After having dinner with her mother and Meera, Kajol decided to pour herself a glass of wine and head upstairs to her bedroom. After showering she settled near her window on the sofa in her room while looking at the moon outside. She was replaying the day's events over and over in her mind.
She thought about Shah Rukh, his quick wit and charm. Their conversation flowed effortlessly. Their shared ideological beliefs on business. She couldn't deny the spark she felt between them. She sipped her wine allowing the logical part of her brain to work.
She had worked so hard on herself, her career, her independence and her healing to allow herself get caught up in this entanglement with Shah Rukh. Varun had pulled a wild and fast card on her. She had loved him with every atom of her being.
Varun and Kajol met when she was just eighteen and to Kajol it was love at first sight. Varun was an accomplished actor by then and Kajol was just in her first year at college. They immediately clicked and after dating for 3 years both parents agreed to let them get married after Kajol graduated from school.
They settled into marriage life and Kajol felt they needed more in life. She started out her plan to set up the company as Varun was always away on shoots Kajol decided to dive herself into her business idea while doing her Master's in Business. She managed to get funding from her parents' contacts. She worked tirelessly to open up her first branch which expanded to her now known Head quarters for Khushi Oil and Gas Enterprises.
After 5 years of marriage, Kajol and Varun decided to start trying for children. They had now settled and were financially stable for it. They tried for 9 years and nothing ever came out of it. They tried IVF 3 rounds. Kajol was becoming desperate and that's when the cracks in their marriage began to show.
Varun became distant and he didn't agree to go with Kajol for any of the IVF cycle appointments and never agreed to pay for them either. He only agreed to donate his sperms and vehemently refused to show up. Kajol was so desperate for a child she didn't care. Whenever she initiated sex, Varun turned her down clearly stating 'Was there any reason for him to touch her if she wasn't going to get pregnant ' her efforts were useless. He looked at her as if she were some damaged goods. It hurt her to her core. That's when Kajol came to find out that Varun was cheating on her with none other than her best friend Karishma.
They had a child together. Kajol felt like she was running mad. She clearly remembered how 2 years before that when Karishma had told her she was pregnant. She felt envious of her friend for getting pregnant without even trying. Nonetheless she decided to be a present aunt in the child's life. She planned the baby shower to the baby's first birthday. Karishma had told her that it was just a one night stand and the baby daddy wanted nothing to do with the baby or her.
As a good friend she decided to be there for her bestie as best as she could. Not knowing that Varun was the child's father and it wasn't just a one night stand it was a full blown affair and Varun was extatic to be having a child. She had no clue until she stumbled on bank statements in Varun's drawer, she found out that he had closed on a house deal. She thought it was just another property under their name until she had her lawyer dig deeper and found out the name on the lease was neither hers nor Varun but Karishma's.
She immediately hired a private investigator who brought her the evidence she needed to divorce the bastard. She never outrightly confronted Karishma. She blocked her on every social media platform and warned her security team from allowing her to step into any of her properties.
She filed for divorce citing irreconcilable differences between them, it was something Varun never saw coming. He divorced her without a fuss and that made Kajol more angry. "Did he really love me to begin with or was he only with me because of the influence my father had back then?" That was the question she asked herself continuously.
Varun's eagerness to let go of her so easily after 14 years of marriage was something that made Kajol question her worth even more. She really needed her father who died 10 years back, now to assure her that she was worth love.
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Shah Rukh was in his study after putting his kids to bed. He decided to go to his study to read a bit before heading to bed. Gauri brought him his tea before kissing him good night. His mind kept drifting back to his lunch date with Kajol. Her eyes, she had green eyes which had a tiny bit of gold in them whenever she laughed. He was enamored by the way she walked, her sense of fashion and the way she carried herself all together. Her laughter had been genuine. The way she looked at him it was as if she could see the real him past his successful aura. That feeling alone left him feeling exposed. It had been a long time since someone made him feel that way.
His guilt took over, he was married with the most beautiful and intelligent children he could ever ask for and an understanding wife. But his life felt like a routine which he and Gauri had fallen into. Yet he couldn't ignore the chemistry between him and Kajol. He knew the risks, a scandal could ruin not only his reputation but also his empire. To him truthfully he loved Gauri she had been his high school sweetheart. Before her there was never any girl in his life.
Guilt riddled he decided to go to bed to his wife. Gauri immediately turned towards him as he settled in bed and Shah Rukh knew her silent plea and he made love to her but with Kajol in his head.
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Kajol woke up in the middle of the night she couldn't sleep she kept tossing and turning in bed. Her mind kept wondering back to a certain handsome and very successful Shah Rukh, she couldn't stop thinking about him. She replayed their hug in her mind over and over again. She sighed her mind allowing the logical part of her brain to work. She had worked so hard on herself and her career to allow herself get caught up in this entanglement with Shah Rukh.
After reflecting on all that ,she knew that pursuing this connection with Shah Rukh would only blur her ethical lines. She wondered if his marriage was working or not. She weighed her options considering he had a wife and two kids. Yet still some rebellious part within her wanted more or was she just horny. It had been a year and a half since she had felt the touch of a man on her body, Maybe that was what was clouding her judgement. She decided to go to bed and quickly drifted to sleep.
She woke up hours later with a sweat, she had had a sex dream and she mentally cursed herself. The occupant of her dream was none other than Shah Rukh. She felt slight throbbing in between her legs, she couldn't help but touch herself to the thought of him. When she reached her climax she whispered his name out into the darkness of her room. She turned to her side guilt ridden, chastising herself for thinking about a married man who was now invading all her senses and now even dreams.