Camilla
I was not going to quit my job, I could never do that. I refused to allow Lawrence ruin my life for the second time. The only reason I had said that to him was so I could threaten him and to be honest, I hoped that it worked.
Lawrence released a heavy face. His face dropped and he looked sincerely genuine about it but I was afraid of falling for his malicious schemes. Only the Moon Goddess knew what Lawrence had in mind but one thing I knew for sure was that I would not let Lawrence trample over me again, not now and not ever.
"Camilla, at least hear me out. Let us talk things out like grown adults would." Lawrence said with pleading eyes. Why did he keep insisting that we talk things out? Frankly speaking, there was nothing to talk about. Although I was slightly curious about his sudden change in attitude five years ago, why had he suddenly rejected me? Even when he knew I was carrying his children.
"Talk things out?" I paused to scoff loudly and i shook my head at me. A look of disdain remained plastered on my face.
"Yes Camilla, right now it may seem like I am the bad guy of your story but I swear to you that there is an explanation to all of this Camilla." Lawrence said. I scoffed and shaked my head in disbelief. Was Lawrence going to come up with a lie just to make sure I forgive him?
"Think about it Camilla, you know that I would never do anything to intentionally hurt you or your feelings." Lawrence continued. I sighed heavily, his words were slowly penetrating through me and I hated him. Lawrence somehow always found his way into my heart with his sweet words and that was why I wanted to keep my distance from him, I would not want to make any decisions that I would regret later on.
"Just allow me ex--" I cut Lawrence off with a loud cough. I do not want to hear his c*ck and bull story. What does he take me for now? An idiot? Does he think that after the explanation, I would somehow run back to him?
"There is nothing for you to explain Lawrence. I do not want to hear your explanation." I spoke in a firm voice. I was supposed to have left his room by now but my mind remained set on making things clear to Lawrence. I was only going to leave when he had agreed to professionalism. I needed him to stop requesting for me all the time and trying to apologize, I would prefer we acted like we never knew each other.
"Why are you holding back Camilla? Are you afraid that if you hear my explanation, you might understand me and you do not want to?" Lawrence spoke in a soft and steady tone.
I rolled my eyes at him. Deep down inside of me, I knew that Lawrence was right but I was not going to let him know that.
"I do not understand what you are talking about but I will pretend like I do. What if you do apologize and i do accept your apology. What happens after that? What the hell do you want from me?" I yelled at him with a scowl on my face.
"Camilla. I just want to know that you no longer hate me. Camilla, if you must know. I still have feelings for you, those feelings never died and it never will." Lawrence said.
My eyes widened in surprise and I hastily checked to make sure that no one was eavesdropping on I and Lawrence's conversation.
"Can you just stop? Feelings for me? Lawrence you chased me out of your house and made me abort the baby in me yet you claim to have feelings for me? B*llsh*t!" I roar angrily.
"Camilla, I said there was a reason why I did all of that, you are the one who does not want to hear that reason." Lawrence empahsized his words. Wow, I could not believe that Lawrence still had the guts and efforntry to tell me that he had feelings for me. What sort of disrespect was that?
"That is because I refuse to hear your c*ck and bull story. Everything you say is always a f*ck*ng lie Lawrence! You said you loved me years ago yet it was so easy for you to throw me out of the house, reject me and still take out my unborn child. You are a monster so do not try to preach love to me here because you know nothing about what it feels fo be in love!" I snapped at him. I was losing my cool slowly, I knew I had to maintain composure or else things would have escalated more than this.
I hastily ran a hand through my hair and said to Lawrence in a calm yet deadly tone. "For the record, I have a man in my life so you should dead whatever thoughts you have in mind."
This time, Lawrence just gazed at me, he looked tired but at the same time I could see pity and concern twinkling in his eyes. Why was he feeling pity for me? What was there to pity about? I was doing perfectly okay with my twins and Raymond. I did not need his pity.
"D*mn, I must have hurt you a lot Camilla. I just want to say that I am sorry. I understand if you resent me and you no longer want to be my personal doctor. I understand all of that and I have no right to persuade you into taking care of me." Lawrence said. It looked like he was giving up on me yet I did not seem happy about it at all.
What was wrong with me?
"I will remain as your personal doctor but let us keep things professional. I am a stranger to you and you are a stranger to me."