"Don't bail out! Move towards the ball!" sigaw ni Mr. Taginit, o mas kilalang si coach Tag, ang PE teacher namin at siya ring dakilang coach ng volleyball at basketball varsity ng school.
"Come on girls, communicate! Teamwork! C'mon!" patuloy pa ni coach Tag na unti-unti nang nag-iinit ang ulo sa laro-larong volleyball game namin. It was supposed to be just a P.E class, yet he was acting as if it's the championship.
"Look at the ball Cece! The ball!"
Hindi ko natantya ang bola, akala ko back row pass na siya, naalanganin si Hardine at pinilit sapuhin ang bola pero napasubsub siya sa akin. Our heads collided and we both fell with my ass on the ground.
"Sorry," paghingi ko ng pasensya na hindi nakadirekta kung kanino man.
Nahiya ako sa mga sablay ko, mabuti na lang at mapagpasensya yung team ko. Sports was definitely not installed into my DNA. I have zero athletic bones in me.
"Your are hitting too hard! Control yourself, Cece!" bulyaw pa ni coach Tag.
I froze after hearing that. My heart raced fast, I was dumbstruck. I saw it was coach Tag who uttered those last three words, pero boses ni Teacher Kim ang nag-register sa utak ko, that musky and commanding voice. In a split of a second, something hard hit my shoulder - it was one hell of a spike.
Then, the game was over. Our team still won, but it wasn't like a massive winning anyway. Si coach Tag lang naman talaga ang exaggerated. We were all in the same class split in teams, at si Bed Madrigal at Hardine Uy lang din naman talaga ang volleyball varsity players, the rest of us were just monkey players.
"Cece, don't fall down for the balls before you get to them. Run to the ball and dig it first, just then you worry about how you're hitting the ground," patuloy pa'kong pinagsasabihan ni coach Tag habang nagpupunas ako ng pawis at ini-istretch ang balikat kong tinamaan ng bola.
"You have so much inhibitions, Cece. I suggest, you try Yoga or meditations so you can learn to focus and control your mind. I can help you with that," he continued. He tried to look concerned pero mas mukha siyang creepy.
"Thanks sir. But I think I'm good na po. I'll try to do better na lang po sa next game."
I took a huge gulp of water to avoid his gaze. I was never comfortable with his extra attentions on me.
"Alright. Cool, sure. But let me know ha. You know naman, sports is just another way to have an active, healthy lifestyle. It's best you learn to take good care of yourself habang bata ka pa."
I can't point it out exactly, but his extra attention on me was a bit more disturbing. His tone has always sounded suggestive, like he's got some agenda or something. He had this perverted look on me whenever we cross path, worst during his class. And he can be eerily touchy at times.
Isa din itong si coach Tag sa sinasabing heartthrob teacher dito sa school. Batak sa gym ang katawan niya and he'd never shy away showcasing his muscular body - it was thick, heavy, and hard sculpted; he's also a bit self-conceited to say the least. His square face gave him a striking masculine look, he's got a huge smile that made him certainly hard to ignore; he also have a visible Adam's apple that a lot finds it exotically hot. He's got this glossy, bouncy black hair na parang laging mukhang basa and his olive skin added rawness to his appeal. He was also known to be too vain; I heard he has his own shower cubicle sa men's shower ng gym filled with all his bath and skin products. Honestly, I find him unseemly but, he does have a fan base of his own at mga beki ang majority sa kanila.
To make my escape, I gave him an awkward nod, a forced smile, then I rushed towards the girls locker. I may be a girl who's addicted to watching porn pero hindi ko naman gustong lumandi kung kanino na lang. I can only go as far as being secretly horny. And I was still very indicisive about how and when I'd want to lose my virginity.
"Cece, tapos na'ko. Tayo na lang pala nandito. Pero una na ako, ok lang?"
Nag-echo ang boses ni Mecky sa buong shower room, may pagka-raspy ang boses niya, it reminded me of Miley Cyrus' speaking voice.
"Ya, sige. Ok lang. Feel ko pa ang hot shower e. Sumakit balikat ko sa spike ni Bed kanina."
"Bukas pa ang clinic, get it checked. Malakas nga yung spike na yun. Baka may sprain ka or something."
"Wala naman ganung pain. Kapag nag-bruised ng malala, then, yea, siguro pa-check ko."
"Ok sige, nagmo-moist na dito dahil sa hot shower mo. Una na'ko, ok ka lang ha?"
I smiled at Mecky's natural concern. "Yup. Thanks. Call na lang later?"
"Sige, bye. Ingat ka."
"Kaw din."
I came out of the shower into a warm and steamy room. My hair was damp, the moist in my body gave me a refreshing feel, while the warmth of my skin fought against the breezy air coming in from the window. I felt horny. Pero I know, wala naman ako magagawa at baka may biglang pumasok. The room was echoey, every little sound can be heard.
