As her quarantine days were approaching she had nothing much to do and also me isolating myself from the Pandemic that had hit us and the whole world. It was a primarily so much to think that even if we were far of from each other on the contrary that we had not even met we both were getting along we very well like we knew each other. She brought so many unreveal things from me which even I didn't try to explore in myself. That I could be loved and can be treated not the way I thought I'm being did. She made things so clear in my mind that all my grievances went off from me and I could literally let things go out of my thoughts. Though I was funny not more than her, to resurrect me from my grieved thoughts about myself. She made a habit to sleep me holding the mobile to see her sleep with calm. I don't know what made her so relieved to do that and sleep as if she is actually sleeping in my arms. The why she closed her eyes to sleep looking into my eyes for a second to find something which would let close her eyes just as the way she wanted. During this days there has been not a single day where she didn't sleep without do this, and I waiting myself to let close my eyes and doze off along with her peace of mind.
I couldn't let her go off from my sight for a second before she sleeps as that brought an immense compassion to me to love her more.
She was on a mission to get me to what I need to be about myself. And she was going right on her ways to do it and I was feeling like I don't want to come out of this compulsion. There was warmth, love and there was more importantly the person whom I have always dreamt of the one who could know me inside out. She was on this thin verge of being the right girl I have been searching for, path were like as it was laid just for both of us. But there is a saying, "worth things don't get easily, easy things are not worth." I didn't think much about the what will happen next we were just going with how it was going.
Between all of these we still reminded that we had our deal to control our emotions, to tackle that she came out with different thoughts to keep ourselves just near to us without causing any damage to ourselves later. And this was vunarable to think like that, take a safer part at one point she even suggested," We won't get married but we'll stay as singles letting our company go like this without getting hurt and getting harsh with our decision.
But inside I was thinking what the use of we are felling so deep for each other and still we had to take our steps back, what's the point when we can't step up and fight for the only person we want to be besides us till the one of us leave untill our hairs are grey. To live the moment of true love to come together at certain point where you can't give upon your happiness with a person you know you can go along with to the end.
All these things were running into my mind but still I let things go just that the way it was weaving in for us. We need not had to think much about anything. It just fall right for us from the beginning of our meeting. I still remember the time when she snored haha, and let me leave the chat after she slept well.
The sleeping face of hers gave me a lot more patience to see her from inside trying to rest from all the grieves she had in her mind.
Apart from all this she taught me how to stay compact and combined with positive thoughts and live for yourself ones and why to give a damn who don't care for a second. I can't forget her getting mad on me to fit this in my mind for a better me. We were so far that nothing could have brought us so near but ourselves. She never doubted to get the things she needed, she was sure of everything she wanted to achieve and I wish she does without any heartbreaks.