Now that she learned few words the learned to say "Samches" (sweetheart in our language). We could use different Ladakhi words to pamper her and more than me she was pampering me. Though she loved being pampered and I was an amateur in doing this, but I learnt from her efforts that this is also important and it feels good to be pampered which I didn't have an experience at all.
I was so pessimistic that I was resistive towards pampering or this type of care.
I was never in a state of accepting myself being treated like this or someone would actually call me with such names never in my dreams.
We literally started talking and caring each other like a couple. All the things which we do or say when we are in a relationship we were doing that of following it. I had never been on a good side in my all three relationships, she was enthusiastically and delicately hold me not be afraid of being pampered or cared, there nothing bad in loving yourself. She was my ultimate tutor to this things and she was not only there to help me out she was literally close to me. I could feel that affection from her whenever I saw her. Everytime it was the same feeling of care and the love she showed me during this time was something I couldn't have asked in my prayers also. After being so far and distant she was there with me every second of the day on the call or chat she will be there around. She will send me so my videos and funny memes which I had never seen before of course she had a better collection I was eager to watch what will she send next. One of her favourite funny videos are the "KEY and PEELE." Just after watching we called each other and mimics them and their accents. We used to laugh a lot and made fun of each other everytime we got a chance to do so. Neither I set back to do it nor she fails to knock me down with her jokes.
The call log list got filled more when she went home.
Finally they got an approval that now they also can go home as the government has announced locked down in the state. So she booked her tickets the next day. She was excited to go back to Gangtok. The beautiful city which she belongs to but as beautiful as she was. She had to isolate herself for the next 14 days as according to the protocols set by the government and the medical department. She had the flight next morning so she had to prepare herself to reach Lucknow. She was willing to come to my place to meet me and she was showing the excitement to meet me and I was double excited to see her.
But between all this happenings I forgot that we had a deal to follow and we were literally like a real couples. I know I was in love with her and as the things were falling in our way I couldn't think of anything else rather to keep going how it is, we never discussed or cross checked our words that we committed before. But in between we are reminded with some conversations that we are in a deal. For which she had an idea that "Ming we won't get married, we'll stay like this only. We'll do our respective jods and take a vacation break and travel a go around different places."
Yeah this was actually happening with me, we both are actually discussing on what we'll do next except going into a relationship and getting married. What a better idea there could be if think and dream it's like perfect no burden and theirs always a private space to offer each other. I was dwelling in the thoughts now and figuring out what should I do if a complete my graduation should I make guiding and exploring my profession. I was getting super excited and looking forward for this.
For a moment I forgot that I have still graduation to pass which is kicking my ass from lady six years and a confused career Infront of me. For her she was sorted and because she was already a doctor it was easy than me to think in that way. It was not impossible for me also but I needed more time to build myself. With the calls and chat every hour made us so into each other that I don't whether any other friends call themselves with the lovey dovey names. And the level of taking care and the concern for each others to do list and trying to know what I was doing ever now and then made a clear picture that yes she is also falling for me slowly. That is my assumption according to her behaviour towards me, I was damn sure that she is the one I was wondering, the love that I want to show someone with loads of care, commitment and the effort I wanted to put in the one that is really worth. We were living a virtual life of course but the feelings and the abstract care and commitment was not virtual it was how it is. I felt good and complete with her. We both knew we were are far and met virtually but this doesn't change our feelings and sentiments we carried through this small journey.