I bite my nails nervously as I tell my mind to calm down. It is not going to hurt. It's not going to hurt.. It's not going to hurt but why, why do I have to do the test? why can't he ask me himself?
I'm scared also embarrassed, doing the test means them seeing my private which I'm not comfortable with and I heard it's going to be four people in the room. I don't know if they're going to inflict any object in me since it is a test but I do hope the doctor won't.
My thoughts wander to five hundred miles away from where I'm currently am, I became unconscious of the real world which I don't fancy at all. If I at all want anything, it's to block all the murmurings and whispers beside me that seems to never end.
"Hwangje pyeha! One of the eunuch announced outloud which instantly brought me back to the present.
"What does he want?" I mused nervously and scared before standing up in respect even though the linen cotton is hiding my body
I prayed that he doesn't barge inside as i'm not his wife yet, but something in me knows he can come in if he wants to, I just hope that he respects me a little in front of his subjects because I'm not ready to face him yet.
"His Royal Highness." one of his subjects called trying to remind him that he is not supposed to be here yet but also trying to save his head as he didn't move to stand in his front but instead he's standing by his side where he began to bow while saying "His Majesty" continuously and with a pleading tone.
I found myself fighting with my inner and outer scared self and at the same time, I comfort myself with the thought that even if he is a monster, he won't kill me because he wants me to be his wife.
"His Royal Highness, Lady Kim Nana is preparing for the virgin test after which if she is confirmed virgin the wedding ceremony will begin. Please have some patience." The man plead again as the others behind him all keel then bow as they say.." His Highness please have some patience!!" in unison.
"Enough!! he roar making my heart jump in fear then he start moving towards me which cause my heart to start beating so fast.
"Wuji." his mother called making him stop then turned to her with one eyebrow raised up in anger making me ask myself ..how did she even know that he's in my room?
Oh god, so many people are in my room and they're scary.
Please mind, calm down ..relax, take a deep breath Nana, no one is going to hurt you. Just breathe in and then slowly breathe out.
In
Out
In
Out
"Ahh, this isn't working" I said in my mind then shiver as ice chill race straight through me. I started shutting my mind in other to keep my panic self at bare but then cringe a little when Royal mother started to speak again .. for a moment, I had totally forgotten that I have unwanted companies.
"Son it's against the tradition for the Emperor to see his bride before the wedding and she hasn't taken the virgin test yet ..for us to know if there is even going to be a wedding or not."
"Mother!" He called warningly making me realize that not even his mother can stop him from doing whatever he wants to do ..well here I am though, an outcast so i guess that's the proof for me that he can do anything he wants.
"Also for her sake son. You're going to scare her off before the main wedding process will even begin." Royal mother said and that seems to stop him as his hands is now hanging loosely beside him instead of opening the cotton like he intended to do.
"No virgin test. I can verify it myself."
"You can't! His mother yelled just as the same time his subjects bow down and begin to plead "His Royal Highness is wise and he will do the right thing!
"Enough!" He yelled making everyone to keep quiet, am sure even the ants too did.
"Son don't ..please; his mother said in a pleading voice as if realizing her earlier word of him can't do what he wants . "If you don't want people to question her then don't, It only going to be you, me, an elder and the doctor."
"No elder and I will agree to it." He said while looking at me but I know he can't see me fully as I can't quite well see him too because of the transparent cotton blocking our view but the amount I'm seeing makes me want to slap my face for thinking things I'm not supposed to.
"Son none of us will see anything but the doctor as there will be clothes covering her beside the doctor will also be the one to deliver all her and your children in the future. Stop this possessiveness ..please?" His mother plead but he didn't say anything, he just walk out of the door as his subjects or whatever that follows him around all stand and leave with him making me sign in relief.
"Strange way to say ok." I said in my mind then turn my head to see his mother looking at me furiously before she too leave the room. Instantly all the maids that knelt down when the emperor entered all stand up, some rush to me and started applying oils in my hair while the others dress me with the right attire for the virgin test making me cringe in my seat.