We walked to the garden behind there house. There was a little pond. It was beautiful. I looked around. Jake sat at a bench and watched me. "come sit" He says patting the spot beside him. I do making my way towards him. "So how are you really feeling, " He asks looking at me.
I look out at the pond. "Honestly I don't know.. I am feeling tired more than anything" I say honestly. He nods. "Having trouble sleeping"? He asks. I nod. "So.. first why did you tell anna about all this"? He asks. I was wondering if we would ever have this conversation. "I didn't I know the part you came in on sounded like I did but it was my dad.. I guess he needed help working all this out" I said shrugging my shoulders. "You don't trust her do you"? I asked. Looking at him.
Why does he have to be so good looking? I mean he isn't a model by any means. He is not fat nor skinny a perfect in-between id say. Well built. His face is a beautiful porcelain color. Rosie cheeks and lips, His lips are nice too. His eyes are normally a captivating light blue but they change colors. I do not know if it is a vampire thing or they have always done that but it is quite amazing they tend to match his moods too but I am still learning what each color means. Like right now his eyes are very light. Almost white they are so blue. Til I asked if he trusts her. They darkened fast.
Oh, I have been staring. He is lost in thought though so maybe he hasn't noticed. "honestly I do not trust most anyone right now. Beside you, your brother's, mom and Emily" He says. I don't know why but him not trusting katie bothers me. "You don't trust katie"? I ask.
I felt disappointment. She has become my sister and me really really like him but I need them to get past there past in order for her' s and minds friendship to continue and if something more is to happen with Jake and I.. I sigh. "I'm sorry Violet. I want to but her and I have a complicated past.." He says. "I get it.. just kind of sucks," I say. He looks at me. "So um.. I hate these conversations" He starts.
I look back at the pond feeling my heart start racing. He grabs my hand entwining our his fingers with mine. I look at our hands. "So we kissed.. and I don't regret it.. I don't think right now is the time to figure out if we should try this whatever it maybe but I also do not like the idea of you with someone else" He says super fast obviously nervous. I laugh. He stares at me. "Aww is jakie jealous" I taunt him. He glares at me rolling his eyes.
I smile. "You have nothing to worry about," I say reassuring him. He nods. "I am sorry about our first kiss.. but there is always the chance of me going back to that guy of being him it is my nature now and I need you to understand what you are signing up for if this goes anywhere," He says. I look at him. "I know what I am signing up for and I am not scared or going anywhere" I say.
His eyes seem to light up. I try not to but I cant help it I look down at his lips. He pulls me towards him. His hand brushing my cheek. He leans in and kisses me. This kiss is different than the last. It feels more variable more wanting. "Fucking finally" Katie screams. We pull apart "We can ignore her right" ? He asks. I laugh shaking my head no.
"I was coming to tell yall I have to run out for a bit but should be back soon. Just didn't want Vi to worry." She says. Jake is just staring no emotions on his face. I get up and hug her. She holds me tightly. Something about it doesn't feel right. I look at her, She is masking her emotions. "I love you," I say. She smiles. A smile not meeting her face. "I love you too and this" She points at jake and I "Is a great thing. Don't mess it up" She says to jake.
He nods. She turns and leaves. I watch her. My gut screaming at me to stop her. Jake stands beside me grabbing my hand with his. I look at him and smile. We make our way back to the house to be attacked by Emily. "So it is true?" She almost screams at us. I let go of his hand and place mine on her shoulders to stop her from bouncing up and down like a sledgehammer.
"Yes and no" I say as more of a question. He face falls. "It isn't official yet we want to get through all this first.," Jake says rubbing his neck feeling awkward. I smile at him. He wraps his arm around me. "Any idea where katie is going"? Jake asks.
"No. She got at text and went to find yall" She says. I stare at her. "hmm" he says. I no what he is thinking but I trust katie. I know she would not betray us. We sit down to watch the news. Ever sense anna took my dads spot and was scared to we agreed we'd support her by watching. But anna isn't here it is the other weather person. They say she called in sick.
"Let's not think the worst just yet," Nick says. I look at him "Our luck is always the worst though" I point out. "when did you become such a negative Nancy"? Derek asks half joking. "Do you blame me"? I asked. Jake was sitting beside me he has been lost in thought. "Don't hate me guys but Katie gets a text runs out and now anna is missing.. It doesn't seem a but off"? He asks.
"I trust her," I say feeling a little angry. He looks at me. "Me too," Emily and nick say. "I am with jake sorry guys," Derek says. "I am torn about it" Victoria says. We sit in silence. "Let's get some rest and if we do not hear from anna or Katie we will address it then," Emily says. We nod.
We all head to our rooms. Jake grabs my arm pulling me towards him. I look up at him. "Look I love that you see the good in everyone even if they do not deserve it but she has more stacked against her than for her.. I just do not want to see you hurt again," He says putting a piece of hair behind my ear. Love? That word keeps playing on repeat. Stop it, Violet, it isn't like he said I love you. "ok" I say unsure how to reply.
He kisses me lightly. He turns to go to his room. I look at my room. I don't want to be alone but feel weird asking him to stay with me. "jake"? I say he stops and looks at me as if reading me. He walks back towards me taking my hand in his leading me to my room. He turns off the lights and lays down pulling me with him. He wraps his arms around me playing with my hair. I lay my head on his chest. I try to stay awake but feel my eyes getting heavy before drifting off to sleep.