Tumitig ako sa imahe ko saglit sa salamin. Parang ibang babae ang nakikita ko, she was naughty and horny. I sighed and shook my head, then I decided to walk out.
May communal hallway sa pagitan ng locker areas at shower rooms. Ito lang ang tanging daan pabalik mula sa shower to the locker area. Although separate naman ang boys at girls sa lockers at showers, pero dahil sa communal hallway, it was often awfully awkward when boys in towels crosses with girls in robes; dirty looks and naughty whistles were a common scene. I could never figure out why the school allowed this setting.
Kaya naman, madalas ako ang huli sa mga nagsa-shower kapag PE class, hinahayaan ko din kasi muna humupa ang pagod ko at magnormalise ang init ng katawan ko bago ako maligo.
May tatlong malapad at maiikling baitang ng hagdan palabas ng shower room to the hallway. I was tying the belt of my robe nang maalanganin ako sa hakbang and the tip of my toe stumbled in the ascending stairs.
Everything happened so fast. My vision was preparing me to the shiny marbled floor that I was about to fall into but within my peripheral view, I sensed na may lalaki akong kasalubong na papasok naman ng men's shower.
I figured he tried to catch me, but we both fell in the most awkward position of all. Ang mga kamay niya nasa ilalim ng mga braso ko, tanda na sinubukan niya akong saluhin at iangat. Pero padapa sa kaniya ang pagkatumba ko so he fell flat on his back at napaibabaw ako sa kaniya, and my very face dip-dived into his abdomen.
Being frozen for several seconds allowed me to picture this nightmare in my head. The front of my face lied flat in his noticebly hard and chiseled abdomen while the rest of my body was in between his legs which were both folded up, his feet vertical to the floor.
He smelled musky, masculine, salty and sweet. Hula ko galing siyang nagworkout sa maliit na gym ng school. I overheard earlier, coach Tag set up a Circuit and TRX Training for the faculty and the school athletes.
Habang binubuo ko ang imahe ng sitwasyong ito sa utak ko, biglang umubo ang lalaking nadaganan ko. Dama ng mukha kong nakasubsub sa tiyan niya ang pagnginig nito. But I was still frozen in shock; confused and terrified.
Umubo muli siya, tanda na he was trying to break this apparently awkward situation.
"Uhh. Miss?"
A volt of electricity rushed throughout my body. I recognized the voice. Iniangat niya ang upper body niya kasabay ng pagsilip ko sa mukha ng lalaking pinaibabawan ko.
Holy shit!
Of all people and of all the clichés in the world, I slipped and fell, barely clothed, to an almost naked Teacher Kim.
My head raced in panic. I was skin to skin with the guy I was lusting terribly. Natakot akong gumalaw.
A moment passed, then good Cece snapped back in, also in panic, but she was able to force me to get up.
Thank heavens!
But that still didn't saved me from another embarassment. Good Cece reminded me I was naked behind my robe so my instant reaction was to hold it tight and closed as I get up. Never did I realised in all those seconds I was on top of Teacher Kim, he was only wearing a towel covering his precious private parts.
As I was getting up, hindi ko sinasadyang sumabit ang towel niya sa mahigpit kong pagkahawak sa aking robe. But he was quick to catch it and pulled it back to him, although, just barely enough to cover him.
My eyes widened, I was silently ashamed but incredibly aroused at the sight of a naked Teacher Kim. Almost naked. His entire torso was bare and exposed, his one leg remained folded up while the other was semi-stretch down to the floor, both revealed and bareskinned. Ang malapad at makapal niyang kamay ay hawak ang dulo ng kaniyang tuwalya na bahagya lamang nakatakip sa nakakatakam niyang ari. His thin and trimmed pubes was too revealing even to my fake-innocent eyes, I almost faked being shy.
Marahan siyang tumayo, he was effortless and unconcerned. Kahit iyung pagtayo lang niya ay sobrang sexy na. He stepped closer to me; his hand holding his towel barely covered his front and he was not even bothered that his bare ass was out in public, completely coverless.
"You ought to be careful Cece," he muttered, his voice, low.
I gasped hard. His towering height forced him to look down at me like I was a little girl needed of some scolding.
"Danger will always be around," he continued.
I flinched. "Sorry."
"Are you?"
I gasped, his voice was too cold. "Err, uhm. Sorry"
"Forgiven," he whispered, deep.
Hindi ko siya makayang tingnan. I never realised how tall he really was until that moment I was that close to him. His scent filled my nose, I swallowed dry.
My head was leveled just below his barrel chest, and, well, his pinkish nipples were right in front of my eyes. I could feel my face blushing at the sight of his spectacularly sculpted abs - about eight beautifully formed buns, with sexy cuts of muscles on the sides of his waist.
