me so closely.i was glaring too but staring in her eyes something magical. i don't know but my eyes start admire her specially today when she turn beautiful for to go with that bastard. my eyes roaming admiring picking details but it fell on bottle in her hands i clinch jaw (make spicy food for me not care me for moment and for him this bottle just by fake caugh!)
she: what the hack you ar-
i turn glaring sigh maids to leave both nodded leaving us alone. and i grab her in kiss. let her feel how my mouth burning..she start hissing cause of spicyness..yah yah you feed me this spicy food. test your creation..damn her lips claming me. after a moments i lost in kiss
she start hitting my chest trying to snap back me which i don't want. i know she must be getting out of breath but i don't. she deserve to be. i will be more rough now. she start pushing me so i griped her more in my cage. damn she's soft. she start struggling her hands are really pissing me off i start try to grab her hands..as they are moving so much. and pinned her hands above head damn she's magic. suddenly my grip lossen as i lost she take chance release hand i get to know her action. which literally set my heart on fire. making me cross limits today to teach her well lesson. i grab her hand and pin again to freezer. her left hand is above and right is side. , how dare her! i start kissing more intensely my lips travel down to her chin to jaw and then neck umm soft yummy skin i was sucking while kissing my lips end to neck to throat i release her hands griping her tight in my cage hugging her tight grip her both hands who pushing me and fold behind my back hugging her pressing her between me and wall hard i start biting her neck shile folding forcing her hands to fold behind her back now and with other hand start unbuttoning her dress kissing her throat then neck then chest biting her skin inbetween i slide my hand inside her top she gasp as i smrink the range of jelousy is hard for me. i was about to push her corner of top side exposing her while sucking her spot on neck hard but but her sudden voice stop me.
she: stop!
i paused taking moments to noticing her. (i don't want to make her uncomfortable with me. she should be more comfortable with me then others ) i wipe lips teasingly now feeling my mouth burning anymore. if eating spicy gonna reward like this then i accept your punishment just like today
me: now am fine.
i saw her lips shivering, her looking total beautiful mess damn her skin ( I bite lips once I get this diety I will do so dirty with you swear it....she start buttoning her top, as I bite them little when I was rough baby you make me do this. don't glare at me.
my heart aches when she wisper gleary but teary eyes trying to walk out kitchen.
me: i hate you!
that damn bottle my eyes fell on bottle. i grab bottle pull her back on position
drinking whole water.
me: i don't care
but all she done was turning back and bring other bottle right...
as she turn i hug her (why don't you understand am scared to loose you. why you act like this with him i don't like it okey. just care about me. i want to be that one who will be beside you! just doing this act make me feel am definitely down then him)
i wisper in her ear...
me: don't call baby!..plz
but she push me leave kitchen..
i sigh. come out of kitchen and saw her walking out ahhh i need to stop let me make reason. i will not be there to help you. like last time in lisa's dream. (my eyes fell on cd disk next to me..
me: ah i brought new movie if don't have work then watch with us.
she: but-
Kai: sure.
(i furrows brow. there was satisfaction but i doubt his real intentions!)
my eyes turn dark and heart burn when he call her sweetheart.
i played movie.
they sit little beside but much front of us.but my eyes on them.
my eyes wided. when he
Kai: (pull her close.) darling come close don't be shy. i smiled (awkward)
ahhh my heart you need to pay for this babe. (i slide close to Mira)
i saw him (Kai) moving stack of hairs from her face pulling her more close )
Kai: you look so beautiful today.
(wow! how damn this man admiring her. the way i should. his doing everything the way i should..i must be on his position right now. why things happening like this! look at her how she staring in his eyes with puppy eyes ever stare at me like this.) i bite lips. in anger.
ahhh just let see each other in room.
i should also make her jealous. my eyes fell on Mira i smrinked
me: baby do you like movie.
Mira: baby?( smile)(okey i don't know Mira will react like this. ) (Mira's eyes shine. towards me staring cutely. hope in her eyes rises )
Mira: yah if you do then i do.( as she stared i make eye contact. mira's cheeks are red)
i turn saw her trying to focus on screen after noticing my move. let me khow it feels now?
but this insect must come between us huh! look again garabbing her attention.
