Nakahanda na ako, necktie check, headband check, baon check, utak check, Confidence che...lintek na bat ba ako kinakabahan eh papasok lang naman ako ng school eh.
Pero hindi ko naman masisi sarili ko, This is my first time transfering school and I'm late! 11:45 am.. five minutes before the start of the classes. Kakayanin ko ba?
Go krizelle! Kaya mo yan tatawid kalang naman pag wala nang sasakyan.Kaya mo yan.
Now I'm cheering myself, Trying to cross the road, I know how to cross the road but today the cars are ten times more than before. I couldn't help but to think I can't do it.
When the road finally cleared, I took the chance and crossed it without any hesitation.
"Omygosh. I did it.yezz!" I squeled in enjoyance.
Napagtanto ko na medyo napalakas ang pagsigaw ko kaya naman nakaramdam ako ng hiya. Sorry na bawal pang proud lang? Maka tingin naman kayo parang ang laking kasalanan na ng mga ginawa ko.
I ignored the stares of the people who heard me shouting like a crazy woman. I huriedly ran towards the school.
I'm trying my best to compose myself, Being nervous won't help me, So I tried to calm down.
Luckily, I bumped into a middle aged woman. "Tita? Ay tita saan po room ko?"
Thank goodness I bumped to her, If not then maybe I'll be scolded for being late for my first day.
"Hello po ma'am good afternoon and sorry I am late." I said, Trying to ignore the gaze and stares of those intimidating people. Non of them were smiling, I suddenly felt scared.
"It's okay, Please sit." The teacher signaled me to sit on the nearest available chair.
I felt uncomfortable, All of them were staring at me. Is this their first time to see a human?
"Hi." Walang emosyon na sabi ng lalaking katabi ko.
I gulped before answering, "Hello," I said, And because he looks like a living rock and I'm not good at communicating and befriending at others, Hindi na humaba ang usapan namin.
I opened my bag and went for a search for my jacket. The air-conditioned room are more likely an refrigerator, Sa sobrang lamig parang kailangan pa ng sobrang kapal na jacket.
"Bagong transfer?" The stone looking boy asked, I only nodded.
"My name is Ms. Samantha Verdez and I will be your adviser. Okay so now we must arrange our seats first before introducing yourselves." I swift my gaze to the teacher in front, she also looks intimidating but her bangs and cute smile made her a little bit approachable.
Nalipat ako ng upuan, sa harap na ngayon. Napagigitnaan ng dalawang lalaki,
"Okay now please introduce yourselves, let's start from the first row."
Dali dali namang tumayo ang lalaking nasa kaliwa ko at ipinakilala ang sarili niya.
"Hello everyone my name is Jhavrielle Gamboa but everyone calls me jav,I am 16 years old and i am a transfer student." The boy who looks simple and smart explained, I notice that his hands were trembling like mine. I guess I'm not the only one who's nervous.
"Thank you Jhavrielle, next?"
I stood, not so firm when the teacher called me out. I even had to look at the lockers at the back just to ignore their stares and be able to say the words from my mouth clearly.
"Umm hello po my name is Krizelle Nogapez, umm I am 15 years old and, umm yeah that's all thank you." I made it short, I guess that's enough.
I focused on my trembling hands, I'm not really into socializing. Being in the center of these two boys, and being the center of attraction here in the room. I couldn't help but to feel unusual.
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(Recess)
Slowly, I'm looking for the canteen. The school is two times larger than my old school. Students are everywhere, and all of them are in their own circle of friends, laughing and joking.
Being not be able to socialize these days, it's really hard. Everytime I talk to others, there's this feeling like making me feel unwanted, I'm anxious. I even went to the hospital last week, the doctor said that me being stressed the past days made me anxious and depressed.
They even said too good to mention and too good to be true things just to not do the thing I did last month. Taking suicide.
When I found the canteen, where most students say cafeteria. Naghanap ako agad ng masarap na pagkain, actually madaming pagkain ang tinda dito sa canteen at lahat mukhang masarap pero ewan ko ba parang wala akong gana.
Matapos ang ilang minuto na pagtitingin ko sa mga paninda, juice lang ang inabot ko, di ko kasi alam kakainin ko eh kaya nag-inumin nalang ako. Balak ko din naman kasi na mag istay muna sa classroom kase nga na o-op ako dito sa labas, I guess.
Pagadating ko sa classroom, walang tao, halata naman na nasa labas silang lahat at nagkwekwentuhan na. I wish I can be like them, no worries, no pain, and no struggles.