My hormones went into a complete haywire, my body was in world war three and it was all nuclear down my throbbing and aching pussy.
His abs flexed hard as he effortfully leaned down behind my ear and whispered, "but always be ready, Cece. Always."
I gasped again, and I swallowed with difficulty.
Then he walked out; his inconspicous delectable bubble butt passed through the edge of my disoriented vision. I was left mental, lost in translation, confused about life, the world and everything there is. I walked slowly and floatingly to the locker room. It took a little over an hour for me to semi-recover, get myself dressed and leave this wickedly vicious school.
He was worst than porn. At least kapag nanonood ako ng porn, dahan-dahan lang at aware ako sa mga susunod kong mararamdaman. But with him, it was all instant, para akong walang humpay na nilalabasan.
Teacher Kim was like a drug I've never heard before, an extremely dangerous sex drug. His mere existence was illegal enough, but his effect on me has put me in his maximum security prison.
I was handling it well and safe before he became my teacher, when I was just lusting on him from afar. But now, he had caught my lust for him, I was totally busted - in orange jumpsuit, chained and desperately craving for him behind bars.
Mula sa entrance ng main building hanggang sa gate, kadalasan, it only takes me a little over than five minutes to walk, but this time parang napakalayo ng gate. While the university itself is huge, hindi naman kalakihan ang high school campus namin.
Hugis parisukat itong nagiisang open ground na siyang tanging dadaanan mula sa main building patungo sa gate. Habang papalayo ako sa main building na nasa likuran ko na, napatanaw ako sa kaliwa ko kung saan naroon ang cafeteria. My eyes searched for any classmates who might still be around, but I only saw few students wandering, probably thinking about their standard student problems - their lovelife.
Oh, lucky them.
Sa gawing kanan ko naman nakatayo ang Science building. Dito ko unang nakita ang kadakilaan ni Teacher Kim na noo'y pababa ng kaniyang kotse, sariwa, bagong-bagong pantasya ng campus. I was sitting by the steps of the main building's entrance, just as fresh, thirteen, and very very virgin.
I noticed his car was still parked, which means andito pa siya school. Habang napatitig ako sa kotse niya, naglaro sa isipan ko ang napakaraming tanong - why do I feel na gusto niyang pinagnanasaan ko siya? Was he giving some sort of a sign? Does he like me too? Does he wanna fuck me too?
I was so confused. Napaisip ako kung tama ba na may ganitong dilemma ang isang katulad ko. I was drooling over my trending ultimate heartthrob teacher - that was wrong enough; if it was just a crush, I think it's considerable since everyone's crushing on him naman; if I was secretly inlove with him, well, maybe debatable. I've never been in love, but they say mahirap na pigilan kapag tumibok ang puso. But I lusted him, I was only purely lusting on him, isang naghuhumindik na pagnanasa. And yea, it was possibly, definitely a crime.
Bumalik ako sa ulirat ko nang makarating ako sa guard post ni Happy. Naabutan ko siyang nakatayo at nagaabang sa pinto ng post niya. He forced a cough, na para bang may iaanunsyo siya. "Mahal na Prinsesa," sambit niya. Tumango ang ulo niya na may kasamang sinserong tuwa at tawa, as if he uttered a very funny line.
"Maaga pumasok, huling umuuwi. Aba Cece! Kailangan na ata kita ipagtayo ng rebulto nyan," patuloy pa niya na nakangisi. His face was still bright and sunny even in this gloomy late afternoon. I felt, comfort.
"Well, I wouldn't mind Happy. Naipagtayo na nga kita ng monumento eh. Now you owe me my statue," pagsakay ko sa biro niya.
"Presyur naman yan!" bulyas niya sabay tawa.
Wala talaga siyang tigil sa pagngisi, ang sarap lang niyang tignan,
"Pero teka, bakit parang namumutla ka? Masama ba pakiramdam mo?"
Malalaman mong tunay si Happy at sinsero dahil literal na lalabas sa mukha niya ang tunay niyang nararamdaman.
"Hindi naman, Happy, pagod lang siguro. Friday eh, PE."
I sat in one of the concrete bollards in front of Happy's guard post. I've always enjoyed being in Happy's presence, he gives me a sense of normalcy. Pakiramdam ko, kapag kausap ko siya, simpleng estudyante lang ako.
"Hmmmm. Iba ngayon eh, parang..." nanliit ang mga mata niya, like he was trying to read me.
"Parang ano?" painosente kong tugon.
"Parang ang daming laman ng isip mo. Gulong-gulo."
"Nye. Naguguluhan ako sa mga sinasabi mo Happy."
Dinaan ko na lang sa biro ang puna ni Happy. Sa tagal ko nang kinakaibigan ito si Happy, madalas, alam na niya ang ibig sabihin ng mga expressions ko at kilos ko.