Kai: babe it's cold here.
(if i could drop you north pole i would ) what a liar.
but my eyes wided when she...
she: (grab his hands) let me warm you little. as both of their eyes met they pass smile and she pull his hand close hugging with her both hands while her cheek resting rubbing his hand.
me: (OKEY MF NOW WE GOT PROBLEM)
Kai: how sweet of you..umm your cheeks are soo soft honey
damn it. AGHH this damn heart this scene and this time.
Kai: why you dress so beautiful today? damn you look so beautiful.
( DoNT ADMIRE HER )
(i can feel she's not comfortable anymore with him...as she trying to avoide him but get close to hurt me! but if she lie still listening her spell this words for someone hurt me .
i try to focus on screen...but i can't.
i turn to them and my eyes wided...it's really going out if control. my eyes turn dark. my whole body heated. as Kai.....
Kai:( lean on her little slide hand from behind ) she gasped (completely scared as that MF start taking her on laps) no no go on call anyone bastard baby!
agh enough i need to end this.
Kai: let me ad-
i grab and push him side from her and get on him start beating him.. she grab me pull me back far from Kai. and yell.
she: STOP IT!
( yah is it hurting?) Enough..
me: enough! MIRA GET OUT!
she: why should she? Kai are you fine?
still care about this bastard! (i grab shoulder asking her)
me: you are going to care about him? (it hurts )
she: why don't i? tell me. we are just friends then why you care huh!
( she crossed limits don't blame me for next. )
i really can't tolerate this anymore .
i grab wrist dragging with me harshly
i open door and jerked her inside room ) locking room behind from upper side. and said
me:let's have talk...
but she lost her temper too.
she : how dare you! to drag me like this. i don't want to talk. not with you! open the fking door!
(her actions damn her actions ,...pushing her on edge. )
me: why would I?
she: the hack want huh. (now we are on point let's clear this today!)
here.....
(on present time).....(her pov/)
he: you! you! and YOU! OH COME ON SO CLINGY with him huh. what you call him? BABY! yah tell me why doing this with me?
me: WHY IT MATTER TO YOU! ain't we are JUST FRIENDS!. go to Mira.
i bumped with bed wall behind me..i look up as he bump his hand on wall trapping me..
he: YOU ARE THE REASON I SAID THAT! you always ask me who am I to you right today you tell me WHO AM I TO YOU? TELL ME WHO ARE YOU TO ME! WHY IT BOTHERS WHEN I TOLD OUR RELATION AS JUST FRIENDS!
me:...
he: WHY HUH! AINT YOU ARE THE ONE WHO DONT WANT I BE YOUR ONE. YOU NEVER LET ME CLAIM YOU MINE. TELL NOT JUST FRIENDS THEN WHO ARE WE TO EACH OTHER.
he paused staring away. take a deep breath before speak.
he: WHAT RELATION WE ARE PERFORMING! WHO ARE YOU TO ME? WHO AM I TO YOU! I WANT TO KNOW TODAY!
she:...
he: SPEAK NOW! I WANT TO KNOW TODAY! .
she: I DONT KNOW OKEY! IF THERE IS NO RELATION LETS STOP HERE. and keep our relation as JUST FRIENDS.
i -i don't know why am feeling this.
he:...
she:(staring in his eyes with her teary one)
she: YOU ARE THE PERSON. I CANT HATE NOR CAN LOVE. I TRIED TO HATE YOU. KEEP THIS RELTION NORMAL BUT I CANT. I KNOW REASON. BUT I HAVE LOTS OF REASON to stop me.
she:AM SCARED! scared okey! WHAT DO YOU THINK AM HEARTLESS NAH AM NOT.. YOU KNOW WHAT I CANT SHOW YOU REAL ME. GIVE YOU ME AND MY LOVE. am so scared. am not enough to match
the more i try to hate the more i fall.
the more i try to avoid try to vanish you ignore you the more i crave. the more i try to hurt the more i care. i am wearing mask everytime i meet you. i can't show you my other sides. how can I trust someone when i know in end it will be broked. i saw peoples lossing from me the one i claimed mine. and i don't want to lose you from me. not at any cost. let's keep it unlabled i can perform more better way like this.
i - i also want to be with you! but i saw leabled relations crumbling down. i saw love turning into worse end every relation around me was so scary that i never want to get involved and keep me in corner. all i saw peoples hurting in it. am already in enough pain i- i can't bare another one. it will broke me completly. not this one...if i feel this pain i will be dead from soul. i will be empty hearted. i saw all relations end worst so i keep my self inside red line.
i want to cross this. but i don't have enough courage to cross this. even though i know about us. but still there are some thoughts some reasons don't let me let you claim me yours. i felt characterless front of that women today...i was in ur bed and we are just friends...who kiss hug touch just friends? you are so bad!