Onti unti nang nagsipasukan ang mga kaklase ko at nagsimula nang umingay ang buong room.
"Uy penge niyan."
"Masarap ba yang piattos tiff?"
"Pre basketball mamaya ha."
At kung ano ano pang ingay ang mga naririnig ko, Just the typical highschool chitchats.
"Hello krizelle!" A girl who's taller than me smiled and offered her hand. "Umm hello..hehe."
"kilala mo naman na ako diba?" Tanong niya dahilan para kabahan ako, I feel like I'm going to stutter. "Fame, ikaw si Fame oo alam ko hehe." I sounded weird,
"Pwede bang makipagkaibigan?"
tanong niya, I immediately put a big smile in my face, "Sure,that would be great." I smiled.
Napatigil ang lahat sa pagkain at pagiingay nang dumating ang isang mapanindig balahibong guro sa loob ng klase namin, matangkad ito at kitang kita ang ganda ng tindig niya, may nunal ito sa pagitan ng mga kilay niya na kapansin-pansin.
"Goodmorning students, I am Mrs. Buenavista and I will be your English teacher, So for today we will first introduce ourselves to each other but in a very unique way."
I found her way of talking nice and comfy. She maybe look strict but it's actually nice, she looks professional.
"First you must find a partner, You will introduce your partner to the class and say your first impression to him/her."
The room went loud and I can see that they have their own partners now. I looked down, being anxious of everything in this room.
"Pwede bang ikaw nalang ang partner ko? wala kase akong kapartner eh." Nahihiyang sabi ng babae na ubod ng puti, I guess she's Cess. "Sure, why not." My sound became shaky.
The introduction of ourselves turned out nice and great. I'm satisfied on how friendly Cess and others is. I guess adjusting will be a little easier.
Saktong may kinokopya ako nang biglang may bumangga ng upuan ko, no scratch that, sinisipa ang upuan ko.
I looked at my back, I saw this guy on bangs. I shook my head, trying to express the words don't do that again! But nothing came out of my mouth, I just continued writing.
Lumipas ang ilang minuto ay bigla ko nanamang naramdaman na may sumisipa sa upuan ko at sa bag ko.
I looked at him flatly again, but in my shock. Our faces were just a few inches away. The two of us went quiet and I fell silent,
"Broom broom." He grinned and wiggled his eyebrows. I could only raise my right eyebrow because of his immaturity.
"Broom broom." ulit niya. I don't know what he's saying, even a single penny of thought. I don't literally know what he's doing and what he is about to.
Nagbaba ako ng tingin sa kamay niya na nasa pagitan ng mga mukha namin, may kotse kotsehan siyang hawak na maliit.
All I can do is to stare at him flatly, what a person. I wonder how old is he. I looked on his nametag and I could only sigh of the name written on it.
Naruto Shippuden
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Filipino time. All are busy answering the sheet given by the teacher. Mga bahagi ng pananalita.
While writing, may naramdaman akong kumalabit sa balikat ko. I looked and saw this childish guy.
"Bakit Jay?" I asked. Irritated, but maybe I look like a stone because of no emotions I'm showing for anyone.
"Wala po wala po hehe." ngiting asong sabi ni Jayrome. This Jayrome Alfuedo, you're getting into my nerves.
"Lakas trip mo ah." Sabi ko nalamang at ngumiwi, I have to answer this test first.
Pagkatalikod ko ay kumalabit kalabit nanaman siya at dahil inis na inis na ako sakanya ay itinaas ko ang kamay ko at nagsumbong,
"Ma'am si Jayrome po nangangalabit kanina pa." sumbong ko sa teacher namin.
"Jay bakit mo siya kinakalabit? May problema ka ba?" Mahinhin na tanong ng teacher sakanya. I could only sigh, at last titigil na siya.
"Hindi po ako yun si Kenneth po yun hehe." Sabi ni Jay na nagpakunot ng nuo ni Kenneth. This is getting cheesy, nandamay pa siya ng iba.
"Anong ako, dinadamay mo pa ako eh nananahimik akong gwapo dito tsk." That was Kenneth's response.
I just continued finishing my test. This is much better worth seeing than that guy.
"Jay bakit mo naman siya kinukulit? Crush mo siya noh?" Our teacher said, making me shock in disbelief. And making the childish guy Jay overreacting.
"HALA HINDI PO MAAM!" sigaw ni Jay at biglang napuno ng hiyawan ang klase. I could only just sigh, great now I'm the center of attraction again.