"Alam mo," medyo nagaalangan pa si Happy sa sasabihin niya. "Pwede mo sabihin sa'kin. Kung.. makakatulong sa pinagdadaan mo. Pero pwede ring hinde, ayoko ng madrama eh."
He bursted into a laughter then sipped loudly the last of his slurpee. I had a genuine laugh, pero hindi na ako sumagot.
"Kaninang umaga.." panimula muli ni Happy habang nagmumulti-tasking sa pagbukas ng gate para sa lumabas na sasakyan, patag'sang tingin sa CCTV, at pagsusulat sa log book niya, "...bumili ako ng pandesal! Mainit na pandesal lang sa umaga masaya na ako e."
Hindi ko talaga maiiwasang hindi mahawa sa happy face ni Happy, napangiti na lang din ako.
"Dahil takot ako malate, agad ko na lang sinilid sa bag ko yung isang balot ng pandesal! Pagkabigay sa akin ni manong.. Tapos, pagsakay ko ng jeep, kumuha ako ng isa! Pero hindi siya mainit!"
Yung boses niya punong-puno ng ekspresyon, mapapakapit ka na lang kapag nagkekwento siya na parang story of a lifetime yung naririnig mo.
"Kaya, pumara ako sa jeep, agad-agad! Mabuti na lang traffic, hindi pa nakalayo.."
Napaisip na ako ako kung saan papunta ang kwento ni Happy.
"Bumalik ako duuuuun! Sa panaderya! Sabi ko, manong! Gusto ko po ng mainit na pandesal. Hindi naman mainit 'tong binigay niyo eh. Nakakalungkot!"
He paused and belly-laughed.
"Aba! Si manong, binigyan niya nga ako ng mainit na pandesal, bago pa! Pinalitan pa niya yung nakain ko nang pandesal sa jeep. Baet ni manong no? Lagi na talaga ako bibili ng pandesal sa kaniya."
He seemed very pleased with his story, his face did not deny it. But I was hanging, yun na yun?!
Napansin ata niya na parang nabitin ako, kaya't nagpatuloy pa siya. "Eh, ayoko kasi ng hindi mainit na pandesal, princess. Sabi nga ng nanay ko, sumalangit nawa.. hindi lahat ng gusto mo makukuha mo. At hindi dahil gusto mo, e, para na sayo. Pero sabi din niya, paano mo malalaman kung para sayo kung hindi mo susubukang mapasayo?"
Ngumisi ulit siya at makulit na nagtaas-baba ang kaniyang mga kilay. Pilit ko namang ikinokonek ang kwento ni Happy sa pinagdadaanan ko, so, medyo napaseryoso ako.
"Eh paano pala, Happy, kung nakarating ka na school? Mamamasahe ka ba ulit pabalik? Tapos male-late ka na? Is it worth the trouble to try and get what you want?"
"Para sa pandesal? hindi no!" sabay hagalpak niya sa tawa.
I was dumbfounded. He wasn't trying to give an unsolicited advice, I realised. He was merely sharing a random story. I wondered if maybe that was my problem, I read too much between the lines, I think too much. Pilit ko nilalagyan ng hidden meaning ang mga bagay-bagay, lalo na pagdating kay Teacher Kim.
"Cece!"
My heart stopped at the sound of that voice and its commanding source.
"It's getting late. You're supposed to be home," said that voice.
Sa isip-isip ko, I'm a senior, at maliwanag pa nga ang langit! Karamihan sa mga classmates ko either nasa mall o nasa bahay-bahay ng kung sino man. I was still in school, Duh!
I might have, unintentionally, rolled my eyes with my thought. The greek god was not pleased, his expression hardened.
"Teacher Kim!" biglang bati ni Happy nang mapasilip siya sa labas. Nagbigay siya ng isang pabirong saludo na siya naman tinanguan noong gwapong adonis sa loob ng sasakyan.
I felt my face turning crimson when his deep sexy eyes bored into mine. Bigla ko naalala yung nakita ng malaswa kong mga mata. But he looked serious, delicious, but dead serious.
Teacher Kim arched his brows, his lips slightly parted; I realised, he was waiting for my response. Those brows tho, I swear I could see it spelled 'sex'.
"Inaantay ko pa po kuya ko. Hatid-sundo po kasi ako."
"Are you sure he's coming?"
His brows spelled another meaning - Fuck, as in let's fuck!
"Yes sir. He texted."
He wet his lips.
Could he just stop doing that???
For what seemed like an eternity, he was just staring at me. I felt I was being penetrated; while his hands cold, floating over my fully erect breasts, just enough distant that I could feel his palms smoking against my skin.
And then just like that, walang abiso, walang pakundangan niyang hinugot ang sarap na aking nararamdaman. He pulled out his gaze, his expression turned deadpan, then he drove off.
No further words. Not even a goodbye, or just a bye. He was cruel, virulent, a monster.