ATHENA
Ng makarating kami, agad naming nakita sila Christian na mukhang kararating lang rin. Yes! We're here! Excited na ko!
Tirik na tirik ang araw at kumikinang ito dahil sa pagtama sa tubig. Ang ganda dito! Halos wala pang katao tao at puro trabahador pa lang ang nakikita ko. So calm and peaceful.
"Tara na sa hotel, guys. Para naman makapagpahinga pa tayo. Mukha kasing antok na antok pa kayo" natatawang banggit ni Christian. Sakto naman, Lenia and Gary yawned. "Right. I'm so sleepy pa. Tara na, babe" maarte na sabi ni Gary at kumapit kay Christian. Then he wrapped his arm around her waist.
"Let's go, Mimi" Lenia nod. Inalalayan rin siya si Brent. Bat ba antok na antok 'tong dalawang 'to?
Nagsimula ng maglakad si Christian at nakasunod lang kami sa kanila. Nasa pinakadulo kami ni Cyril. Siya ang may dala ng luggage namin. I volunteered to help him carry our luggage but he refuse. Kaya niya na raw eh di bahala siya.
Umakyat kami sa second floor ng hotel na hinintuan namin. In fairness, maganda naman ang hotel ng resort ng 'to.
Tumigil kami sa isang pinto tsaka humarap samin ni Cyril si Christian. "Oh, ito susi niyo" agad na napakunot ang noo ko. "Do you mean, susi ko?" sabi ko at tinuro ang sarili ko. "Ahm, hindi. Susi niyo. Kayong dalawa ni Mark" kaming dalawa ni Cyril? So it means..."Magkasama kami ni Cyril sa iisang room?!!" gulat na gulat kung tanong.
"Why? Do you have a problem with that?" nilingon ko si Cyril. "Of course! Bakit? Payag ka ba!?" I asked. Dahan dahan siyang tumango.
What the heck!? Payag siya!? Payag siyang magkasama kami sa iisang kwarto? P-Pero...
"What's wrong with that? After all, you're my fiancèe" nakangisi niyang sagot. Again, what the heck!?
"No! Maghahanap na lang ako ng ibang ro-"
"Stop." napatigil ako ng magsalita si Cyril. A dangerous aura suddenly envelopes us. "You're staying in my room whether you like or not. If I have to drag you inside then I will" madiin na sabi niya. H-He really wants us to stay in one room?! Seryoso ba talaga siya?!
"B-But Cyri-"
"No buts. Let's go!" tsaka niya binuksan ang room raw namin at hinila ako papasok at padabog niya itong isinara. Ano ba talagang problema ng lalaking 'to sakin?
"What the hell are you thinking!? I'm not sleeping with you!" madiin at sigaw ko sa kaniya.
He looked at me, emotionless. Napaatras ako sa tingin niya. He looks scary. "Do you hate me that much?" w-what?
"Cyril..." I don't know what to say. I want to shout and tell him that I don't hate him but I don't know why I can't manage to say it.
"Tell me, Athena, do you hate me that much? To the point that you will push me away from you? I'm your fucking fiance for Pete's sake!" halata ang galit sa boses niya. Ngayon niya lang ako sinigawan ng ganito. Ngayon lang rin ako natakot sa kaniya ng ganito na napaatras pa ako.
"D-Don't sh-shout at m-me" agad kung hinawakan ang kamay kung nanginginig. It's trembling. The hell! What's wrong with me?!
I lowered my head. I don't want him to see my tears. This is not the Jade Athena Lee that I know! I'm better than this! Damn! Come to your senses, Jade!!
Nagulat na lang ako ng may biglang humila sa akin at niyakap ako ng napakahigpit. "I-I'm sorry. Please stop crying. I don't know why but it hurts me to see you cry. And it's fucking because of me" he tenderly whispered.
Tuluyan ko ng hindi napigilan ang sarili ko. I hugged him back as tears still flows in my eyes. Mas lalo akong naluha sa sinabi niya.
"Love, please. I'm begging, please stop crying" ibinaon ko sa dibdib niya ang ulo ko at pilit ko ring pinipigalan ang patuloy na pagtulo ng luha sa aking mga mata.
I feel so safe in his arms.
"I'm s-sorry" humihikbi kung bulong. Hindi ko alam kung narinig niya ba ako or what pero mas humigpit ang yakap niya sa akin. Para bang ayaw niya na akong bitawan. I hug him tighter too.
"I should be the one saying sorry. I'm sorry I shouted at you. I'm so sorry, love" mahina ring bulong niya. Lumayo ako sa kaniya at tinitigan siya.
Now, he's not emotionless. Nakikita ko ang pagsisisi sa mga mata niya. Slowly, Cyril becomes calmer. Nawala na rin ang dangerous aura na nararamdaman ko kanina. I hope he's not angry anymore.
We stayed in this position for over a minute. I've never been this comfortable in my whole life. Gusto ko sa pakiramdam na yakap niya 'ko. I feel so loved. Parang natatakot siyang mawala ako. It feels like he's scared of letting me go.
I was enjoying the moment ng humiwalay siya. I thought iiwan niya ako doon kaya nagulat ako ng hilahin niya ako pahinga sa kama at kinubabawan ako. I was under him and he's so close. Too close that I can hear and feel his breath. He's panting. Hard.
What's happening to him? "A-Athena..." he stammered. I put my hands in his both cheeks. "What's wrong? Are you okay?" I asked, worriedly.
He stared at me, deeply. "I...ahm" mukhang nag aalanganin siyang magsalita. I can tell that something is bothering him. "Love, what's wrong?" pinalambing ko ang boses ko at hinaplos ko ang pisngi niya. I'm hoping it could help to tell me what's bothering him.
Umiwas siya ng tingin. "I wa-want...I ahm..." pilit kong ibinalik sa akin ang tingin niya. "Please look at me and tell me what's bothering you" I whispered. He lowered his head and make it closer to mine.
I felt that he brushes his lips to mine. I can't help it so I close my eyes. Then he whispered. "Don't leave me. Please, don't ever leave me. I'm not a perfect person but I promise that I will do my best to be your perfect husband. I will do everything so I can deserve you. I promise that I will always be by your side even you need me or not. I will always keep you safe and happy. I'll do everything. So please, please, don't ever leave me because I might go crazy if you'll be gone. Just thinking about it makes me terrified."
Oh god! What did I do to deserve a fiance like him? He may be scary sometimes but he can also be the sweetest. I opened my eyes and it meets his closed eyes. "I'll never leave you unless you want me too..." I whispered. "but that doesn't mean that you can push me away. I'm telling you now, Cyril, even if you push me away, became unsatisfied of me and not contented with me, I'm still not leaving you. I'm not planning to let you go." may sumilay na ngiti sa labi niya.
"That's good because I'm not planning to let you go too" he answered as he lowered his head and cross the distance between us. Lumapat ang labi niya sa labi ko. This is not the first time that we kissed but it feels so new. So special and different. Our emotions are exploding and mixing that even I can't name what I'm feeling right now.
"Hmm...Cyril..." bulong ko ng pansamantala siyang humiwalay but seconds didn't pass ng muli niyang ilapat ang labi niya. Now it's deeper and more passionate. I close my eyes as I wrapped my arms around his neck and pulled him closer.
"Damn, I can't get enough of you Athena"
He continued to kiss me deeper. The way his lips kiss mine, it's like he doesn't want to let go. Kung hindi pa kami kinapos ng hininga, malamang nakalapat parin ang labi niya sa akin.