I got up, when the sun rays directly fell on my face. I got up and saw Eric sleeping on the couch. The room was complete white with sky blue curtains. I felt dizzy after seeing this atmosphere. I touched my stomach unconsciously. It was just flat. I removed my blanket and saw my belly. It was just flat like nothing was there. I remembered the incident happened in the last night. I saw Eric.
I started crying. I was sobbing. I held my mouth tightly and started sobbing without making noises. But I didn't have control over it. I didn't know when my noiseless sobs turned into a loud cry. I started crying like a hell. Eric got up because of the noise. But he went out without saying anything. I didn't how long I cried. After sometime Eric came inside with few documents.
"You got discharged Jenn. We will go home now" He said without looking my face. He was pretending like reading something in the reports. We went out and went the parking lot. We hopped inside his car and he started the car and drove off.
We didn't speak with each other for the entire drive. I was crying. So did he. We both cried without telling anything. We reached out home. He got out from the care and went inside the home without turning towards me. I got out from the care. I went inside the house. He was standing in the middle of the living room. I went inside and hugged him tightly from behind.
He removed my hands from his waist and turned towards me. His face was red. And eyes were fluffy.
"Stop this Jennifer" He said.
"I didn't expect" I was cut off while speaking.
"Yeah, You didn't fucking expect my daughter would die with a glass of wine. If she doesn't, You could have had more to kill her right"
"No Eric, Listen to me please"
"I don't want to fuckin' listen.
"Please Eric. She is my child too"
"Please Jennifer. I don't have time to listen. Let me be alone for some time."
"Eric, Why are you doing this? I am in a pain"
"So do I. I wondered why you wanted to keep a child of a jerk like me. But You taught me a good lesson for messing around with you."
"What are you saying Eric? I don't understand."
"Oh, Let me explain. I told you not to drink. But you didn't listen. You wanted to celebrate. So you drank. You drank even knowing that it may affect my baby. I am just telling you that you killed our baby." He literally shouted the last few words. It was like piercing my heart with a thousands of needles.
"Oh, You wanted to celebrate right? Now you can celebrate the death of my princess. Let me order red wine to Celebrate." He said sarcastically. I could not take it anymore. I slapped him hard.
"She is my child too. She was inside me for 5 months. She is my blood. She was having what I was having. She was breathing with air which I inhaled. She was so much connected to my heart more than you. I am feeling like someone just pulled my heart with barehands. You never understand the pain of mother who lost her kid." I shouted at him each and every word.
"I hate you Jennifer. I don't want to see you again" He blurted. I already lost everything. Now my husband is not trying to console me. But I just needed only him right at this moment.
"I don't want to see your face when I come back. Just go away from my life" He said and went out.
I decided to go away from him. It was done. Eric and I were done. I didn't want to make it more painful for both of us. I decided to leave him. I wrote a letter for him and kept it on the dressing table in our bedroom. I kept my ring which he gave me on top of that letter. I got freshen up and let his home. So many people said that marriage and love were just a part of life. It was just a chapter. So in our life the chapter is over.