He was the reason I took interest in the front pew, so I could see when he laughed and when he moved so none of his actions were lost to me.
I wanted to be lost in the darkness of his light, because he was darkness light had become darkness to me.
I always sat down in the front pew. Which was bad in the sense that it would take you having to make your way through a crowd of people before you could get out of mass after any programme.
But I was used to it. I've been doing it.
I skillfully dodged my way out of the very impatient crowd. Everyone was eager to leave because it was already late at night.
But their reasons for wanting to leave was not mine. Although i wouldn't deny that some of them shared the same reason with me.
Some of us didn't mind that it was 11pm. We wanted to see the priest Father Valentine.
My legs took unsure steps to the parish house which was at the back of the church. I was alone now. No family, no friend, no hands to pull me out of the ocean of lust.
Even if there came a hand to pull me back. I would have cut it. I would have fought tooth and nail to be set free from my own saviour.
I didn't want to be saved. Doom awaited me and i wanted that doom. As long as he was the water, i was ready to drown in his ocean of lust.
At the back of the church stood people waiting for him just like I was, like it was the second coming and he Christ.
When i got there I shuffled on both feet but other than that i was perfectly quiet not desiring to draw any attention to myself. I stood behind a pillar waiting, waiting for him while i watched as he attended to other people.
No one noticed me. Yet, in my heart I knew that he would perceive my presence. That he would notice, that he would feel it in his bones and on his flesh the presence of his Ria.
Just like i would have known if he was around no matter how quiet he tried to be.
Lust was magnetic. We called on each others bodies and we answered.
Just like i guessed His eyes met mine but he didn't move. He wanted to but my eyes told him not to. I was bringing him back from careless revolt.
I could wait while he yet had to play God. Although they were nothing to him he had to fulfill their wishes. It was all game. A game i wouldn't let him lose.
When the crowd had dissipated like dew in the morning he finally started walking up to me.
Thump
Thump
At first my heart moved like it was a rollercoaster then it stopped abruptly as if the control switch was damaged.
It was like i was being commanded to remain still and i obeyed the command perfectly.
I remained still and watched and anticipated as he walked to me. His eyes kissed my skin and i shuddered.