He was there with me for a pretty long time. But I didn't want to cause trouble so I kept my distance and yet why did he wear such a sad expression? Is it my fault? Am I annoying...? But if that was it, I wouldn't be able to do anything about it, since I got Adhd.
Even with my medicine, it's still not a given that it's gone, rather just temporarily put away and when it breaks out It will explode.
Well, what do I think about my medicine you ask? I hate them, I feel caged and sometimes I feel dizzy because of them. When I am down it feels like it ties me down there and I can't break away there.
I was an energetic child, I used to run and jump a lot but since I was bullied my cheerful personality changed. I couldn't talk for 1 or 2 years, it felt like my lips were glued together. I always used to talk to teachers only... Or chatting with online friends. I am just glad, that I will graduate this year.
I planned to go in boyish clothes but tsk haha, no can do. My classmates think I wanna be a boy but I never wanted to be a boy... I just thought that I wouldn't be able to handle it as a girl, so I pretty much acted like a guy till the point even my family started believing me... My brother even told me if my Shoulders were thicker than his he would give me the money for it...
When I look back now it makes me laugh my ass off. I am starting to accept myself as a girl I go to school in a dress and all my classmates be like, "Eri do you want to be a guy now or not?" They just don't get it, not like I got it at the start either but now I am clear with myself...
I should become an actress in the future, don't u think?