( she was crying...)
he: i know you are scared to trust anyone. i know you are hurted and broken, am sorry to make you feel that way.
.feeling no one beside you is painful. i know it's hard for you too. but why don't you understand am scared to loose you. why you act like this with him i don't like it okey. i don't like when you say am nothing if yours...just care about me. i want to be that one who will be beside you not just till interval but until end.! just doing this act make me feel am definitely down then him. am really unworthy fo you!. give me chance to prove. am taking steps take some from your sides. in all this conditions i only can said i will wait for you only to accept me one and want to label our this sweet journy with each other in beautiful name. cause i know one day you will....until moments...all i want is i must be the man beside you! even thoughts it's not labled one.
she: just to know we are not just friends...never can be. you can say more then friends but not less i don't want to see you with other women then me....am selfish these days ( she look side) even if you wanna keep me characterless like today she witnessed us. ( i hate when she thinks she is characterless or something worthless)
he:( i was listening her and my words stucked in throat, i really wanna lable this connection of us but understanding her side making me feel guilty her next word make me rise eyes staring at her even when I am out of words the grif the murk she holding in eyes)
me:i want you to choose me no matter what but i don't want you choose the blue framed girl like me. i am imperfect my love, I am totally imperfect..not you but no one desurve me i know...but the love I am holding for you is more i know I don't made to be loved and i still yearn to be loved but when I stare at you ( she look up in my glarey eyes with her softness...)
me: i wanna love you soo much you desurve the love I am holding you know my love...( she look down crying )
me: i can't understand me.. everything confuse me. and if you can then save me from me. all i dreamed is one day we will meet. i don't care what you think but i was willing to hug you and cry in your embarce. all i wanted is hide me from everyone. take me away from me and others. everything scares me no matter how brave i pretend to be.
he:( i don't know what hell you been through...but it broke you soo hard i wanna show you world and love...)
me: she is hiding inside me wishing for you. i tried many attempts to kill. but everytime..everytime i saw your face. your eyes fell on me. she turn to be alive. no matter how injured she is she take breaths. proving how strong hopes can keep person.
if don't want me then betray her ,hurt her. she must know what pain is. she must end inside me. she have so much faith on you. even though you were no were she have blinded trust on you. were i try to make her feel pity on her. make her hold back..she run to you!.
he:( her inner self is breaking...she is craving for love but I don't know what should I do what I should say )
tell me what should I do?
(crying so much griping my shirt )
me: i never show this water to anyone else...but i never be able to hide this from peoples i love. in childhood. i cry so much. cause i thought i were loved one. but as grow i -...there was no one with me even thought every known person were around.
stay away. or keep me away. i don't want to understand anything or anyone. nor me too.
All the matters in between these two hearts cannot be openly discussed i know.
you are last hope and person left..which my heart willing. just pick me or broke me end this quickly it's suffocating.
he:( but I wanna love you till end)
me: you don't know in just hopes to meet you each and every breath and moment i
Weave the praises from their thread. just to meet you even though accept me or not as i am. lots of questions in my mind. but i never show. please i can't tell everything to you. i want you to pick my details from my scilence. i tend to hide myself everytime i feel. i will to hide to show me strong. i was to be glass doll from someone. not like as i show rock to everyone.
(she Burst into tears)
he was frozed cause of her statements. don't know how to react. he never thought she will be this direct. his lips were sealed. unable to utter words.
she notice him staring at her only sealed lips..
not taking actions. which make her think. she done wrong opening herself. and he must be judging her for what she is...like other do. she smiled bitterly...screeching nose. biting lips.
look away nodding. she push him get inside washroom